Something amazing happened to me last night, all thanks to abstaining from PMO

So last night, to be blunt, was amazing. This was the first time in my life where I actually stepped out of my turtle shell, and I had an incredible time.

A friend (acquaintance, really) invited me to a little get together at his place, and I guess out of total energy and being bored of my mind for so long, I decided to man up and go. Prior to this, for the longest time I would just "party hop" or whatever you call it - I would scout around my area to find college parties, but every single time I DID find one, I would just circle/wander around the place to decide whether or not I should go in. I never did, but last night, I bought a few beers and said "Fuck it, go and have a good time."

Upon arrival, I was hella fucking nervous. I thought it was going to be a full-blown rager, with blistering loud rap music and nonstop drinking, dancing etc. To my surprise it was much different; a very close, intimate little get together. About 10 people playing cards, drinking, watching the game, and just chilling. I was actually debating on whether or I should have just said "No" to this whole thing, but I remembered that I was here for one thing - just to relax. Not focused on "picking up as many chicks as possible", or "getting laid" (this was my main notion whenever I went to a party before starting NoFap, didn't care about talking to people, connecting, etc, only focused on the physical aspect of things). So I did, and well, I'm so glad I did, because it was well worth it.

When I got there, I couldn't help but gravitate towards this girl. I was so attracted to her, and the best part, not physically but spiritually. I loved her aura, her sense of style, the way she carried herself, her charm, it was a very special moment for me. She was very alluring in that aspect. This was something I never experienced when I was PMO'ing; like I said, I would always just focus on "getting as much vagina" as possible, and literally nothing else.

Luckily for me, I sat on the couch beside her and just started talking. At first I was extremely nervous, but after a while I just said to myself "My man, chill the fuck out. You're just talking." I tried to stay away from having excessive amounts of alcohol, but I decided to have one anyway - I guess it helped, but I wasn't focused on getting totally plastered thankfully.

We talked for a while, and we went outside and had a cig. It was so amazing, this was the first time in my entire life where I actually connected with a girl. Keep in mind that I am 21 years of age, have never been in a relationship, etc, so this was a very special moment for me. I know for most guys this doesn't seem like anything at all (what, talking to a girl? Big deal), but for me at least, this was the first time in my life where I connected to a girl on a deeper level. We just talked about our life, interests, plans for the future. I just felt like a human being again. Maybe the alcohol helped, but I don't know.

Unfortunately, I will no longer be living in this area, so I guess that really sucks. Luckily, she said that I could come and visit at some point in the future, so that was reassuring. I got her number, and this next week we plan to go party and have fun. I think she's inviting some other people too, so that will be awesome.

Like I said, I know this probably isn't anything at all for most guys out there, but it is for me. I found her to be so appealing, all on a spiritual level and nothing else. I finally connected with a woman, and I feel proud. I'm on day 12 of my NoFap journey, so I don't know if that had anything to do with it, but who knows.

I am going to make an honest effort to completely cut out PMO forever, I know that sounds ridiculous but what happened last night, I could feel the energy flow through my entire body, something I've never experienced when I was just in my bedroom fapping endlessly all night for years.

Just wanted to share this with you all, thanks for reading

 

I feel you bro. It's like you are truly yourself on nofap. You are nervous and stressed but you do what you wanna do anyways. It happens to me as well, sadly I relapse so often. When you are not staying at home PMOing all the time, you have this desire to see people, to talk to people, to create bonds with people again. Good for you man!

 

Nothing ridiculous at all about cutting PMO out forever