Still thinking about videos

Probably normal... I remember and feel excited by some porn scenes that I only saw once or twice, decades ago.

 

On day 115 hardcore no pmo. This happened to me earlier on but it has since faded. I dont really distictly remember anything specific, but sometimes pornographic scenarios occur especially during wetdreams (only had like 4 or 5 so far). These images manifest themselves from the darker reaches of mind because I cannot consciously envision such realistic and graphic things. I dont recall specific videos but the remnants of those memories must linger in combination with my imagination to conjure such unexpected dreams. I hope one day I will be free of this curse for good. Finding sexual solace in a loving partner will also hopefully mend these wounds. This happens very seldom but is a grim reminder of my past habits. However im not worried because I know these thoughts will dissapate, and I will never forsake the values of nofap that have brought me so much happiness and fufillment. Its normal to experience it dont worry too much about it and it should be gone completely eventually.

 

I literally damaged my lappy and gave mobile to a friend of mine so i won't have any triggers left and surprisingly,they were my easiest no pmo days. Somedays i remember a p-star and get excited to see her vid.'s and sometimes its usually curiosity of what'
s new is what has mostly resulted in relapses.i think porn has made technology a curse for us.

 

Decades ago?!!! Mo********. So I can forget ever leaving thinking about porn behind me? I will never get rid of these thoughts?

 

I can remember some porn scenes the way I can remember various other things from long ago. I'm not saying these memories necessarily have a lot of power over me now, and i know that is ypur concern. But the fact is, some memories linger for a long time, and I can either disregard them or use them to harm myself. I just think it's normal for some things to remain in our memory.