Giving it a try

Hello nofap! I'm 15, and that might sound young, but I do have an addiction, since maybe the age of 9. PMO has been affecting my life (socially and physically) and I feel as if my addiction is holding me back from my dreams, and my life, and Im tired of not getting anything done. So I'm giving this a shot! Wish me luck!
P.S I'm new to forum's, so if anyone could tell me how these things work I'd appreciate it !

 

Ok, so I started masterbating a soon as 9 years old, and by 10 I was already pretty deep into pornogrophy, until maybe 3 years ago it was kind of under control until I fell really in love with a girl, we went out, she broke up a few months later, and from then on I started masterbating more and more often, going deeper and deeper into porn. I started getting bad grades, I was lonely, I became socially awkward, which I never was before. For a long time I though I was bipolar, or depressed, but never once had it occurred to me that it was because of pornography. And I lived with this sort of guilt, masterbating, even thinking about my mom while doing it often (Oedipus complex I guess). For the past year I've been masterbating so much I started to get bruises on my D, from doing it so much. And now there's this girl I like that I just can't seem to have the courage to ask her anything, I'm finding it impossible to get good grades, to work towards my dream of producing and writing music, I'm tired of not getting shit done, and I want to change that. I deeply regret what porn has done to me and I just can't imagine how much amazingly better my life would have been if I hadn't gotten addict. So there's my story!

P.S Thanks for the videos they were really interesting!