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Falling in love and PM

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by jacoponedatodi, Jan 16, 2017.

  1. jacoponedatodi

    jacoponedatodi Fapstronaut

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    Hello all,
    I've been masturbating compulsively for 10 years now, with peaks of 2 or 3 times per day. However I have noticed that whenever I get a crush on someone, my interest for porn suddenly vanishes; even if I try, I have trouble getting aroused in front of porn. Same with masturbation. It's as if I enter an alternate universe where I have no libido. As soon as I forget about my crush, I go back to the normal universe. Does anybody else experience that?
     
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  2. Headspace

    Headspace Fapstronaut

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    Yes and no. I don't PMO anymore (if I do, it's a relapse), but in the past I would lose interest in porn just like you. However, I never perceived it as "having no libido". I perceived it as anticipating the real thing and not needing the artificial stimulation of my hand + porn anymore! So it's a positive thing, and it's more an increase in libido than a decrease. (Porn doesn't really have to do much with libido or "sex drive", it's just compulsive addicitive behavior which kills your actual libido.)
     
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  3. jacoponedatodi

    jacoponedatodi Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for your answer, that's interesting! I think my case is different then: when I have a strong crush on someone, I don't have any sexual fantasies about anyone, including my crush. Interest for porn fades as well, and I don't masturbate. It is as if my "platonic love" is enough to fulfill me emotionally; I need no longer to "evade reality" through sexual fantasies or porn because reality seems sweet enough as it is! I know it sounds odd, that's why I'm curious to see if anybody can relate to that..
     
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  4. jdilla97

    jdilla97 Fapstronaut

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    I experienced that :) Exactly the same
     
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  5. Shin Iu

    Shin Iu Fapstronaut

    I can't promise you if you could understand what i said, but I will say it.
    The biggest problem for this generation is the world from computer. If you somehow enjoy more computer life (video games, video, news, webs) than real life (play sports, travel, hiking), you might have imigination became real. This is not real, but it affect you in reality, anti-social, depression. To be honest, no-libido somehow means ED in real life, but good infront of porn.
    I can tell that you would have libido again once you quite porn and masturbation for at least 7-10 days, even in front the girl you like.
    to understand more, if you have time, read the link below:
    https://www.NoFap.com/forum/index.php?threads/you-must-quite-addicts-this-is-why.87205/#post-703153
     
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  6. TheLoneDanger

    TheLoneDanger Fapstronaut

    I'm married now, but I went through that exact same thing. It's funny, I just read this but I mentioned this phenomenon in my reboot log earlier today. Anyway, this had happened my entire life, even before the unlimited access to porn we have today. I would have absolutely no sexual thoughts about females I really liked, yet I wouldn't feel the need for P or M either.

    I attributed it to being so stuck in the fantasy world that my brain has somehow compartmentalized sex from true love. I think this was caused by by an event that happened early in childhood that involved porn, but I'm sure my eventual addiction to P kept this alive. I just hope for our sake that we can heal from this.
     
  7. jacoponedatodi

    jacoponedatodi Fapstronaut

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    Most times I've been rejected; in these cases, upon rejection I immediately cease idealizing this person as the divine soul it seemed to be until a few moments before. She goes back to being a normal person whom I find phisically attractive. When the frustration caused by rejection has healed, I may even masturbate while thinking of her, something that was unconceivable earlier on.

    On the other hand, those times when the infatuation is mutual, sex does work out. However, in the beginning stages of the relationship, I don't see sex as something essential in the chemistry of the relationship. Sexual urges and fantasies directed to my girlfiend only appear as I proceed in the relationship, but it can take weeks or months. I find this really puzzling, and I can't think of a satisfactory explanation.

    Wow, that's exactly the feeling I was trying to express, thanks a lot for your answer! The "sex/true love compartmentalization" thing is spot on, I perceive the two feelings as belonging to different realms. I'll add something: as I've said before, when I'm infatuated, the "true love" fantasy completely replaces the urges for sex and porn. My logical deduction is that the role of PM in my life is to fill an emotional gap, which a transient fantasy of unconditional, spiritual love can sometimes fill for a while. What this gap exactly is, I'm still trying to understand, but its presence terrifies me.
     
  8. TheLoneDanger

    TheLoneDanger Fapstronaut

    This is my sex life in a nutshell! I've gone through all of those same things and wondered if I was alone in this. It's good to see I'm not. Unfortunately, this may be something much bigger than a PMO fix. It probably is something that would be best helped by therapy. I really wish I would have acknowledged this earlier in life.
     
  9. SheMonk

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    I'm not a guy, but I can somewhat relate strongly to this. My biggest crushes / loves were always extremely platonic in nature, for me. I had no desire to bed them, but I strongly craved their emotional and intellectual presence. Sex only became an alluring option several months into the relationship, and if a relationship never happened (unrequited love) I didn't really care. I just wanted the mental closeness and could fantasize about that for hours on end.

    I distinguish quite harshly between sex and love.
     
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