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Here for you, partner. Have you identified your trigger(s) yet?

 

Hey man … Firstly seriously well done on getting to 28 DAY!!! That’s a serious achievement, that’s something I’ve never achieved so I think you should be very proud of yourself for doing that. Focus on that fact, you have proved you can do it and therefore can do it again, that’s a major positive!!

I know I do feel very down after relapsing but I try to focus on the positive of what I’ve achieved and more forward again…. When its me , there is nothing positive to be gained from sitting still and letting those negative emotions flood your head.....

I’ve only got to DAY7 but I’ve learned from it , something upset me on that DAY 7 and I let it affect my mood , I felt worried and I tried to escape the feeling with P…. I have recently started meditating and a big part of that for me has been trying to learn to not be swiped away with a thought or mood and trying to escape it…. And if that does'nt work I’m planning to just get out of my apartment go for a walk or run , just be any where I can’t act out…

I’m just at DAY 3 again but all good so far …. Again you should be seriously proud of getting to DAY 28 , dust yourself off and start moving forward…
Wish you all the best with the POM fight

 

You are very welcome !!!! The one thing I really like about this site is that it makes me realize that I’m not alone… and either are you!!


Suppose I can’t give advice but only tell you what works / has worked for me.


But I agree with Deadlihood…. Knowing what (emotion or event ) triggered you is a great help with this …. For me it was everyday events … boss shouting , thinking someone didn’t like me … anything ….. that if I was in a good place I wouldn’t even give them a second thought ….


But when I’m watching P and full of anxiety, worry and fear I would keep thinking about them , driving myself nuts ….. And then P is a great option to give me relieve … but then those emotions are still there waiting for me and then I have all the shit that comes with watching P…


With the meditation, I first joined a 6 week class …. And the first time I tried it I was shocked at how hard it was and how uncomfortable it made me feel….. we where lying doing the meditation and for me it was like my skin was crawling, I wanted to get up , look at my Iphone , I was thinking about work , I was thinking about what bills I had to pay… it was tough …


After the class I discussed this with the lady running the class ….. and she told me that was showing I really need meditation. To relax and quiten my mind … I kept at it …. And for me when I think about when I relapsed it can come from no where , a thought of P and I just act…. I think the meditation is helping me to be more aware of these thoughts …


So to start I would recommend joining a class… you can try it and also it gets you out , meeting new real people (most of the people who attend these class are really cool ) so it’s the real world away from P…


Hope this is of help … and if you ever what to chat no problem ….

 

Stay strong, just think on what comes next, i did a 90 days test and it wasnt the best, but i decided to try to continue to se what can happen and im in my 8 month and i feel a lot better, urges almost at 0, anxietys almost at 0, morning energy nice and humor diferent