Dying

Hey everybody! Very glad to be in a community of people with a strive to stop this vicious habit.

Quick anecdote of why I'm here: Yesterday, my girlfriend and I were having an awesome time together watching Breaking Bad. We decided after an episode to have some fun. I was incredibly turned on.. this girl is the most attractive girl in my life! The irony of the situation: it took me 20 minutes, with some help from my hand at first, to orgasm.

This has happened plenty of times before, up to 30 minutes of my girlfriend sitting there waiting for me! Keep in mind we are virgins, we do everything that won't get her pregnant and ruin our lives. I know there's birth control, condoms, and pulling out, but nothing would feel worse than that snowball's chance. So its our personal will not to! The issue is, its no fun taking so long with everything else.

My goal is not to orgasm faster, though. The big picture is the fact that I have built a dependence on porn. I am not completely addicted, it doesn't get in the way of my daily life. But there is enough of a dependence where I seek the novelty and action involved with porn. I care about my girlfriend more than anything; I hate the thought of me expecting something like porn in real life.

There it is. My goal is to stop masturbating and watching porn altogether for the riddance of the dependence I have on it. I'm taking baby steps: 1 day, 3 days, a week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks, a month.

Much support please,

No. Longer. Fapping.