New and feeling positive! This is 'hard mode', right?

27 y/o male. Used porn since I was... I have a terrible memory. Early teens?

Loss of ability to get erection without physical contact, keep erection for 5 seconds without physical contact, and then add on PE to that

Porn got weirder and weirder. Sex avoided when possible.

Somehow, with all this, I've been with girls from (probably literally) half the countries in the world (I travel)- I have zero idea as to how I've accomplished this. hah.

But as for now- I have four months until I leave for a trip around 40 countries (motorcycle) - so I'd like to be a lot closer to how I want to be by then. I'm hoping that the PE is related.

As you can tell, this is all in random, stream of consciousness order.

I believe I have slightly higher oestrogen than most, or lower testosterone (so intertwined, it's almost impossible without periodic blood tests to find out - but it's largely irrelevant). But a big problem has been psychologically - the first time I was with a girl, I couldn't get an erection- I think we tried on like 3 separate occasions (I was 15?) - But then with the next girlfriend, it was always absolutely fine for maybe two years. (well, my level of 'fine' - not like the steel rod it 'should' be at that age?)

I'm feeling pretty good about the reboot so far- it's been 8 or 9 days (My diary's all the way over there) and I can feel the hum and vibration of addiction. I've been here before. Not with PMO, but the feeling is the same. The pull! I'm eagerly anticipating the jonesing (Flatline, right?) because I know that that's the river to cross to get to the promised land, and I've got my boots on. (I love a good metaphor).

I've been through super bad anxiety before (i.e. seconds away from panic attack from waking up until falling asleep- couldn't go in cars, trains, etc.) and taught myself how to overcome it, so I know I can struggle through. I quit smoking cold turkey, went raw vegan cold turkey (mmm vegan cold turkey) (That was a few years ago - pescetarian now), taken a lot of cocaine, ecstasy, heroin and others and never had a problem with overcoming them. (Again, I'm talking in.. 2009?)

I've also lived in India and learned a lot about coping and self learning.

My situation, as I said before is that I'm four months away from this trip. Until then, I'm alone a lot. I'm building another business and work from home, so I haven't got time to do much anyway! (It doesn't sound like a good thing- it is right now) - So I'm not interested in girls until I leave - when chasing the dopamine, I would surf through Tinder but it would inevitably end up in conversation ending because I'm just too busy, so it seems the perfect time.

My mind's made up now - I don't want porn. I'll say it.. ever again.

Doing what I believe to be hard mode? No P, no M, no O. Four months.

Also transitioning to a testosterone boosting diet. Does that make it extra difficult mode? hah

Thank you for having me here. If you've read this far, I swear I'm not insane. I just write in a stream of consciousness. Best way to cover everything.

I appreciate every last one of you!

 

I haven't really thought of strategies. Kind of jumping in. (Foolishly?) The things I've beaten before have all just been "grit your teeth and make it through". I was thinking that, given I have a calisthenics routine- channeling the energy into pushups when needed?

Added benefit being, if it proves super difficult, I'll end up looking like Arnold.

 

Thanks very much! I do have one question regarding wet dreams - I don't think I've ever had one and I don't want to start now when it now has a consequence. How do you possibly avoid it??

I'm sure I'll find the answer on the forum, I'm having a good old read through everything at the moment.

 

Sounds good with me. I was just wondering as to whether it would affect the recovery at all. The 'release' of testosterone and all that.

 

Ah right, no worries Thanks for the introduction, man!