PMo kills me :(

I decided to quite Pmo 1 year ago (in 2016) . yes i quite for 20 days, but then i went to a bitch to test my ED , so everything it was good , good erection in the first round ; we did one round ,but after 20 mnt we tryed to make the second, but Unfortunately i did not i can not . i asked my self ( WTF 20 days without fappin and i was 24 years old so atleast i should did twice round ) ,so when that happened to me i back to home and i tried to test my Ed , AND iwatch Porne videos and i have normal Erection so i pmo . next day i want to test my self again yes i did twice without problem . then and then many days, then i found my self back to the wolrd of pmo the black life, even its make me happy but in reallity its ruined my life . so i tried to start new record new reboot but 6 days relapse after 7 days relaps and so on , specially in summer three months of pmo while my friends enjoying the summer . as a result of that , one year without girfriend one year without relationship ,alone at home ,anxiety became worse that made me i can not went to university, and live my life , no work , no success in univeristy etc ...... black year as all the past years . specially 2016.
2017 started with new motivation with new reboot record 22 days ,and sport . so what happen then ? first time i had Wet dreams because for 3 years i didnt achieve it . so i made an excuse that im relapse and i start again pmo (stupidity ) . i ruined my life by video games ,pmo , sleep and repeet .
while i really need a gf , i fell depressed all the time , sometimes i cried when i was alone . and its hart to get gf , speacially girls doesnt like nice guys ( shy guys ) who pmo all the time . i lost interest to make new realtionship , dirty minds , black ideas ( all of you know the bad impacts of pmo) . my old friends they start leaving me because they see me i can not change, i stay at the same level while they have many experiences with girls in one years . i suffer a lot . Feeling Lonely kills me .
to sum up i want to say to everyone here stop PMO , please . the bad guys get girls and they gets your chances ,and they enjoy it speacially when they see you suffering from this bad addiction ,they love to see you shy and enxiety , they does not more Competition . you give them your chances .
girls does not like weak , shy , nice guys ( im not telling you to became bad boy ) but to became normal man .
i see persons less than me in many things but they became better than me ; they succed in their life , they have a beautifull GF . but me Not why ?

not if you stoping Pmo you baceme succes in life , no. you should to replace this bad habbit by new attitudes ( start doing gym , sport , study hard , orginze your time , sleap early , weak up early , avoid media as much as you can , try to live your life your moments you will not be young forever, so profite now .
honestly now i have many experiences many observations duo to my Previous attempts to quite pmo. for my i will start new reboot new record and its will be the end of Pmo i will stop it forever .
wait me for my succes story and thank you .
sorry for my english