OMFG I just battled some of the most toughest urges I've had in my 8month reboot

I haven't been able to go to sleep yet it's been a night full of urges and insomnia I'm trying to fall asleep but I just can't seem too . The urges came over me out of no where and I almost m'd to a pic of my ex smh, How pathetic but I caught myself even after all this time I have abstained I still had thoughts to PMO, thoughts that sounded like "just do it once, you've been on a great streak and you already had sex with real females, your healed this won't hurt you" but I didn't give in. I will stay vigilant and stay aware but I just wanted to share a bit of what I was going through at the moment I'm at 8months basically have had a long journey so far many ups and downs but I'm still here