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hi all

my name is myles. after several unsuccessful attempts to quit porn i have decided to join to gain support.
i have been watching porn for atleast 15years on and off. sometimes a month off but then 4 times a week at other times.
i have a young family and a business to run and i really want to end this for good. i can see how much energy its stealing from my life. i have recently had 2 seperate months off and felt so great my brain never worked so well. i can see what lies ahead.
i find my trigger is if i wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep. my head is full of work related ideas and suddenly i find my phone in my hand and its game over.
also i seem to be most vulnerable when on a winning streak.
anyway i am committed to quit but i need more tools then i currently have.
look forward to hearing other peoples stories and to healing.

 

hi D.J

thats good to hear and also what im looking for.

i have had 2 month long streaks followed by one off relapses since new year. each relapse has rocked my world more severley than the last. currently im on day 3 after a almost 'mental breakdown' status relapse when i found my phone in my hand on a sleepless night.

strategies include accountability to my spouse, joining nofap, prayer, art and playing music.

the nature of this beast is it seems to lay low after a relapse and resurfaces weeks later when i am feeling good and confident.

do u have any suggestions? my life has improved so much from current efforts that when i relapse now i really come off the rails, my morality gets screwed up, my mind cant think and run my business, i have anxiety attacks and cant love my wife.