Right back to my old ways...

Hey brother in the struggle and the recovery,

One day at a time, one hour at a time, and one minute at a time. Now days I always have this page up on my lap top. And still though I don't want to misspeak. I am praying that you and I make it through today.

We know the promise for true well being.

 

Hi bro,

Yes, I've been in the same position MANY times, but I decided to get up and take control of my life and realise that where I am today is only because of my own choices, however, I have the power to change it, right now.

Live in the now, not in the setbacks of yesterday. Realise that you CAN do whatever it is you want in life and you CAN acquire all of your hearts desires. It's all about choices. You did 18 days before because it was a choice you made. You can do that again and more. You've just got to believe in yourself.

You've got to take charge of your own body, of your own thoughts. YOU are in control. Are you going to let your lustful desires dictate to you how you live your life? Of course not. Whip those desires into shape and tell your own body how you are going to live.

Yes, as you can see, I'm very passionate about this. Why? Because I have realised that I have been asleep. Recently I have woken up to the fact that we as humans have the power to do whatever we want. NOTHING is impossible and I will spend all of my time on this forum waking up my brothers and fellow NoFap soldiers to a higher consciousness that we can all tap into.

We have so much power, but the media and society is not going to tell you this. We've been lied to our whole lives.

I have the power to wake up and say to myself, that I am never going to Fap or watch porn again. We all have that power, to break any chains off of our lives. If you want to, you can.

 

Shoot man, you sound just like me! Or maybe I sound like you?

Anyway NotAfraid, hello again, it's been awhile. Maybe this fellow Fin will motivate you, he's got some aggression to spare, he's a friggen beast.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5Dl1o9fIz0

 

Yeah I have been in your situation and man it is awful. For the past two months, the longest streak I have had is 3 days. A very shameful comparison to my first NoFap challenge which was 14 days. I didnt have the motivation to break out of this cycle and on top of that, I think I am suffering porn induced ED seeing as I have a hard time maintaining a hard on. Anyhows after reading AllTheRageBackHome's post, I feel as though I have been slapped by the truth. As of now, I am motivated to quit and will try harder. Please pray for me guys.

 

Thanks for your super-honest post, man. Totally appreciated it.

I know exactly how you feel. I'm 37, and the longest streak I've ever had was 21 days when I was 23 years old! That's ridiculous to me ... that in 15 years I haven't been able to manage more than about 10 days, and for MOST of those 15 years, it was a daily habit (sometimes a few times a day).

I completely relate to the feelings of no motivation, of feeling introverted/closed-off, the brain fog, all of it. The great thing is that you've found a place where you can get encouragement and support without a shred of judgment.

Keep it up, you CAN and WILL beat this.

 

So, you have rebooted melacholyweightlifter. Tell us, what is it like. Is all your equipment working as it should? Will you go back to using porn and masturbation just once in a while instead of being slavishly addicted to it?

 

IGY. It's hard for me to say I have rebooted, I think its gonna take a bit longer, I still have bad days. Everything is working fine. I absolutely will not masturbate or view porn again. Period.

 

You have used porn for two years and you have not edged, masturbated or had an orgasm intentionally for over 3 months. You MUST have rebooted. We are sexual beings. Surely we will always have bad days, especially if we are single, because we want to have sex. Maybe they are not bad days, they are just natural days. I think you are expecting an unreasonably high standard.

 

Perhaps I have then. Honestly I don't really know what a reboot is. I think my brain has healed alot. The mental compulsion IS gone, but I suppose the physical urges will never pass, as I am doing hard mode fairly indefinitely. I live my life set to high standards... Unreasonable maybe... But it drives me forward.

 

Keep going Notafraid, I know that your last relapse was really hard on you, but that's how life goes on, accept it, and move on, and get a better streak this time, the important thing is to always improve yourself and go beyond your comfort zone

P.S: keep in mind that you came here to win !