Codependent parents as A cause of porn addiction?

Before I start with what I have to say. I'm going to say that I've been away from porn for years now and have kept technology use to a bare minimum because I feel that computer screens(basically light bulbs) scramble my brain. Despite not being addicted to porn for years; I still didn't feel independent and naturally feel like I should flirt with woman until I read an article recently in the newspaper about codependent relationships.

I've cut my mother out of my life for 2 weeks now and I FINALLY have the natural instinct to flirt with women.

What I've noticed is that my mother would consistently buy my favorite foods without me asking for them. She would continue to mother me and impede instead of encourage my independence. I felt like I was being treated like a child in a grown mans body.

My upbringing is more complex than just my mother impeding my independence as I've suffered for many years due to mercury poisoning from amalgam fillings and would use porn to raise my serotonin levels therefore I could fall asleep at night.

Anyone else in or has been in the same situation with parents?

 

Covert incest (emotional incest)

Interesting and thanks for sharing. I really didn't know what it was called.

Djb575,

gerund or present participle: reliving

1. live through (an experience or feeling, especially an unpleasant one) again in one's imagination or memory.

I posted the definition because I feel that it is important knowing what reliving means. Therefore it means that you re-live what happened to you when you masturbate. You strengthen the retention of those memories by masturbating.

I set out rules for myself while living in this chaotic society. The 2 that have worked are to walk really slow despite the noise and lift a filled bucket of water with the lid every day until I can't lift it anymore. Challenging myself by lifting the heavy bucket has helped break off those connections between the neurons so those harmful memories don't affect me. I only feel like masturbating when I don't lift the heavy bucket.

Maybe going for a long walk may help you clear your head and help you cry it out. I believe that we can't keep doing the same thing or not do anything by sitting on the couch and expect our life to improve.