Abstain from PMO April 2017. Time to be PMO-Free in April, official monthly commitment thread.

I'm ready... I guess

 

Great mindset but it's going to be hard . Be ready and I advise you to read this forum, there are some great tips .

 

55 days dang! But yeah, ill be around here reading up on this.

 

You sound identical to me. Last time my wife caught me, I wasn't in a place where I actually wanted to stop, just paid lip service to her demands and quietly reminded myself to hide my activities better. This time round I WANT to change, to do away with this behaviour, to free myself of this poison. You being here demonstrates you also have this desire, so well done for admitting it to yourself. Best wishes on your 90 days! I'm trying for the same target.

 

So badly want to give in today.I'm feeling so stressed but I won't do it. I worked to long on this. Argh I hate this damn addiction. Guess it's beastmode time. I will not bow, I will not break.

 

Thank you God for these forums. I was freaking out but camecame here and actually relaxed myself.

 

I'm blessed this week to have no alone time, little time to act out.

The comfort you relied on even when things were going well has been rudely stripped away, ironically, just when you need it most—when some crisis or embarrassment or tragedy has turned you upside down and forced you into this unwelcome situation. You feel lousy and there is no relief and no prospect of relief.
- Neil Steinberg and Sara Bader, Out of the Wreck I Rise​

 

I'm whatever day my counter says! Stay strong

 

Well until now it's 8 days no MO unfortunately. Watched porn yesterday :/. Should I reset the counter?

 

I've started my streak right before April begins, on March 30.
It's time for a whole new month clean again so... Challenge accepted.

 

Day 28 completed and day six of April. Some urges and thoughts of past P.

 

Thanks i need that, you in my prayers too.

 

Well today I have given in....time to reset. I'm so mad at myself for this but its ok. I did longer each time. I am recomitted again and I will defeat this monster. Beastmode baby.....it's time i slay this demon.

 

So Day 45 PMO free for me, one week into April, and HALF WAY to my first MAJOR GOAL of 90 days full chastity. This is the physical and mental detox my life needed and the benefits of recovery are enormous. For all you guys wondering if it's worth the fight...HELL YES IT IS absolutely.

I've completed maybe 4 x 30 day streaks in the last 6 months now, and the difference between my old self (weak-minded, procrastinating, self-obsessed, secretive, fractured, conflicted, lustful) and my new self (motivated, confident, outgoing, expressive, goal-achieving, whole, rounded, calm) is unbelievable. Like an entirely new person. I understand much more now about my inner self - my emotions and fears and needs and how this psychology drives my thoughts and behaviours - once you have this awareness it never leaves. You can't unlearn it. This is what we all need to do - seek out and identify our emotional needs that are being unmet - the root cause of all addictions - and then create a life that meets these needs in a direct, open and honest way, by connecting with likeminded souls that can help meet those needs.

Keep going brothers. The best journeys in life aren't meant to be easy, but they're always the most rewarding. Onwards

 

The beat goes on!

Instead of the usual comfort, you find books to read, films to watch, meetings to attend. You reach for solace and grab thorns.
- Neil Steinberg and Sara Bader, Out of the Wreck I Rise​

 

It's weekend guys (well at least for me), good luck to everyone. Remember be vigilant, if you're extremely bored and just browsing the internet, go and excersice, pick yourself up a good book or chat with friends or family. Enjoy!

 

I have to restart... .( couldnt make it.

May God forgive me

 

last night was tough

started looking at P-subs on instgram and wanted to M so bad to see what that old feeling was like.
didn't give in however.

 

I'll join but my start date is April 8th.

 

Well day 1 complete yet again. Beastmode is in full effect again. It is time to slay this demon.