Self-Mastery May 2017. Time to be PMO-Free in May, official monthly commitment thread.

count me in

 

day 6 is going to end. It was a difficult day but productive. In the morining I studied for my exam , in the afternoon I finished to read Tony Robbins's book (I don't know how it is translated in english, but his advices you can find even on the web). It ends with a question: "in what direction I want to direct my life?". I look at myself with these periods where I am able to abstain and long periods where I PMO without interruction. This fact created many problems in my life, the biggest is I fell as if I were not alive, as if i am not interested how my life is going but then I suffer because I have not friends group, I have not a girlfriend, my relation with family is hard, study is without concentration ecc. I want to direct my life, I want to become a scientist, I want to be married and have children, i want to be in harmony with many friends. It is possible if i start to work on these aspects, if I impose to myself objectives and try to reach them even if it is very hard. PMO is incompatible with all these things, with all my dreams. I want a real girl to touch, to kiss, to hug. I think that the will to live life I dream must be greater than the will to PMO, so closing with it will become automatic. It is to realize my life that becomes the propelling for closing with PMO. When in the afternoon I was in my room alone with the door closed, I had two choices: PMO or to do something else even if the urge was very very very strong. So I opened the door and I felt power, the power to direct my life. I am not silly so I knew the urge would have come back, therefore I went at gym to train. I can say today was a difficult day , I cannot think tomorrow how it will be, every day I have to try to realize my life, to be more confident, more gentle, more energic, more sociable.

 

Still going strong, hope to make it till the end of May (June 8th)

 

I'm in. PMO is litteraly making me sick and ruining every aspect of my life. I must find a way out.

 

Last night i went to bed at 9.

I slept from 9-12. I remained awake until 5am.

I had 3 to 4 episodes of urges.

I only slept few hours. I'm happy to be at work.

It was a difficult night. But i didn't lapse. I kept telling myself the relief of relapse is little

 

I'm in.I wish everybody can talk with me.We can discuss how to get rid of PMO.

 

Day two completed. No urges or thoughts.

 

I relapsed again last night. I found a pattern in all this time of struggling and relapsing. I am going good all the time and the fight is good but then I start thinking about excuses. Mainly "let's just try something new and we will reboot next time." And then when Im done I feel really bad. But, again, not gonna give up until I reboot! This time I will think of it as the final reboot. This is the final one. There is no "next time". Its either now or never. That mindset can get me to where I want to be!

PMO is one of the only things standing between be and my ideal self. Me and my originality and I won't let myself or you guys down anymore! Resetting the counter!

EDIT: Also the small sexually related things that has happened in the past few days stack up and results in an exploding urge. I have noticed that too but I don't know how to counter that..maybe you guys can give me some suggestions?

 

We can talk man. Just write. Your on your own in this journey but not alone. We are all here trying to achieve what you want as well. Ye all the best bro.

 

Ye i'm on day 7 and the urges are getting strong.

Last night i was struggling with urges from 12 to 4am. I just couldn't sleep and i refused to fap. So eventually i fell asleep at 5:30-6:20. Its funny even when i fell asleep i dreamt of sex. I was surfing the urge all night. There were only 2 urges that were very strong, the rest were weaker and i just wanted to sleep.

This time if i can't sleep, i'll leave the bedroom and read something boring in the livingroom until i feel very very sleepy then go back to bed.

I just hope if i wake up in the middle of the night like 3am that i remember to be mindful not to fap and not mindlessly fap away loool.

I really think that the pleasure of fapping is over exagurated by those urges. And few moments after fapping the guilt of having done something against your values is much bigger. Resetting the counter sucks so much too.

I really hope we both succeed through this.

 

I'm in!

 

day 16!!! I never tought it. With God we can do it. like i said to a friend: "Do not worry, we're here to help each other. We have to think that we are addicted, so we are sick, we need a drastic decision. I will pray for you. We have to be extremely careful for 3 months. then, our brains will be rebouted, and this job will be easier.
You have to evaluate how your addiction was, it's like smoking, you can not pretend to leave a vice in a day, if you used to do it daily, now you have not done it for 5 days, it's an advance. do not feel bad and start again.
We have to detoxify ours brains in steps. and to falling is part of process.
come on, start again, with God everything is possible.
remember i pray for ALL of you"

 

like i said to a friend: "Do not worry, we're here to help each other. We have to think that we are addicted, so we are sick, we need a drastic decision. I will pray for you. We have to be extremely careful for 3 months. then, our brains will be rebouted, and this job will be easier.
You have to evaluate how your addiction was, it's like smoking, you can not pretend to leave a vice in a day, if you used to do it daily, now you have not done it for 5 days, it's an advance. do not feel bad and start again.
We have to detoxify ours brains in steps. and to falling is part of process.
come on, start again, with God everything is possible.
remember i pray for ALL of you"
You can write to all of us when you feel tempted. Be free of write me if you want. we are here to support, not to judge. a day at a time, fight like it was the lastone.
God bless our journey.

 

we will man!

 

im with you guys

 

Relapsed. Not even close to giving up, even tho I just gave in. This time Im going hard mode. If I am correct you can't have ANYTHING in hard mode. Not sexual fantasies. Not even think about sex. Not even think about anything related to sex. Just nothing! Here we go resetting the counter.

Also, the urges are getting daily so yeah..hard mode is the best right now!

 

I am in; ALL IN. I hate it when I fail when its about patience and discipline. So good luck for all my brothers out there!
Let's make it through.

 

I am in; ALL IN. I hate it when I fail when its about patience and discipline. So good luck for all my brothers out there!
Let's make it through.

 

Try meditating And Reading filosofy quites,It usually Works with me.
I egded today And its a 18 day streak.
I don't think ill reset,but It was a close one.i Fell proud of myself fight now because i didin't finished It
Oh,And It doesn't mean you should Edge OK?i know u know,but its hard to contain ourselfes when the Temptations comes.

 

Yeah man we Will.