From Suicide to Salvation

Hi, 28 year old male here. I've been addicted to this since I was 13 or 14. Long story short: I know how self-destructive this can be. I attempted suicide when I was 17 and came close to a second attempt when I was 24 or 25. Luckily I was shown love at just the right moment and I have no more self-destructive thoughts. I don't want to just live. I want to grow and thrive. Although porn is only one aspect of my angst and depression it's been a major negative influence and I need to stop completely. I've been using it to numb out. Fortunately, I have found psychedelics and I now know my purpose, I know who I am, I know where I'm going, and so much more. I can't recommend them highly enough if you're seeking growth and optimism.

I know that to heal we have to take a holistic approach. I've stopped drinking alcohol. I've cut off negative people from my life. I've drastically improved my diet. I've taken up yoga and daily meditation. I've joined a social anxiety support group. I've been working with ayahuasca and psilocybin. I did an iboga flood dose and 5-meo-dmt in December. After the iboga I was able to abstain for roughly 90 days, but then I relapsed. Despite that relapse and a couple of others I saw the power of abstaining from pmo. It's day 2 for me now. I need this community and an accountability partner. I can't handle this on my own. My initial goal is 90 day hard mode.

Thanks for reading. Much love and light to each of you.

 

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The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?[/QUOTE]

Current strategies:
Continue doing yoga at least twice a week.
Daily meditation, at least 15 minutes.
No alcohol.
Spend as much time as possible in nature.
Positive social interaction. Continue going to social anxiety support group.
Read more, watch tv less.
Microdosing mushrooms and working with other healing substances.
Healthy diet.
Get an accountability partner.