Feeding the Monster

I wish to tell a story that is an analogy of our addiction, I hope you guys enjoy and find some inspiration.

You have a monster inside, who gets hungry, this monster is the one responsible giving you your urges.

The monster gets hungry and you quickly feed it. You've been doing this for years, and you didn't just feed it, you over-fed it. The monster got fatter over the years and more hungry than before, and you had to give it more and more because it just wasn't enough.

One day you decided, enough is enough. This monster is taking more time out of your life, your day can't be a peaceful day because the monster roars and commands you to feed it once again.

On the first day without eating the monster knows the time it needs to be fed and roars, but you ignore it. The monster might be really hungry, but it knows that in the past you've gone a day or two without feeding it, but it's confident you'll come back.

By day 3 the monster roars louder, it's questioning if perhaps you didn't hear it the first time, but it's starting to notice something's quite not right.

On day 4 and 5 the monster roars all day, and all night "Feed me! Feed me!, I'm going to die!" You ignore it because you know it won't die, it may be in a lot of pain, and it's annoying the hell out of you, but you don't give in.

By day 7 the monster is a bit quieter, it paces back and forth, trying to plan a strategy to get you to feed him, so instead of being a bad monster who just roars, for the first time ever it decides to speak to you.

"Hello, I am the monster that lives inside of you, let's make a deal. You do your thing, whatever this is, but what if you just give me a snack. If you do I promise I'll leave you alone"

You reply

"No, I can't, if I feed you even just a little bit you'll want more, and more, YOU ALWAYS WANT MORE!"

The monster gets angry and roars at you, but it's roars are not that loud, since you've shut the window, the noise is muffled, you can still hear it, but it's not as bad.

A few days later, by day 11 the monster has starved and lost some weight, now it goes into beg mode...

"Look, I'm sorry about what I did before, but, what if you just cut me some slack? Just one snack, one tiny piece, I promise I'll be a good boy please!"

You shake your head

"No, sorry, I have to do this, you'll see that you won't die."

"I...won't die?"

"No, you can go without eating for years and you won't die."

"But...you fed me so much, you made me so fat, and now you do this to me..."

"I know, I'm sorry..."

You and the monster are having a conversation now, if you compare it to where you began, he just roared, and you fed, you two never stopped and spoke, it was an indirect relationship, from which the monster had all control. But in it's weakened state it's come to realize it needs to speak to you, to be reminded why it needs to stay hungry, and why you don't feed it anymore.

The monster is not your enemy, you created the monster, and he's a part of you as much as you're a part of him. You will always have this monster inside, just learn to speak with it, to reason with it. And one day the monster will accept that being hungry doesn't mean it needs to feed.

 

Outstanding !
I love this ...

 

Thanks, this is my way of dealing with my addiction, by accepting it, and teaching it that I'm in control now.

 

Just remember, never the let the monster control you. You control the monster.