Hey Guys!

Hey everyone!

It was about time for me to open up an account on NoFap. Really, I need a change and I want to do everything within my power to get where I want to to be. To quickly summarize: I am struggling with a severe addiction to Femdom porn and, frankly, it is the worst. Well, I mostly chat with people but I feel it is sort of the same thing. I've been trying to get rid of it for years. I can usually go for three weeks without it but when I relapse, boy does it get dark. It has destroyed all my self-esteem and made it virtually impossible for me to get a girlfriend, although this was different back in the days. I hate myself just so much for it.

I'll probably open up a proper thread in the next couple of days. Until then I wish all of you all the willpower in the world to stay strong.

 

Well, sure. I feel that Femdom, sort of by definition, doesn't allow you to build up any self-esteem or to keep it for that matter. If your brain gets humiliation as a frequent input, and if this even arouses you, how on earth should you feel good about yourself? It's just not possible. Also, you get insecure, which makes it tough to talk to girls in a relaxed way. That is why I have a hard time believing all this "it's healthy to live out all your fetishes" stuff. No, this doesn't seem healthy at all. It fucks with your brain, both consciously and, what is even worse, unconsciously. Are you struggling with something similar?

 

Thanks, guys. It feels nice that somebody cares. And, by the way, congrats on your 500+, D.J.

I have tried a few things. For example, I have blocked porn sites and chat sites I frequently used and gave someone the admin password for the changes. Unfortunately, I am somewhat tech savvy and figured a way around this. The problem is that after a while my brain starts tricking me into the belief that just once wouldn't be so bad. Just like a heroin addict. I also usually keep track of when I relapse and on how much time I spent. Do you have any specific advice? What helped you best so far?

There is nothing in the world I want more than to get rid of this.

 

I have to strongly disagree with that statement at least in its generality. If you paraphrase Femdom by just "Hey, can you take charge?", then yeah, it doesn't sound too bad. However, at least for me it goes far beyond that. And living this out for sure is unhealthy by the very definition of the things I'd be doing because the intention of those things is to make me feel bad about myself, or even hurt me. God knows, why a part of me seems to enjoy it. I am convinced that your brain is not fully able to distinguish those two worlds. Everything you do has an effect on your brain, there are no regions of the brain that exist in a vacuum. Hence, no matter if it's porn induced or not, it isn't healthy.

I wouldn't say there exist people that can handle it better than me. But I am the living example that some just can't handle it.

Anyways, I wish you all the best for fighting your PIED.