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I feel completely related to William's words and I can say from my personal experience that's the only way of achieving this: to walk "the narrow path", to voluntarily choose to live a new life and to be aware and willing to face the future temptations, but always reminding yourself of the reason why you're doing this.
Thank you William again and I hope that your words and your example help many guys to leave this addiction behind.

 

Hi all, I'm new to the community. Hope to continue no porno for 30 days as a starter. We'll see what I can do later

 

As usual William, your last post is well written and profound in its wisdom. You have walked the narrow path and your journal thread now marks that path for the rest of us. You have modeled recovery for all to see...Understanding that helping others helps ourselves. Now it is our choice. Thank you.

 

Thank you William , you helped me a lot !!

 

great stuff!

thank you william.

 

I didn't saw this. Thank you, Master William, hand on the heart. I feel everything you said on a very personal level, and one day I will walk on the same tracks you're walking.

Have the best day ever.

 

So, newbie here. Saw this link in someone's signature section and clicked it. Wow, I had not thought about this in terms of completely giving porn up. I don't know if it takes a year to be free of this problem, like it did for this guy, or if it does that I could make it that long. But I am doing what he says we should do throughout this post, I am going to ask myself what I am doing here. What is my purpose here, and what is my plan. I never even thought of it in terms of having a plan or of planning to quit. And WTF are these withdrawals about? Does anyone know?

 

Hi! Perhaps you could start reading the documents that I have on my signature (the Mega link). They contain not only keypoints from my own journey, but summaries from the best books that I've read on the subject. There you're going to find everything that you need to know on how the addiction process works and which are the best strategies to deal with it.

This takes time, effort and commitment to a plan.

Best wishes and start working!

Galaxim.

 

Thank you so much man for the post , i had just relapsed after 8 nofap days due to withdrawals , and today even i was getting urges , in fact just before logging on to this site i was thinking of relapsing and going through it again , but when i heard the GABE's story , it literally hit me , its funny when a complete strangers life problem are your identical . so thanks to you all the thoughts of going to watch p drained away from my mind and i as you wrote in the post , used eraser to completely destroy any material i might have on the computer . I think its that moment when you say it ,"just for one more day , i'll do abstaining from tomorrow onwards" that is the moment that a red flag ought to go in your mind that its the defeatist talk happening , your post was so good , it made me literally bring out pen and paper and write down all the points about emotionally , mentally , family etc points that you mentioned and i think whenever i am at my lowest i will read those points again. The negative for me is that porn hit me on the study side , i went from a+ student to c . i have suffered a lot. so far into the NoFap i have relapsed twice after 15 days or so reboot , that's when the withdrawal are too high for me ,

i shake , cant breath , depressed ,feel suffocated , thoughts not in my control, feel like crying and i have cried , and brain is a mess at that stage .
the first time i got these symptoms i thought it was something else , i have asthma ,so i was a little confused ,although it is not like this at all . but now i know it is normal . This time i want to go through it completely , the thing about smartphone you said , thats difficult but ill get though this time , i want to reach the end goal and for me it is , study and reaching the goals i have set for me , i want to achieve the dream and win over this thing.
p.s. i want to say thanks to PsycOps as it werent for him , i wont be at this post , thanks for the link man , i didnt knew him but he gave the link without even asking for it , it really helped man ,if it weren't for you and this post man i would have watched p and surely would have relapsed .
thanks man

 

Great information. I began to feel horrible withdrawals around day 14, and relapsed on day 16.

 

Same here, withdrawal symptoms kicked in on day 14. Still have bouts of depression but it gets better everyday I guess/hope.

My withdrawals so far:

• loss of libido (not even porn arouses me anymore, tested first few days mistakenly)
• dead penis / decreasing size / balls just hanging there lifeless (=flatline)
• severe & deep depression
• suicidal thoughts
• fear, anxiety for no reason
• no motivation
• restless sleep, waking up way too early or every half an hour
• nightmares and insomnia
• no appetite
• feeling of loneliness, even with best friends around
• brainfog
• couldn't remember things people told me for more than a few hours (IQ of a nutshell)
• jaw cramps during sleep
• anger for no reason
• bad/depressed feeling when drinking alcohol
• started smoking cigaretts (next thing to stop when this is over)
• and the worst of all (happened only a few times): NO FEELING AT ALL. This was the worst, I didn't feel bad or depressed, nor happy or good, nor evil or aggressive. Just a feeling of pure emptiness. This was so aweful and new for me, that I HOPED TO BE DEPRESSED AGAIN, just to have a feeling again and one I can define.

Most of the symptomes are gone now. Depression and sometimes suicidal thoughts are still there (day 97).

 

Today is really bad again. Severely depressed and suicidal ideation running through my head all the time. I'll definitely not kill myself, but FUCK this withdrawal... How am I supposed to "love" withdrawals? I don't even know how "love" feels anymore... Will I ever be back to normal? I don't know...

100 days and counting...

 

Is there a thread with lists of activities to combat withdrawal symptoms ? Or when urges strike ? Different tasks/goals/obligations/hobbies would be a good idea to have written somewhere as a reminder.

I feel guilty and ashamed to admit that I had a wet dream the other night that messed with my yesterday. I had to do a bit of traveling and I ended up smoking some pot which I realize now will only send me straight to porn. I PMO'd last night to reset myself and I'm going live today as clean as can be.

I'm just having troubles with the withdrawal symptoms. Cold showers help !

 

Thanks, William.
Thank you for your encouragement. I've just started this incredible journey. I know I will face a hard time later on, but I will remember your words and hope they give me strength to see this through. It's time for me to give up, in order to gain something more.
Thanks again.

 

thx for the advices, really informative

 

This is an important new video from Gary Wilson.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EHHyt6z0osA&feature=youtu.be

This vid is a bit long, about 55 minutes, but if you are serious about quitting porn, you should take the time to watch. You took years getting to porn addicted, you won't get clean overnight or easily, and won't get clean if you are stupid and or do not take the time to give your serious problem serious thought and study. If you don't think you have a serious problem, then you are not ready to solve it.

For newbies, I posted an older Wilson vid on page one of this link, but I recommend hitting this new link for the video.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU

That is right, kids, Will I AM is watching you, and I want to see all of you get squeaky clean, just like me.

Peace out.

 

This thread was passed to me on a PM today, I am very grateful to the person who thought it would be a good start, as just today I posted on the Newbie thread.

Great information, still have not had time to watch the videos, but will in the following days.Will post again when I get around to watching the vids.

 

I haven't read all the other posts on this thread, so I am just leaving me own observations here for now.

I have stopped PMO for 2 weeks now, and it helps me a lot to see that Withdrawal symptoms are perfectly normal. Actually, I should celebrate them. During the last few days, I could watch my mood changing hourly. I got angry for no obvious reason. But I can also already see that I am more energetic than I used to be during I did PMO. This morning was the first morning were I woke up, feeling much more refreshed. I also see a connection between my lack to focus during studying, because my brain is yearning for more dopamine (which studying does not really give me). I am currently also staying away from spending too much time on the internet, which usually also gives my brain the dopamine it yearns for (not enough, so this usually led me to watching porn in the end). Anyway, I am currently feeling great & very motivated. So Thanks again to the OP for creating this thread.

 

Thanks for the educating welcome

Thanks William, i really appreciated reading all the material you referenced. It has given me a much deeper insight into how to beat this addiction. Many blessings to you.

 

"But you cannot get clean with it in your head, so get it out." Thanks William.