Porn has messed me up pretty bad. Need help. (warning vulgur)

I think this is one of those moments porn alters the brain and your reality, also the time when nofap can play its role to you. Give nofap a try.

 

I was just trying to help. Sorry to hear that.

 

You need to get OFF THE INTERNET, like as much possible. We're all here to fight against this common enemy, porn. It is rather evident that porn has altered your identity and has set doubts over your sexuality. However, you've already reached the first step to recovery which is realization, that you a problem and you need help.

Distractions from porn is what you need as much possible. Undertake this challenge and make a list of what your hobbies are. Set yourself aims in those hobnies snd work on achieving them. This would help you stay away from using porn and the Internet. Meditation is extremely vital in this stage as it helps you achieve your aim more easily and helps you discover your true self.

Reward yourself for everyday you've strayed away from PMO. Another thing is you're feeling self-pity, get out of it as it WILL RUIN YOU. Work on your selfesteem and NO, depression is what you're telling yourself. What you have can be cured, you just need the motivation and that'll only come if you do this challenge and discover your true self.

Sorry for the long post, hope I helped. Remeber, we're all here for you, trust yourself and you can do this. Cheers!

 

Thank you for your words, they are really supportive and uplifting just when i need it.

 

Dude that's awful. But, remember it can get worse. Do you still watch porn? If no, what day are you on? Yes, NoFap does help in this case. Just make sure you do a 1 year hard mode. I am sure you'd be back to normal life. YES, A WHOLE YEAR. That's what you're gonna pay for what you've done. And its worth it!

 

Go to a therapist ASAP

 

Yeah nothing worse than being a faggot, amirite?
Christ, why am I even here?

 

First of all, you're not alone - there are plenty of other people here with pretty similar stories to yours. You have described a fairly extreme but predictable escalation of what is known as the Coolidge effect - basically your brain seeks out novelty and it gets that novelty by escalating to more extreme genres. Sometimes it can skew your perception of your own sexuality. It seems that the vast majority of members here escalated into genres that they didn't want to. It's the porn rather than your own true desires.

More about the Coolidge Effect here: https://yourbrainonporn.com/doing-what-you-evolved-to-do

Now if you are bisexual and you enjoy having sex with men and that's something that you want to keep doing then great. There's nothing wrong with that. However it really does sound like this is the porn which has done that. It sounds like you need a hard mode reboot and I'm fairly sure that all of this stuff will go away.

 

Man I know what you are going through. It's no different to me hiring a female escort. It's all driven by fantasy, sexual fantasies.