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How Porn Has Impacted My Life

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Sal Richards, Jun 11, 2017.

  1. Sal Richards

    Sal Richards New Fapstronaut

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    I have been addicted to pornography on and off since I was a mere 9 years old. I think that being introduced to porn at such a young and vulnerable age really scarred my brain permanently . Starting off with softcore porn did not last long as my brain would always want to shift to something new and more interesting. I never felt guilty about PMO until I was about 14 or 15 when I started to question what I was watching and how it affected my brain. Intrusive thoughts began and have severely crippled my social life as well as my education and my job. Porn has almost destroyed my life completely and I can not imagine where I would be if I never got hooked. Porn made me think of things that i would have never thought about on my own, and it is the only real obstacle I have in my life. I do very well in school, I stay in shape, and I never party (get drunk, high, etc). With all that being said, pornography and all the bad mental side effects that come with it somehow overcome all the positives that I have going for me. I cannot keep a solid relationship with a girl for any long period of time. I have tried to refrain from watching porn for extended time periods but the longest I have reached is 30 days. There were clear boosts in my everyday life but a part of me was still somewhat depressed. Hopefully this time I can keep away from porn and not relapse. It is strange how the internet was made to help humans but in reality it wastes our time and manipulates our brains. The community on this website seems to be a lot nicer than most internet communities so I am grateful for that. This is the first time that I have had to take a day of work or school off due to the guilt of watching porn and the OCD that comes with it for me. I think porn is a crime and poisons the brain. Sexual interaction should be done human to human. Not through a screen.
     
  2. BoBo129

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    Hey @Sal Richards you know what I did to overcome all of that stuff? I stopped giving a fuck because those thoughts and urges are not really me so I just let the thoughts come and go. Thats how you get rid of it. Also start your reboot. No more pmo. Everything will go away and you will reboot back to your normal taste that goes with your orientation.
     
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  3. Sal Richards

    Sal Richards New Fapstronaut

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    @BoBo129 thanks for reading and advice man
     
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  5. Joyoflife

    Joyoflife Fapstronaut

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    Really relate to this. One of the big gestways in which porn affects my life is through these 'disruptive thoughts' that you mentioned, which get in the way of everyday functioning. Your story of being an intellgent, put-together person in all regards except for porn, yet equally because of porn you have never excelled, is something that I have felt my whole life. The only thing holding me back from success and happiness in all my wordly persuits is porn.
    All I can say from experience, although it is still a work in progress, is that no matter how despondent the situation might feel, and how symptoms and consequences are irreversible, the body has an amazing natural healing mechanism..Negative feelings and hopelessness are caused by the state of being in the addiction, once.you manage to distance yourself from it for long enough, you realise that the despair and confusion was as much a consequence of the addiction as PE or anything else. In other words, it goes with time, and your mind resets itself to view the world through the correct prism. And you realise how awesome the world.is, and how many gifts you've been given.
    Good luck
     
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  6. You'll overcome this addiction. I think that you can use getting and maintaining a healthy relationship with a gf a motivation for NoFap.
     
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  7. Sal Richards

    Sal Richards New Fapstronaut

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  8. Dragonnlife

    Dragonnlife Fapstronaut

    I've been addicted since I was young too. Most of my childhood was over sexualized and I was made to feel guilty about the ways it manifested (i.e. porn) so I hid my "habit". Keeping it such a secret was more exhausting than I care to admit. I never drank, got high, or partied either. I slept with girls and ended relationships quickly. All I can say is I always thought about quitting and tried a couple of times but again, just like you, only lasted 30 days. I eventually came to accept it and it was more present sometimes and less others but I can tell you positively that almost every time I fapped to porn I felt shitty, defeated, and broken. Eventually I decided (recently after finding NoFap) that quitting Porn was the right choice. It has been eery, to say the least, how many things were tied to this addiction. Anyways, my whole point in this is to say I relate and believe in you to beat this thing.
     
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  9. John Thanh

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    I am the same boat, no relationship, no girl friend, no sex, skinny and low self-esteem.
    That why I'm here man, i don't give up, i fight
     
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  10. Sal Richards

    Sal Richards New Fapstronaut

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