A little scared, but feels like I'm headed in the right direction

Hi you guys,

I am new here, so I took the automated system's recommendation and thought I'd introduce myself.

I am 26 years old, and have been watching porn since I hit puberty.

There is so much I want to say, but I fear it will bore some of you, so I'll keep it short.

To go in reverse chronological order;
• Over the past few days I really started to get the feeling that there is something messing with my head.

• over the past few months my mind is really foggy, interfering with my work and other important activities I am involved in.

• I am truly happy, getting into this noFap community, since in my own life I feel VERY isolated from the people around me (even though I am an active member of several organizations).
I am really hoping to find a sense of connection here, with like minded people - or at least, people who have had similar experiences.

• I am a professional dancer. Dancing in a couple with my female partner makes it very difficult for me to concentrate on the technical side of what we do, and I am really distracted all the time by thoughts of relationships, connection and sex. This has gone so far as to really take over me, obsessively. I feel that I have been completely consumed by thoughts of a relationships, and by fantasies of pleasure (similar to what I've been exposed to in porn). So much so, that I have no capacity in my mind for anything else.

• I have yet to derail to extreme genres of porn, but I fear that I might.
On the other hand, I can easily fap 2-3 times per session, taking up valuable time from my life, and mental capacity and focus.

• I have had few real sexual partners, one of which was an escort.
I have not had a good connection to another person in a very long time (3-4 years), and I feel very alone.

Thanks for the attention of anyone who took the time to read this - I am tried this before, but didn't really take it seriously. Now, having found this abundant place full of content and knowledge, I am hoping to free myself from the shackles of all of the symptoms that I read about in the last hour, having realized their huge impact on my quality of life.


Thank you,

Stick

 

Some typos - brought on by me writing this on my iPhone late at night. Hopefully you guys get the idea..

 

Hey guys!

Wow! Thanks for all the replies!!

• Yeah, ballroom dancing!

• I am not really sure about the strategies. Any suggestions?
I removed my browser history, for starters, so that I don't get any bad suggestions that might lead me astray.

 

Thanks, super helpful and inspiring!!

What does PMO stand for?

What are the "Hard 90?"

 

Thanks man!