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Aggressive, toxic and very negative

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by skeptical, Jul 8, 2017.

  1. skeptical

    skeptical Fapstronaut

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    Recently I decided to stop noFap because I went 80+ days and decided to quit, now I want to try it again but the reason why I avoid that is because I get very angry when not ejaculating for more than 2 days, ive never experienced such rages before, I dont know if I have some mental issues going on or if it is something else

    I get extremly bad thoughts about everything and get very paranoid, I dont really want to self diagonise but most of these symtoms are connected to mental health issues

    The reason why I write is because I hope someone out there have battled this issue I have and overcome it and perhaps can shed some light to my scenario, or someone who simply have some thoughts or theories they want to express, it can be purely what you think and does not have to be scientific

    Appreciate any comments
     
  2. Mateo89

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    if u have any underlying mental issues the withdrawal from NoFap could definately intensify that or at least bring it up to the surface. which isnt a bad thing in my opinion. then its a matter of u navigating healthy ways to deal with it. talking about it can help let it out.

    on the other hand, quitting pmo can feel brutal. ive felt most of what u stated certain times thruout my reboot. take away someone crack and they are not very pleasant ppl to be around lol.

    mateo
     
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  3. shazam4103

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    I agree with mateo, that quitting porn could definitely cause prior mental health issues to surface. From my experience with NoFap i have the same problem. When i stop allowing myself PMO my body begins to retaliate. When you quit you're taking away the free surge of dopamine you get every time you P or M.
    Dopamine is basically what makes quitting so hard, and its why you feel angry, depressed or sick. I usually have day or two that i also have increased anger etc.
     
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  4. I will win

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    You're a weak person. Why do you want to let this addiction conquer you? Is it because you feel angry and depressed? That's very normal. How are you going to achieve things in your life, if you cannot overcome this addiction? How are you going to get in a pure relationship, if you cannot overcome this addiction? How will you do anything in your life, if you cannot control this addiction?
     
  5. skeptical

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    Thanks mateo for your input, Its just as you say, writing this helps because it shows that others have gone through the same process which helps me believe and try to work on it because I know im not alone on it, your post was helpful


    Thanks for your post, did you have any special ways to deal with the extra intensified anger/sickness/depression you felt? I really dont want to hurt my family, and with that I dont mean physically but rather by bad talk or behaviour

    Dude, dont throw personal attacks before asking me why I dont do it!!! Thats fucking bad man. The reason why I am scared to go PMO again with the rage is cuz I dont wanna hurt my family or people around me. I can get very angry and sometimes it beyond my limit of handle, I dont feel that when I do PMO once a day or a few times a day, its not about being weak, its a matter of my own health rather supressing lust

    And breaking someone down is not a way to motivate them if that was your intention, especially if you are not going to walk the full mile with me
     
  6. Drew140

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    The pull oneself up by the bootstraps approach is absolutely counterproductive when it comes to both mental Illness and addiction. If I relied on the bootstraps approach for my clinical depression I'd be in a coffin by now.
     
  7. Drew140

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    If you think I'm weak experience one major depressive episode with me. You wouldn't last 5 minutes.
     
  8. skeptical

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    Can you explain what you mean with bootstrap approach? Do you mean that you experiment with no knowledge to try to find a result of a problem?

    Nobody called you weak bro, I dont doubt that its very bad and I wouldnt want to try it at all, ive had depressive episodes myself and they are extremly dangerous
     
  9. Drew140

    Drew140 Guest

    I was talking to I will win.
     
  10. Runtilmylegsdropoff

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    Do you guys turn into the Incredible Hulk when you don't jack off to Porn?
     
  11. skeptical

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    Ok bro no problems :)

    Not sure if sarcastic but if you are please fuck off. If youre not, no not a hulk, its not even rage that is confident, its extreme anger that is boiling insidd that I have to express somehow, sometimes its by self harm, sometimes hurting others verbally, mentally and in worse case scenarios physically

    Its not about becoming strong, rather Its a state of uncontrol which is rather unpleasant. This is not always and like a raging bull, but imagine ur anger multiplied with 10 for shitty things, thats what happens to me and I am a person who knows how much mental, verbal or emotional abuse can hurt someone and that gives me guilt

    Hope it clarified what I meant
     
  12. Balkanray

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    I'm glad you quit as well. I've been there brother. I even punched my mom during my 500 day of NoFap / semen retention. I turned more toxic than ever, always grumpy, aggressive etc. I had no fear of nothing, i was moody and depressed mostly. Not a flatline though, been through all that shit, i never even had ED from PMO anyways, my family has always had high sexual drive / libido etc.

    I have tried different workouts, going outside more, quitting video games, internet use, being social, going to group therapies, trying to think positively and changing my mindset etc. Even going for a vegan for over 2 months etc.

    Believe me, ever since i started fapping without porn again, i've been feeling really relaxed person. Even my parents say i have changed into better. I wake up happy and relaxed. I feel good again and i feel emotions. NoFap made me into a hulk not gonna lie, and it was fucking up with my head mostly, nobody seemed to enjoy my presence, not even me. I couldn't even pass job interviews anymore, people stopped calling me etc. People will always say something to prove this wrong but hey i've been a member of NoFap ( in reddit ) for over 4 years now, hitting 500+ days myself.

    NoFap made me even super serious person. I used to be so cool, funny, full of positivity and love. I had girlfriends, i had FRIENDS too. Then i went to NoFap. It has great benefits yes, but in the longer run it will eat you alive and there is nothing you can do about it. I literally became severus snape from harry potter movie.
     

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