Redefining myself...feeling strange, lost...

I like to think of the reboot as a purge. The 90 days isn't just about my dick but my life. These 90 days are about healing, cleansing, examining, and emerging as a somewhat different person.

 

I know the feeling. it does feel strange, not do do the addiction. after doing it so long. It really does feel strange.

 

tonytony,

I'm feeling in this same way. I believe that is temporary. Patience. Takes time to reboot, takes time...
I think it takes time for identity rise up again. Our brains still messed. It's a new life grow up. Include good habits in the routine and the time will do the rest. We are togheter.

 

Life is a series of changes. Our every decision creates a ripple effect which then changes our present moment to be in alignment of who we are now. Quitting porn is one of those decisions. You are making the right choice of adapting to your new model of reality. My advice to you is to ask yourself “who am I?” because porn created a facade of who you are not. You need to be in touch of your true authentic self and you shall embrace and enhance that real you. I have experienced the same thing you are experiencing now. In the beginning stages, it was “hard”. But then, I have learned to accept that change is inevitable. By continuously asking myself, “who am I?” I have learned interesting things about myself. I have rediscovered my passion for certain things. I have been reminded that I’m actually a fast learner as opposed to what my porn-self would suggest. Things like that. Be completely honest with yourself. What are the positive things about you that pop up every time you ask yourself the question “who am I?” Perhaps you enjoy cooking? Perhaps you enjoy exercising? Perhaps you love singing? If you ask yourself great questions, your intelligent mind would generate even greater answers. I wish you all the best tonytony and be grateful that you are no longer under the porn-trance that drains you with your life energy. Create a very fulfilling life for yourself and be a blessing to others. Peace!

 

You won't feel right until many more days of abstaining. If you have been doing it your whole life, 90 days probably won't Ben enough. It will make a difference, but it won't cure you. People underestimate how long addictions take to get over, which leads them to fail when they do not feel addiction free after they reach their goal.

And in the end you will realize that you are never completely over your addiction, but you are completely healed.