I don't deserve to be here

You didn't let anyone down. You fell but you are trying. Only those who try fail.

I noticed that since I've seriously tried to give up PMO I feel much, much worse when I've fallen. It makes me want to despair of quitting. But I can't. Another way to look at it is a gift. That miserable feeling is actually an encouragement to quit. You don't want to feel like that again.

 

Good for you because I just relapsed

 

I hate to tell you that prayers won't do anything. He will not use his powers on your wanking when there are kids starving in foreign countries, gang violence in big cities, and babies born with deadly diseases.

The only way you are going to beat this addiction is to take matters into your own hands. No one else is going to help you out.

This might sound harsh, but that's just reality. Reality does not give a fuck. And magic won't help you.

Good luck.

 

When the going gets tough, the tough get going!

 

Why would I get pissed lol. I totally respect the way you think. I have many Christian friends. I have no problem with people having different opinions

 

Also my whole family is Christian, and I love them to death. I was just being straight forward, not condescending.

 

I was disappointed when I failed at seven days too. But then I started to think about it, and in the great scheme of things, seven days was one hell of an achievement considering I was doing it several times per day the last few years. It's not the end of the struggle by any means. This is really hard. I knew just how hard this was going to be the first time I relapsed, which was MO during a cold shower. During a cold shower! This is going to be tough; we just need to do better every time.

 

@Brockfoor9 , It is good to be confident that you are not alone.
The next time you have an urge to watch P, you could ask Jesus what he would like to watch, so you can watch together.