Questioning my sexuality

While I obviously cannot say 100%, it seems that you are attracted to the novelty of this extreme porn and not the actual act itself. This is something called a "porn induced fetish" where you find yourself masturbating to things that aren't actually arousing and start conflating this trick of the mind with what would normally arouse you.

My advice to you is the same I give to most people who have this issue; abstain from porn/masturbation for a set amount of time, for example 30, 60, or 90 days, and then see where you are, I'd imagine that these urges will fade away and the only thing that will remain is a more healthy and natural sexual appetite. You will stumble, you will make mistakes and it's not easy, fighting an addiction never is, but you have made the first crucial step on the road to recovery and I wish you the best of luck in seeing it through.

 

That's what happens due to excessive PMO . I ve red an entire article related to this condition ( unsure of sexuality).Your brain is somehow saturated with all the porn and MO and such.. it's all over the place.
Ending this damaging addiction will reset your brain though. Just get rid of it.

 

Your not gay!! Your brain just looking for another rush and clicking on weird shit is just your mind. If you act out go hook up with some guy the your probably gay!! Clear your mind .. Don't look at porn anymore take back your life !!

 

I have had a few same sex fantasies but only involving role play not actual sex. I don't think that's unusual at all. I'm definitely not gay.

 

Yea I don't think you're gay. Before I started nofap again, I was watching a lot of straight porn. I knew I wasn't straight, but thats how my addiction sort of evolved. All you have to do is abstain.

 

nothing wrong with having same-sex fantasies. I've wondered if I'm bi-curious too, even though I do not want any relationship with a man (or to fool around with). but I try to be honest with myself about my body and what it feels, and accept myself the way I am. I think it's sick the way society makes us feel shame for this and how people are forced into rigid gender roles and stereotypes. Just love who you are, let's stay PMO free and we'll figure it out over time

 

There's no difference between being bi and gay it's only gay.

 

lol, that's exactly the kind of homophobic ignorance that causes people pain and confusion. Try and be a little understanding. There are plenty of different kinds of sexuality out there. Learn to accept and love yourself (and other people) for who you and they are.

 

im on the same page as you ive never been with same sex only fantasize about it,probably majority of the porn was trans an gay, im not ashamed of same sex but id rather be living the straight life stlye, i dont think any negative about it,i tell my friends im gay an bi sexual that i like both they laugh an say they always knew i was like that but i voice my urges once in awhile i dont let them clog up inside,after 500 days of NoFap i well see what turns me on more a naked guy in the physical or naked woman,i hope you have understanding an accepting family an friends to help you through this its a key component ,ive never in my life came across a site like this , a movement or what ever we call it, i never really shared stuff like this about my sexuality among others that relate ,with my whole being i believe in this NoFap an i believe in everyone here that is taking part

 

True!! Your mind is now so saturated with PMO that in kinda "numbed" (to call it one way) that now needs to explore other options to make you feel the same way as in the beginning to keep feeling the same pleasure.
Keep on depriving yourself from PMO, one day at a time and don't linger on those thought, if you are or not gay. That will add more stress and may be a trigger to relapse.
Keep strong!!

 

Keep it together friend. I'm in the same boat. I can tell you that it gets better. I had some really hard times with questioning sexuality. But I'm almost 20 days in my NoFap (with sex). The urges do subside, I have less and less fantasies about males and am starting to shift exclusively towards women. I know I will always have a sort of fluid sexuality and I'm ok with that, I just don't want it interfering with my fantastic girlfriend and I. So just keep at it, if you have questions, drop me a line.

 

For reasons I don't understand I masturbate to gay porn. I'm not really attracted to guys or the gay lifestyle. I'm married.

 

what turn you on in a gay porn?

there must be something what makes you horny, you want to fuck guy or want to be fucked or whatever?

 

Don't really know why. Maybe because I was abused as a young kid. Who knows.
The more porn you watch...you want more and more...more explicit...then you start crossing lines that you ever expected to....

 

I would say if you cannot imagine having a 'romantic' relationship with a man or you cannot imagine spending the rest of your life waking up next to a man in your bed then you are probably not gay. I've seen so much porn in my life from pretty much every category...even the ones over the lines one should not cross and since being free from porn use since Dec 2014 I can only imagine spending my life with a woman within 5 years either side of my age. Porn has nothing to do with relationships, affection, intimacy or love and respect. I wanted all of those things during my addiction and pornography was a very poor substitute because all it did was nurture greed, lust and selfish behaviours. I think if you sit back close your eyes and imagine what a perfect life would look like for you and who that person is that you want to share it with, then you have your answer as to what your sexuality really is.

 

I cannot imagine romance or spending my life with a man. But I find the thought of m2m sex exciting. I admit I've crossed the line in real life. It's really about 2 guys using eachother to get off. Plain and simple. When it's over I can't get out of there fast enough.

 

I was convinced that I conditioned myself to get off on gay porn. Problem is I've actually crossed that line and didn't hate it. I'm not attracted to most guys but do appreciate an in shape body. I guess my sexuality in kinda fluid also....given the right circumstances and person, I'd probably cross the line.