I was feeling insanely inferior after I gym today...... - How I dealt with it!

I was feeling inferior after I gym today. I talked to many people in the gym, and we had some good conversation. But that is not help me, it is how my day started off: I was feeling just insanely tired and exhausted, and I initially wanted to wake up at 9AM, but I procrastinated in the bed until 10AM.

Throughout the whole day, I was procrastinating my habits. Finally, I left for the gym at around 16:00, that's way too late for my standards.

I arrived at the gym, and saw that one attractive girl was staring to me, I did not know why, and it kind of made me feel more inferior. That's only the start.

I was doing my chest workout, and I asked if that lad could help me. He helped me to lift my weight, twice even. Then I asked for his name, we chatted a bit, and he complimented me saying that I look good-developed. I just said thanks, you will also become it with the time!

After that, I did my negative chest workout, and asked for another lad to help me to lift my weight, in case I struggle. He helped, and he also said that I look quite good-developed and athletic. I thanked.

Right now, I see that I should have complimented back. I'll remember this!

Nearly constantly there were two women around me, working out with another male. I noticed how everyone stared at them, but I did not bother, because my aim is to quit this devilish addiction for good, and we all know that just abstaining from PMO is not enough.

Then, after riding back home I had a feeling of success, I thought that I will simply feel great because I did not care at the gym, e.g. about wasting even a second to look to these women who were working out.

Then I came home. I felt really like procrastinating again, but I took my cold shower, and then I ate. After that I wear a T-Shirt, which is quite oversize for me. My arms look to tiny in them, I thought when I weared it. Then it began.

In front of my PC, I wanted to search for some places where I could apply for in the future. But I got overwhelmed with feeling inferior. I was in the mood to do nothing, I simply felt insanely inferior. My head was just on my mousepad, thinking about my past and failures.

I had an insane feeling of inferiority. It did not matter if people complimented me (like today). Also, the same pattern evolved for me, every single time after a relapse I felt inferior, but then it went away, sometime. I am now on day 7, and I never felt that inferior during my current streak before.

Anyways, I'll continue: I went to my bed, and got my phone and opened the NoFap-Emergency Tool. I clicked on "depression", because that was how I felt, depressed. To be honest, the pictures did not help at all, but then I saw one reddit article. I read it, his experiences, and then I got motivated, energized, and my inferiority went away. I could relate to myself, how PMO destroyed me, especially my view of women. I even cried a bit, also because I kept relapsing and destroyed many chances. after I saw how NoFap changed his life. It was so great to hear such an experience from another fellow fapstronaut. After that, I decided to go onto the PC, and share my experience with you all. I still feel a bit inferior, but nothing compared to 20 mins ago.

It will go away with time, especially if you keep improving yourself.

Never give up, and never relapse. Bad feelings are temporary, but the effects of PMO are permament - unless you stop PMOing, and then we have a long, and hard way to conquer.

 

Sadly not, I would be glad to give it otherwise.