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one year of abstinence gone !

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by MAZEN MD, Jul 30, 2017.

  1. MAZEN MD

    MAZEN MD Fapstronaut

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    some time around a year ago i was a good participant in the forum , as i got successful , went a month without fap , two , then three .. till i reached 6 months 23 days i relapsed partly because i had stopped participating in the form , stopped searching for new information and ways to reboot and rewire , i got impatient , lied to my self and told myself i'm healed ,then i went under a series of relapses , i was so angry at my self i said this time its gonna be different , so i started another journey again being to arrogant to ask for the help of my fellow Fapstronauts on the forum ,to ask for advice , for motivation , and i was once more successful in reaching 6 month 8 days
    not because i'm that good but because i hadn't much stressors to knock me off , and of course i relapsed .
    about 3 weeks ago i engaged in 10 sessions of fap as i call then in a period of 10 day , was angry again , abstained for 10 days and here i am relapsed again ,and that was what broke my arrogant self , i said to my self I've been trying for 7 years now if this is ever gonna work , if i'm ever gonna get rid of this hell hole of addiction , i need to go back to the basics , like a man reborn again ,forget all that i think i know about porn addiction , and start building my knowhow all over again , but this time i know one thing i would bet my life on this time it's gonna work ,because listen carefully: arrogance is your worst enemy , as someone very wise once said about nofap : "we cannot afford to think we're completely healed of porn addiction ,we have to always stay vigilant , until at least we reach many years of abstinence and rewiring " , even in science this is true , Stephen Hawking said :The greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge.
    so here i am starting from day zero but this time i know am gonna make it ,why?
    because i'm not gonna be afraid to ask for help anymore .
    i'm not gonna be afraid to admit i'm weak , but that doesnt mean i don't entend to get mighty stronger.
    my fellow Fapstronauts let my story be a precious lesson to you .
     
  2. We CAN Do This!

    We CAN Do This! Fapstronaut

    Man I'm so sorry. But just remember that no matter how many times you relapsed, you still achieved 6 months twice. That's a huge achievement and nothing will every take that away. You've done it several times before so why shouldn't you be able to do it again?

    Good luck, we're all here for you :)
     
  3. MAZEN MD

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    thanks brother , appreciate the support :emoji_blush:
    i promise you i wont stop trying , and with your help i'll hopefully make it
     
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  4. We CAN Do This!

    We CAN Do This! Fapstronaut

    Maybe I'll make it some day too :)
     
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  5. Eauchiche

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    Dear Mazen
    I understand all this totally. For me, it was 2 years.
    I chalk it up to some stresses that started coming to bear around March this year. I resorted to something I was familiar with to cope with them. Instead of alcohol or drugs, sex has been my drug addiction of choice since I was 12.
    My only regret, is not finding healthier ways to diffuse the stress.
    Glad you are with us on this journey!
     
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  6. MAZEN MD

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    thank you Eauchiche , with the help of each other we're all gonna make it
     
  7. Hermin

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    I am new here and my goal is to beat that addiction in first try. Your story is a warning to every novice that it is never easy. Even after 6 months! Thanks for the information! I will definitely think about it!
     
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    will you can of course , this post was never to suggest otherwise it's just a message that you should always keep an eye on yourself from yourself .
    best of luck on your journey
     
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  9. David777

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    I am also new here and certainly need all the help I can get as I am in my mid 40s and completed addicted to porn. Be strong!
     
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  10. Pmo is in the past

    Pmo is in the past Fapstronaut

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    You're right.Its always important to stay humble.Too much arrogance will lead to a downfall.6 months twice is amazing !
     
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  11. MAZEN MD

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    you too brother
     
  12. MAZEN MD

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    certainly , thank you ,hope it lasts this time
     

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