Bit the bullet & told the wife everything on day 10

I can't heal if I'm keeping secrets.

Having guilt is going to make me relapse so I thought let's get it out the way quick & I'll accept any punishment I deserve just so I can move on. I had no idea what would happen.

I had done so much research that I was able to explain my addiction & my chosen path to recovery to her which really helped.

Lots of hugs & tears were shed between us but it looks like I'm going to get the support from my wife that I need. There is definitely some distance between us (not that there wasn't because of my habit) but it feels like we are going to heal as a couple rather than me wait to heal & then start on repairing the damage I have done to us.

That could have gone soo wrong & still such a long way to go but phew! Glad that's out there. Probably my most important step so far.

 

Yeah, it doesn't feel like I'm off the hook or anything but it's definitely made the whole thing more real making me far more conscious that I have to give it my all now.

 

Thank you & glad you find strength in this. I could have lost everything but instead I've gained what feels like more of a starting point than day one did.

I am better than what I have become and so are all of the rest of us.

 

Thank you @IR254. I hope you find the strength to make the right choices for yourself.

I'm going into this with the mindset of getting the hard stuff done first.