Hello fellow nofappers

Hey everyone. I'm Santiago and I look forward to rebooting and quitting PMO for as long as I can muster. I've done challenges before, with moderate success, but never long enough to feel free of porn and masturbation's clutches.

All my life, my sexuality has brought me nothing but trouble and I want to finally take control and feel free of these terribly destructive habits.

I hope to find the tools and support I need, here in these forums and I wish you all the best of luck in your personal journeys. Stay strong!

 

Thank you guys for the responses. I don't have a very concise strategy in place yet, but I think I know enough about the tools we can all use to avoid falling into the same habits again and again. I may start taking cold showers again, if I clear the practice with my doctor first. I will be using short bursts of exercise, I'll keep developing my new hobbies, I will meditate every day, and so on. The hardest part will be staying away from low level means to get my dopamine rush, such as celebrity blogs that even though are not explicit, they provide a constant yet low level dopamine stream, flowing into my system.

This time around, I reallly WANT to quit, and this is what's gonna carry me through, I hope. Thanks for the support and best of luck!

 

Thanks DJ, I need all the help I can get. In my case, I am struggling to define WHY should I continue with NoFap challenges or complete abstinence. Some days I have a clear picture in my mind of why I should want to quit, but other days, specially after day 4 or 5, I start making excuses for the habit and for why I don't really have a problem and telling myself how PMO is a normal, everyday activity for most people these days and how I shouldn't repress my sexuality, blah blah blah. I'm sure you all know how it goes. And then not only do I break the small streak but I completely discard any wishes for sobriety and self improvement through quitting. I need to get on board with my OWN reasons for quitting and I need to be strong, which is all sooo much easier said than done.

 

Yeah! I've read here on the forums how people write their mission statements, really clearly and such. Also how they get up and repeat out loud WHAT it is that they want to do and how, when they get an urge, and just hearing it clearly like that, seems to help them overcome. Very powerful stuff. I still think I just don't want it badly enough for some stupid reason, probably cause it's the easy thing to do and until I decide the damage these habits do, is greater than the benefits and I finally grow some balls to fight against it all, I'll be happily stuck as if it was nothing.

Truth is, I envy you all, I envy your determination, your courage and your strength. I am still deluded into thinking PMO is not all THAT bad for me. I need a perspective shift like the fleeting ones I get every now and then that have me attempting challenges. But I need it to become more serious and permanent.

Thanks for all your help. I think I am just not ready to be here and do justice to what NoFap and all of you guys stand for. But I wish you al the best of luck on this journey.

 

I think you're right. I am scared of letting go of something that's been so big and influential in my life, even if it was negatively so. I can't fathom a world where I DON'T ogle on P and then MO. I don't see myself making it out of this prison. And the more I think about it, the less I WANT to be out of this prison.

I'm like the alcoholic who still wants to drink socially or the occasional beer. Knowing full well it doesn't work that way cause after that first beer you have with lunch, you find yourself waking up in a dumpster after a murderous bender. And since it doesn't work the way I want it to work, I chalk it all up to not being ready and blah blah effin blah.

Truth is, I am SCARED of never ever seeing another naked woman and being able to MO with that image. And that's what I need to get over. I need to see light after the darkness of fully quitting. But it'll happen with time I think. As of now, day one of my new challenge has almost ended and I am off to create my rebooting log so I can register all the ups and downs I go through as I struggle with it all.

Thanks for all the help!

 

Here it is. My Day 1 log. Hopefully many more days to come. Thanks for all the support!

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/looking-for-a-guiding-light-in-the-darkness.120781/