I hate seeing people happy.

I feel this way sometimes when I go through a depression, and it's okay, because you're doing the right thing by working on yourself! I realized that when I feel this angry at strangers for their happiness, it's because I need to work on my own problems, and then those feelings will pass, and they really do! Keep up your self-improvement and things will get better.

 

I think you have some personal things you need to attend to my friend...

 

Who the fuck are you? Why should anyone be less than happy cause your don't have your shit together?

 

I feel the same way you do ... kind of. I don't hate couples because they can have healthy normal sex, i'd be hating my own parents too bro.
What i should hate is myself if i ever look at porn again, because i know damn well that it ruined my dick and nofap is the only way i'll get my dick back.
I suggest you convert your hatred of healthy couples to positive motivation to finally break free from the PIED bullshit that you're suffering from

 

Dude, this is going to sound rude, but having seen older posts from you I think that you have too much problems for them to be solved through NoFap (the challenge or the forums) alone. You need professional help. You think doing heroin is better than PMOing, you show hatred of everything, severy apathy, sociopathy (Red Pill...), you think that you are a victim of everyone else (as with many redpillers), you do not have control over anything in your life and you blame your mistakes on others 24/7, you want to commit more crimes (as I read in another posts), etc.

This is as far as we go. You have drowned this forum into hatred. You have to take care of your things, right now. We are not magicians.

 

Dude, you have to keep calm and be proud to yourself for the decisione that you made about rebooting.You are your all universe. You don't have to make peaple pay for nothing, rather you have to make yourself happy. When you watch happy peaple try to immagine how to reach their happines. They aren't who have to be sad but is you that you have to be happy.

 

It's just your arrogance man, nothing else. You're in a state of envy and victimhood. I'm wondering if you have a job to take your mind off all this nonsense thinking. You need to stop drugs altogether, I'm just assuming you smoke weed and probably a heavy cig addiction just going off your resentful attitude. You need to stop complaining. I might be wrong but you seem to be here with no intention of actually bettering yourself. Like you're here because you like PMO when everyone's here trying to quit. Lastly the very first post i read from you, i was sure you were trolling. My reccomendation is the same: rehab

 

Here's a better question: Why shouldn't they be happy? What have they done to deserve their happiness taken from them? Say you became happy, and I was having a bad day, and you walked down the street with a big smile on your face, which I saw, so I decided to take away your happiness? How would you feel towards me in that situation?

 

Send me a private message I'll listen

 

Please get help, if all you care about is seeing other people miserable and having sex, you need help... You CAN BE HAPPY! YOU make YOUR OWN HAPPINESS!!! The world didn't choose you to be miserable, your own actions cause your misery, and only your action can reverse your misery. It is your choice to be addicted to porn, it is your choice to be addicted to heroin, it is your choices that MAKE YOU MISERABLE! ONLY YOU CAN PUT YOUR FOOT DOWN AND SAY NO!

 

If it makes you feel better those people probably hate seeing your mopey ass.

 

That might be true but that doesn't mean that you can't have a glimpse of that experience. It's called empathy. All the people, except sociopaths and psychopaths (and some relatively recent studies have show that even they do have it/can develop it with effort), have it. So really it's just a matter of wanting to have it and switching focus. You should really work on developing that ability because it would improve your life. If you don't know how then I would recommend counseling and evaluation whether you actually are a sociopath/psychopath, so then you can find better ways to deal with it. But indulging in your hatred is not rational, it's not constructive, doesn't make any logical sense. Because only person you are hurting with this uncomfortable feeling is you. These random strangers just pass down the street without even noticing you. Hatred is self abuse.

You don't sound like somebody who has had an ego death. I'm sorry but you just don't. What most likely happened is that you got weird trip from your drugs and misinterpret that experience for something that it's not. Or maybe you did had it for a short while while high and then dropped out of that state now back into your old dualistic ways of thinking.

All the people who are enlightened or has had ego death are speaking of this idea of unity. You are still stucking into duality mentality where you live your life in relation to others. If you would truly get it you would not hate others. Because that's just you, you are hating yourself. Or maybe you do in fact hate yourself. Which would then make sense to hate others too, cos they are you. If that's the case then again, please stop this self abuse.

 

I second what @Shugi Shugi said. What you are describing here is not ego death - it is the exact opposite - it is ego thriving - fed to a state of obesity by your obsession with your self. You will be miserable until you can get over your self. Sometimes this happens when people hit rock bottom - and since I don't see that I'm guessing you still got a good distance to fall yet.

I mean, come on, listen to yourself. I hope for the sake of all the people you interact with that a positive transformation happens sooner than later.

 

I understand because I've been there before. Don't spend too much time in this state as a focus on the negative aspects of your life will perpetuate your unhappiness. I hate to bust out the cliches about happiness being a mater of perspective but theres alot of truth to this. Im not sure what youve been through in relation to the rest of us but allowing your thoughts and your perspective go all the way dark pulls you in further. I know it may sound stupid but trying to look at things more positively will help you stay sane while you get your shit together.

 

Wow. I haven't seen this much anger since this guy: