DEATH GRIP FIXED 68 DAYS LATER

YOU GUYS.

I AM SO FUCKING ECSTATIC RIGHT NOW.

This might be long but bare with me. Also I'm eating chicken wings and have an amazing adrenaline surge.

BACKSTORY/USEFUL SHIT ABOUT ME

So I used to be a porn addict, for probably well over a decade (I'm 25) so I got accustomed to my own grip, i.e. the death grip. I now know I was gripping myself too hard, but had always suspected this, as had several partners. This affected the three major relationships I've been in, including other women I've been sexually with in a deep emotional way. At first it was nice in high school as I didn't have to worry about pregnancies really or anything. But delayed ejaculation (DE) takes its toll and wears at you over the years, especially emotionally.

In high school I had trouble even keeping an erection at times during sex, and sometimes during college. However, in my later years during college I discovered I was able to get off to oral (only had the high school relationship to reference for a long time, and honestly she wasn't good at oral, but hey, high school am I right?). The most recent relationship I've gotten out of was back in late May, or early June. My ex and I mutually ended things but she had mentioned what NoFap was. Now, I have to thank her for that and the fact she was a virgin in many regards, not just sex. Being with her kind of gave me a little bit of a head start, as I was able to teach her how to do things, like oral and handjobs. And I guess I taught her well as I looked forward to her more than porn. Previously I was able to get off from oral, but I had never taught anybody how to get me off. So this was neat to me. We never had sex a lot as she was really self conscious and a hardcore Christian (I'm not) but it was whatever. We only had sex probably like a dozen times in two years. Yes you read that right. But hey, I never got off to sex so nbd.

Well, now here I am with some great news, and how I managed to do it. I'd also like to mention the tid bit here that I don't have confidence issues. I know I"m an attractive well built guy. I workout a lot, have a charming personality, and am well rounded in terms of activities. So I emphasize this here: I believe that people experience "superpowers" from working out and doing more than just porn. I NEVER felt these sudden surges of superpowers that other people claim to have. What drove ME in particular was change. The desire to finally end the nightmare of this journey, to find the light at the end of my own tunnel. To each their own, but this is my story.

I'm going to dive right in and give a brief detail of my 68 day journey.

Weeks 1-3

First of all, I love anime. I started watching this show called Boku no Hero Academia (My Hero Academy) and this really motivated me to do this. It taught me that even if you want to achieve great things, you must still work even if the great things fall into your lap. So this time actually wasn't as hard as it used to be. My longest streak before was 27 days, and I remember each day being so difficult that time. But this time was different. Everyones stories here really inspired me. There was a sense of justice that I felt. I wasn't doing this for myself. I was doing this to show also show others that you CAN do whatever you want. I sort of flatlined, but my flatline wasn't as bad here, but I didn't have as much of a sex drive really. Occasional boners but like, nothing crazy.

Weeks 3/4-6/7 (days 21/28 - days 42/49)

Flatline. Like just fucking straight up basically. I have a girl I'm talking to now, and she would (and does) send me pictures as she lives far away. And I am definitely falling for this girl, hard (we have a lot of history it's complicated). Even with these, I never really felt a super strong surge of sexuality. Still boners, but nothing abnormal. I think at one point here the tip of my penis started peeling. It was weird. I had sex once around day 30 but it didn't last long as she was smaller so she hurt from me after just a few minutes.

Weeks 6/7 to now (day 68)

Each and every day my penis got a little more sensitive. The nudes the girl I mentioned earlier was doing more for me. And the past few days my erections have been having precum even when I wasn't touching myself. It was kind of insane. Another instance of peeling occurred too. But not even a few hours ago, another girl I've been talking to for a little came over, and we quickly went at it. My body felt different though. I was more attracted to her presence and warmth than any other girl before, and I don't really have feelings for her at all even now. So things start, and one position in particular that I've always liked just happened to do the trick! It was incredible! I can't wait to have this with someone I love and care for.

CHANGES

So things that changed for me:

Not a ton. But my mind no longer things of porn, even during both instances I had sex.

I feel more connected to the person I'm with. Like, I even basically retrained my feelings here in terms of bonding intimately. Didn't even expect this or know this could happen.

Much more sensitive. Like wow.

I wish I could add more here, but well, it only happened once. But masturbation is a thing of the past for me.

THANK YOUS

First, I want to give a shoutout to anyone age 20ish or lower. You guys are my inspiration. How disgusting it is that our society has you guys exposed to this shit, especially you guys around age 15 and lower. I was exposed at an early age and struggled with this all my life. I cannot stress enough how much you guys motivated me. I will never let another person fall victim to this, especially you all. You guys CAN do it. I am always here if you need me.

Second, @troyan like I've said before, you are my fucking hero. This guy knows his shit about death grip and DE. I want to form something bigger for those with this issue as it's hard to find anything about it. But I will make sure no one has to be plagued by this curse anymore. There are literally not enough words I have to thank you.

@AscendRestore I didn't even take the goat weed. Can you believe that?? I'm going to soon, but you're another guy that really helped me. Your advice is invaluable and I will continue to spread it and help others as you have helped me.

@TheFutureMe you're a guy I've chatted with a bit on here, and you were in a thread with troyan and I, Im pretty sure. I know I've at least messaged you but you were another voice that guided me to my victory. My salvation. Thank you.

@WilliamOneAndDone you reached out to me after seeing a post I made about any form of external things I could do (creams, supplements, etc) could help my condition. And while your advice was long, it was good. I can proudly say I am not psychologically damaged and that I have recovered. I can move forward, also, because of you.

GOALS

My only goals for now are to see if I can keep doing this continually. I plan to see the girl who was sending me pics in about a month, so I'm going to not pmo until I see her, and see if I can do it then.

QUESTIONS/ MISC

If anyone has any questions, please post up. I know I can't cover everything here but I really want to. I would like to add, I haven't taken any sort of supplements except for L-arginine, an amino acid. About 1.5 g a day, but to be honest I haven't been consistent with it so I doubt that did anything.

Great things come to those who truly want them. Crave the change. Then become it.