Help Me, I am relapsing

Ankur Sharma · Aug 24, 2017

Hello Everyone, my 16 day hardmode streak is broken a couple of days earler. Since then I have relapsed 4 times.

I run a lot in the morning and also do exercises, as a result my sex drive is high.
I dont do anything, no job, no plans, nothing to do all day, no going outside (where should I go, I live in a shitty city where if you go outside theres no place where you can sit or relax, not even a bus stop, even roads are so narrow and people drive carelessly always honking, which gives me headache, so I stay at home). As a result its very easy for me to relapse. Also my depression is back again.

I tried many things in my life: many jobs, many half marathon events, tried preparation for government jobs, but failed at everything.

I read a book "The Six pillars of self esteem" and there is something about self destuction. People have unconsious habit of destroying themselves as a result even if something good is happening to them, their subconscious mind cannot accept this and then they destroy. This is what I had done. And since then I am depressed and dont do anything because even if I will come close to succes I will backoff because of my subconscious self sabotaging habit.

My Cause of Relapse: loneliness, boredom, tiredness (I am tired of everything, I am done with my life).

Chudmeister · Aug 24, 2017

You need to rely on us to help you, get an AP. I have a few, you can't have to many. It's helped me so much just talking to people on here. United we stand, divided we fall.

pukernast17 · Aug 24, 2017

Ankur Sharma said: ↑

Hello Everyone, my 16 day hardmode streak is broken a couple of days earler. Since then I have relapsed 4 times.

I run a lot in the morning and also do exercises, as a result my sex drive is high.
I dont do anything, no job, no plans, nothing to do all day, no going outside (where should I go, I live in a shitty city where if you go outside theres no place where you can sit or relax, not even a bus stop, even roads are so narrow and people drive carelessly always honking, which gives me headache, so I stay at home). As a result its very easy for me to relapse. Also my depression is back again.

I tried many things in my life: many jobs, many half marathon events, tried preparation for government jobs, but failed at everything.

I read a book "The Six pillars of self esteem" and there is something about self destuction. People have unconsious habit of destroying themselves as a result even if something good is happening to them, their subconscious mind cannot accept this and then they destroy. This is what I had done. And since then I am depressed and dont do anything because even if I will come close to succes I will backoff because of my subconscious self sabotaging habit.

My Cause of Relapse: loneliness, boredom, tiredness (I am tired of everything, I am done with my life).
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be my AP....
What is reason behind that self destructive mind ?
Why can the mind accept success and growth ?
I want answers to those questions too..
Btw , where do you live remote UP or bihar ?

Facundo93 · Aug 24, 2017

Ankur Sharma said: ↑

Hello Everyone, my 16 day hardmode streak is broken a couple of days earler. Since then I have relapsed 4 times.

I run a lot in the morning and also do exercises, as a result my sex drive is high.
I dont do anything, no job, no plans, nothing to do all day, no going outside (where should I go, I live in a shitty city where if you go outside theres no place where you can sit or relax, not even a bus stop, even roads are so narrow and people drive carelessly always honking, which gives me headache, so I stay at home). As a result its very easy for me to relapse. Also my depression is back again.

I tried many things in my life: many jobs, many half marathon events, tried preparation for government jobs, but failed at everything.

I read a book "The Six pillars of self esteem" and there is something about self destuction. People have unconsious habit of destroying themselves as a result even if something good is happening to them, their subconscious mind cannot accept this and then they destroy. This is what I had done. And since then I am depressed and dont do anything because even if I will come close to succes I will backoff because of my subconscious self sabotaging habit.

My Cause of Relapse: loneliness, boredom, tiredness (I am tired of everything, I am done with my life).
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Try this audio

Be bored or be anxious are very dangerous for the NoFap Challenge, many say that the best feeling is the happiness, i believe that the best feeling is the calm, you should looking for this feeling. Also when you are relapsing, try to change your thinkings.

Best Regards. I wish you a lot of luck

Deleted Account · Aug 24, 2017

Ankur Sharma said: ↑

I tried many things in my life: many jobs, many half marathon events, tried preparation for government jobs, but failed at everything.
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Remember, failure is the first step of success.

Cyanea · Aug 24, 2017

Ankur Sharma said: ↑

Hello Everyone, my 16 day hardmode streak is broken a couple of days earler. Since then I have relapsed 4 times.

I run a lot in the morning and also do exercises, as a result my sex drive is high.
I dont do anything, no job, no plans, nothing to do all day, no going outside (where should I go, I live in a shitty city where if you go outside theres no place where you can sit or relax, not even a bus stop, even roads are so narrow and people drive carelessly always honking, which gives me headache, so I stay at home). As a result its very easy for me to relapse. Also my depression is back again.

I tried many things in my life: many jobs, many half marathon events, tried preparation for government jobs, but failed at everything.

I read a book "The Six pillars of self esteem" and there is something about self destuction. People have unconsious habit of destroying themselves as a result even if something good is happening to them, their subconscious mind cannot accept this and then they destroy. This is what I had done. And since then I am depressed and dont do anything because even if I will come close to succes I will backoff because of my subconscious self sabotaging habit.

My Cause of Relapse: loneliness, boredom, tiredness (I am tired of everything, I am done with my life).
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Ankur Sharma,

Start over again, take a dive in a natural pond and be refreshed. Never give up! You were further than me I relapsed at 14 days. We can do it Ankur Sharma!

Let's keep eachother inspired and motivated,

Peace to life!

Cyanea

Riddle22 · Aug 24, 2017

hello mate, i have a suggustion why don't you make some group about something you interest in,so you could never feel bored, depressed, and could fill your precious time on it, example make some grup on telegram, facebook, or any social media, etc. the group example about study english, share your knowledge about your culture (any topics you like to discuss), etc. if you interested about my idea you could contact me as your first member and is my pleasure to become your first member.

regard from indonesia (and sorry for my english)

Riddle22 · Aug 24, 2017

by the way, is anyone in here have some interest on geology?. just want to know because recently i am study it.

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