Day 83

I've made it to day 83. I watched one of my favorite shows and saw this sex scene in the very beginning of this episode and I really didn't make a thing out of it even though I eventually became aroused I fast forward it because I'm tired of watching sex. I want to be a part of sex. I'm not ashamed to admit it, I'm a virgin and I'm 19 years old. I'll be honest I'm just not the kind of person to give myself to any girl that begs for it. It's just not in my nature. I see sex and love as the same thing. I have to love her before I engage in any sexual endeavors. I'm being patient but nofap had made me realize I should get more out there. I'm tired of fantasizing about sex. I should and I will become involved in it.