Those are states in which you are currently entangled, and the second segment of your post is the consequential outcome of the those acts , meaning once you've redirected your states in more positive manners the life will still precious but the one which happened won't disturb you since they won't even be present.
How I did it(broke that vicious, self torturing, euphoria cycle): Get a job thats over 12 hrs a day, thats probably the easiest way, now that i think about it. Just make sure you never have time to sit down is what im basically saying and/or be in public with people.
Because you're alive, so you can think > choose > act > think > keep going. Fighting for the good, looking for happiness, meet new people. You'll die one day, when your time will come. But by then I wish you to have the courage to live a great life, the one you'll be proud of that last day.
When people have sex, they r not having it with that person, they r havin it with every person that person had had, in the past 10 yrs.
I just watched the movie yesterday :D. A lot of jump cares, but good jump cares. I'm not really interested in devil horror movies. Torture horror movies are my nightmares :D
Is there any girl here who will marry me...inner me: no one will ever marry you, you a fucking piece of an addict.
Then you're not truly living. Get out the of your room, home, isolation. Go do something new. Expand, explore, search. Allow "life" into your life :)
I've just watched war for planet apes movie, really great, it focuses on inner struggles of the character