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TellentLeaf
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TellentLeaf

Fapstronaut, Male, from Japan

feel relieved Oct 21, 2019

TellentLeaf was last seen:
Nov 12, 2019
    1. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      It's uncomfortable but my motivation goes up
    2. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Day3 I feel easier than the second rebooting. I see that even if I relapse the challenge will not be wasted
      1. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Don't you think that you can do it without relapsing?
        Why entertain that possibility, because if it's there in the back of your mind, it will manifest itself in the reality, sooner or later!
        Apr 21, 2018
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      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Thank you for replying. I'm not sure what You want to say.
        I have not said words that I do not think of a future without a relapse.
        Apr 21, 2018
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      3. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Do you understand the context? I meant thanks to the last challenge, I feel comfortable on this challenge.
        Apr 21, 2018
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    3. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      If the Nofap challenge becomes competitive it will violate the dignity of the Challengers. It means corruption of the community.
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    4. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Nofap challenge is not competitive. Since the degree of addiction and the situation are different, individual differences are also large
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    5. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Why frequently comes the word brain in topics of Nofap and Porn Addict? dependence and Addict's problems are brain's ones.
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    6. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Day 1 feel good.
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      2. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Bro I too had serious health issues. After my nofap jounrey, I became vegan, started eating one meal a day with little carbs and a lot of protein and healthy fats along with green tea sometimes. I do moderate exericese, stretching and meditation and have never felt so healthy in my life. Lost around 30 pounds in last 80 days. All the best!
        Apr 20, 2018
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      3. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        I think it dangerous to easily change to a meal a day easily. Not everyone is suitable for one meal. Even though it is necessary, it should be introduced stepwise.
        One of the dangers of eating habits is the rapid rise in blood glucose levels. I am apt to change my physical condition by ingesting carbohydrates.
        Apr 20, 2018
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      4. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Really? Awesome. I fully understand your health problems and countermeasures.
        You're great.
        Apr 20, 2018
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    7. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Porn Addict's problem is brain's one . Rebooting days is equivalent to process of rewiring the pleasure circuit of the brain
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    8. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
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    9. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Binge today. I need PMO challenge. I have a bad mood feelings
    10. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      After all I need Nofap
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      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        I have only a little left since quitting the Nofap challenge, but I noticed that this community made me strong. I need this challenge & community.
        Apr 18, 2018
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      3. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Yeah bro. Keep going! Things do get a lot more beautiful and amazing if you persist and don't allow the PMO evil to dominate you. All the best!
        Apr 20, 2018
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      4. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Thank you , I can stay strong.
        Apr 20, 2018
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    11. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Dear My friend and Challenger who communicated with me. I think I will quit the nofap challenge once.
      1. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        I understood that today's dietary and lifestyle problems are more important than porn addict problem for me.
        Apr 18, 2018
      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        I will write in journal for details.
        Apr 18, 2018
    12. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I take an offensive strategy at this reboot.In exchange accepting discomfort, not be passive, but I attack and attack, and then win over
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    13. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I make creative living and Nofap challenge top priority.
      1. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Up until this time, only Nofap Challenge was the top priority, but in this fight I think that Nofap challenge has become easier and I would like to add a new challenge.
        Apr 17, 2018
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        Deleted Account
        Sounds beautiful ;)
        Apr 17, 2018
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    14. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I'm Looking for an AP. I want to raise the quality of the Nofap challenge.
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    15. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      My Third rebooting has started now.
      1. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        All the best bro! Hope you do a successful rebooting this time.Keep us updated!
        Apr 17, 2018
      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Thank you Good friend! It will be a good ship.
        Apr 17, 2018
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      3. Roady
        Roady
        It's already in the pocket. You just have to say "no" one day at a time.
        Apr 17, 2018
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    16. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Maybe I relapsed. Changes did not occur on my days
    17. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I have been watching porn as like everyday from several days ago. Desire to see porno happens frequently, can't stop. I am confused.
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      3. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        I'm reading 「Your brain on porn」by using google's translation system.
        Apr 16, 2018
      4. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        The best guide to rebooting. Have you read that book? Finish it first then
        Apr 16, 2018
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      5. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Really? Thank. For me it is very good news because I can believe that I have access to the most valuable information.
        Apr 16, 2018
    18. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      The goal of this week is to consciously quit thinking about porn. I will be careful not to look for sexy pictures.
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    19. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      6-Days have passed. It was like hell days for me. But I do not feel bad.
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      2. Baledoz
        Baledoz
        Hey actually i just used Imagine Dragon-It's Time Lyric with the heaven and hell metaphor. To be honest i think heaven is the peaceful condition within our mind, and probably all of us might already experienced it in our younger days when we still not being enslaved by pornography addiction, when everything seems so bright and life is always looks so wonderful.
        Apr 15, 2018
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      3. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Great. But I forgot heaven because of 12 years ago. It's been a week since I started rebooting, but not much change.
        In the beginning, I still can not believe whether there is a nice change ahead of freeing from porn for me.
        I think I will continue even. Good Luck to us :)
        Apr 15, 2018
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      4. Baledoz
        Baledoz
        Hope we all get the best things in our life man
        Apr 15, 2018
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    20. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I welcome discomfort. I'm feeling discomfort haha.
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  • About

    Gender:
    Male
    Birthday:
    August 21
    Location:
    Japan
    Journal Thread Link:
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    Hello Nofap, everyone.
    I'm 24y / o man in Japan. PMO challenging now(4/8).1 relapsed.

    I will tell you about me according to the official recommended topics.
    To make you interested in me even a little, you can only read where you want to read.


    How long I have been using porn-12years
    Since I was 7 years old, porn magazine was familiar. I sneaked into my father's room with lots of porn magazine and was reading them.

    And at the age of 12, serious porn dependence began. I have a cell phone. I do not know myself for 12 years I was released from pornography.

    Now, I become to masturbate seven times and ten times a day. I can do it three times in thiry minutes.



    The impact pornography use has had on my life
    - Especially No energy and Addiction

    I have many things I wanted to do. I have a hope.

    However, at the same time I was lethargic and behaving suspicious, and I was anxious. I was often misunderstood about my character by other people.

    I rejected consciously being able to do relationships.

    I was unable to sleep unless I had to masturbate (for years). I could not sleep on a day when I did not masturbate.


    It was so annoying to build a relationship with a woman.
    And I always gave it up on the way.


    My head was full of PORN.
    All the pain, discomfort, and stress were diverged with Porn Masturbation.
    I also masturbated many times on the go.

    I had little in a year to think that the psychological problem I had was caused by pornography.

    Because Porn Masturbation was a pleasant experience. Even though a feeling of apathy later struck, I felt good and I could not quit.

    Up to now I could abstain of Porn Masturbation in three weeks when I went homestay in America about 10 years ago .

    And it was 8 days last year that I decided Nofap strongly once.

    After relapse, I was not sure of my resolve and my state at that time.


    Instead I felt the lust with masturbation.

    However, last year's Nofap Challenge, I gained valuable experience .

    I gained valuable experience of betting every day to Nofap.
    Even if I failed Nofap and my days were wasted.

    And I started noticing that I was pointing my energy to pornography.



    Why I have decided to quit using porn-
    The Time has come. I Regain the initiative of my life


    Because the time has come. To regain the initiative of life.

    I decided Nofap this time because I clearly thought that opening up from porn might lead to solving the problems that I had over the years.
    And I cleary decided to invest in my time to become free from porn.

    I became depressed and spent a lot of days I couldn't move.

    It took me a while to change myself from that state, but changed my way of life, changed my eating habits and changed my residence.

    However, I definitely did not solve my lethargy or fragility.

    And only myself who has not changed and only pornographic addiction remained.

    Just before Nofap, I was masturbating while saying "I am doing what I am. Please help me."

    I changed my way of living, changed my eating habits, changed my residence.
    There were lots of things I wanted to do and I had a desire to restart my life. I wanted to bloom my talent. However, the body does not move with lethargy.

    And I put the time I can use for myself in masturbation.


    When I fell down to despair as I fell down, a strong determination for Nofap was born in my heart.

    When I felt a strong desperation I had the characteristic that I strongly thought I would go forward.

    And I thought seriously how to achieve Nofap.

    There were individual differences in the spirit, I thought that Nofap could not be realized just by fighting.

    I was convinced that "Well understanding 'pornography addiction and brain' " was a means to solve the Nofap that I had challenged and could not clear.

    And as I became healthy by changing my habitation, I came to access information around the world in English.

    For me who is a Japanese who uses mother tongue for everyday language and learning, Internet in English wasn't familiar.

    There are lot of The rich, logical and scientific information what I am exactly looking for.

    Let me introduce a book that has become impudent to access overseas information.

    "Energy and Eros Teaching on the Art of Love
    James Newton Powell"

    I did not know it at all before, but it became a book that gives us awareness that "Eros is the driving force of people."
    Semen is a symbol of energy in ancient India and China. In China it seems there was an idea that women are not deprived of energy by not sperm out. It was scales from the eyes.

    "The Compass of Pleasure"

    It scientifically states that all pleasures and dependence are problems of the brain.
    And this year I could not be satisfied with the information in Japan, and for the first time I caught a foreign book, I got to know the value of deepening my understanding of my porn addict.


    "PORN ADDICTION HOW TO RECOVER" Kindle Unlimited

    The first book that accessed overseas information of porn addiction. This book has recognized this problem well in the world, handled carefully, and taught me what is being discussed well.


    And now I think that understanding the porno addiction and deep understanding of the NoFap community is the key to rebooting.

    I am endowed with three opportunities to recognize the porn addiction problem, resolve to quit porn, and access the appropriate information well.

    Time has matured.

    To regain my life.





    Finally - I find AP and I'm waiting for your message.


    I do not think Porn and PORNOSTARs themselves are evil .
    They themselves are shining and they are very beautiful.

    But commercially,There are aspects that the Internet PORNO industryabnormally stimulate us and creates sexual desire, hopes that we will get addiction, regardless of our health status, and they realize these.

    And I think that this is not a mechanism that all people can endure.

    Especially I sensitive to pornography, I need an understanding of advanced PORN technologies and ADDICTION in particular.

    I understand Nofap does not criticize people who do not force or practice to someone who fap and relapse.
    But I aware that it is an individual fight.

    I am looking for an understandable accountability partner regardless of gender.

    I find AP who Respect each other's challenge and mind and change the NoFap days to a good day.

    I am challenging 30 days now, but I will continue my reboot and set new goals each time I clear it.

    If you can sympathize with me, if you are interested, please give me a message.

    I do not know myself free from porn for 12 years.

    "My life may change" This is my hope, the hope always saves me.

    When I masturbate in pornography, I am satisfied at that time, I feel loneliness even though I am lonely.

    I want to be a person who accept loneliness.

    Thank you for reading;)

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