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TellentLeaf
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TellentLeaf

Fapstronaut, Male, from Japan

feel relieved Oct 21, 2019

TellentLeaf was last seen:
Nov 12, 2019
    1. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Day 10 No urge but No power. I sent a depressed life. I can't see tomorrow.
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      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        My spirit is crazy. As I become healthy I understand my incompetence.
        Apr 29, 2018
    2. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      No matter how miserable I feel, despair of myself, I won't diverge in porn. It's hard, though. Overcome despair through creative efforts.
      1. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        you are doing really well with 10 clean days.
        Apr 29, 2018
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      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Thank you. I'm grad for your support.
        Apr 29, 2018
    3. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Maybe Just a tension headache. Since head gets stuck, I refrain from cold shower. Only in case of emergency.
      1. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        I too generally avoid cold shower when having headaches. But now I get them rarely. Keep heading mate!
        Apr 28, 2018
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      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Thank you Rajat. I think an unfamiliar cold shower caused a headache. I recovered a little.
        Apr 29, 2018
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    4. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I'll want to die. But I'll give up on my life once and I accept my rock bottom. Let's Look at my rock bottom.
    5. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I go on challenge. I accept I'm empty. Even if I want to run away in despair, I accept it.
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    6. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Emptiness is raining in my heart.
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    7. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I guess this thought is due to lethargy. But I can't go forward without expressing what I thought. I don't need soothing.
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    8. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      The more I become healthy, the more I realize I'm an empty person
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    9. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      The more I become healthy, the more I hate myself. And notice the emptiness of myself.
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    10. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      The more I feel better, the more I become scared. I can't frankly affirm the past days.
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    11. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      While Brain Fatigue, whatever I do is boring. Lethargic.
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    12. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Nothing fun. No power. Fortunately. No urge.
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    13. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Day 9 I have brain fatigue. Lethargic. I watched cute women, No naked and No porn, I was healed. There 's no urge now to watch them
    14. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Sorry my head is tired and I can't reply in my profile posts. I only post today.
    15. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I've recoverd brain fatigue a bit. When I can't do anything, I spend hours not doing anything. If I can only do this, I accept this time
    16. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Brain fatigue, is one of the easiest factors to fap to me. But I have no beliefs tha encourage us to indulge in porn. Today is fighting day
    17. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Lethargic. A little urge came for the first time in this reboot. I took a cold shower to take measures early. I calm down
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    18. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      [New Record when I started in Nofap site] 8days have passed. It's the first time in seven years. I go this way.
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      2. TellentLeaf
        TellentLeaf
        Thank you man.
        Apr 27, 2018
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      3. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        @tellentJP Thanks and you're welcome! Take On Me, yes that is a great song haha! Cool video also! Wish you all the best, let's go forward together :-)
        Apr 27, 2018
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      4. Baledoz
        Baledoz
        Congratulation dude! i know you can do this
        Apr 27, 2018
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    19. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      Yesterday's dream was a little porn but I felt no urge. I accept that it can happen as kind of withdrawal symptoms.
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        Deleted Account
        Courage doesn't always roar, sometimes it's the quiet voice at the end of the day whispering 'I will try again tomorrow'

        Best Of Luck
        Apr 26, 2018
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    20. TellentLeaf
      TellentLeaf
      I analyze my rebooting well because I want the information to be used for my future and next challengers.
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  • About

    Gender:
    Male
    Birthday:
    August 21
    Location:
    Japan
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    Hello Nofap, everyone.
    I'm 24y / o man in Japan. PMO challenging now(4/8).1 relapsed.

    I will tell you about me according to the official recommended topics.
    To make you interested in me even a little, you can only read where you want to read.


    How long I have been using porn-12years
    Since I was 7 years old, porn magazine was familiar. I sneaked into my father's room with lots of porn magazine and was reading them.

    And at the age of 12, serious porn dependence began. I have a cell phone. I do not know myself for 12 years I was released from pornography.

    Now, I become to masturbate seven times and ten times a day. I can do it three times in thiry minutes.



    The impact pornography use has had on my life
    - Especially No energy and Addiction

    I have many things I wanted to do. I have a hope.

    However, at the same time I was lethargic and behaving suspicious, and I was anxious. I was often misunderstood about my character by other people.

    I rejected consciously being able to do relationships.

    I was unable to sleep unless I had to masturbate (for years). I could not sleep on a day when I did not masturbate.


    It was so annoying to build a relationship with a woman.
    And I always gave it up on the way.


    My head was full of PORN.
    All the pain, discomfort, and stress were diverged with Porn Masturbation.
    I also masturbated many times on the go.

    I had little in a year to think that the psychological problem I had was caused by pornography.

    Because Porn Masturbation was a pleasant experience. Even though a feeling of apathy later struck, I felt good and I could not quit.

    Up to now I could abstain of Porn Masturbation in three weeks when I went homestay in America about 10 years ago .

    And it was 8 days last year that I decided Nofap strongly once.

    After relapse, I was not sure of my resolve and my state at that time.


    Instead I felt the lust with masturbation.

    However, last year's Nofap Challenge, I gained valuable experience .

    I gained valuable experience of betting every day to Nofap.
    Even if I failed Nofap and my days were wasted.

    And I started noticing that I was pointing my energy to pornography.



    Why I have decided to quit using porn-
    The Time has come. I Regain the initiative of my life


    Because the time has come. To regain the initiative of life.

    I decided Nofap this time because I clearly thought that opening up from porn might lead to solving the problems that I had over the years.
    And I cleary decided to invest in my time to become free from porn.

    I became depressed and spent a lot of days I couldn't move.

    It took me a while to change myself from that state, but changed my way of life, changed my eating habits and changed my residence.

    However, I definitely did not solve my lethargy or fragility.

    And only myself who has not changed and only pornographic addiction remained.

    Just before Nofap, I was masturbating while saying "I am doing what I am. Please help me."

    I changed my way of living, changed my eating habits, changed my residence.
    There were lots of things I wanted to do and I had a desire to restart my life. I wanted to bloom my talent. However, the body does not move with lethargy.

    And I put the time I can use for myself in masturbation.


    When I fell down to despair as I fell down, a strong determination for Nofap was born in my heart.

    When I felt a strong desperation I had the characteristic that I strongly thought I would go forward.

    And I thought seriously how to achieve Nofap.

    There were individual differences in the spirit, I thought that Nofap could not be realized just by fighting.

    I was convinced that "Well understanding 'pornography addiction and brain' " was a means to solve the Nofap that I had challenged and could not clear.

    And as I became healthy by changing my habitation, I came to access information around the world in English.

    For me who is a Japanese who uses mother tongue for everyday language and learning, Internet in English wasn't familiar.

    There are lot of The rich, logical and scientific information what I am exactly looking for.

    Let me introduce a book that has become impudent to access overseas information.

    "Energy and Eros Teaching on the Art of Love
    James Newton Powell"

    I did not know it at all before, but it became a book that gives us awareness that "Eros is the driving force of people."
    Semen is a symbol of energy in ancient India and China. In China it seems there was an idea that women are not deprived of energy by not sperm out. It was scales from the eyes.

    "The Compass of Pleasure"

    It scientifically states that all pleasures and dependence are problems of the brain.
    And this year I could not be satisfied with the information in Japan, and for the first time I caught a foreign book, I got to know the value of deepening my understanding of my porn addict.


    "PORN ADDICTION HOW TO RECOVER" Kindle Unlimited

    The first book that accessed overseas information of porn addiction. This book has recognized this problem well in the world, handled carefully, and taught me what is being discussed well.


    And now I think that understanding the porno addiction and deep understanding of the NoFap community is the key to rebooting.

    I am endowed with three opportunities to recognize the porn addiction problem, resolve to quit porn, and access the appropriate information well.

    Time has matured.

    To regain my life.





    Finally - I find AP and I'm waiting for your message.


    I do not think Porn and PORNOSTARs themselves are evil .
    They themselves are shining and they are very beautiful.

    But commercially,There are aspects that the Internet PORNO industryabnormally stimulate us and creates sexual desire, hopes that we will get addiction, regardless of our health status, and they realize these.

    And I think that this is not a mechanism that all people can endure.

    Especially I sensitive to pornography, I need an understanding of advanced PORN technologies and ADDICTION in particular.

    I understand Nofap does not criticize people who do not force or practice to someone who fap and relapse.
    But I aware that it is an individual fight.

    I am looking for an understandable accountability partner regardless of gender.

    I find AP who Respect each other's challenge and mind and change the NoFap days to a good day.

    I am challenging 30 days now, but I will continue my reboot and set new goals each time I clear it.

    If you can sympathize with me, if you are interested, please give me a message.

    I do not know myself free from porn for 12 years.

    "My life may change" This is my hope, the hope always saves me.

    When I masturbate in pornography, I am satisfied at that time, I feel loneliness even though I am lonely.

    I want to be a person who accept loneliness.

    Thank you for reading;)

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