Comments on Profile Post by hollinger

Still wasted like 2-3 hours doing that shit and spent whole my day in comfort avoiding responsibilites. Not proud.

Yesterday was a good day though, after drinking and staying up for the whole night I felt amazing and back to my normal self for a minute. Tomorrow is therapy, I have no idea what I'll tell there.

After all I know all my problems and shortcomings, if I just choose to not follow my heart and deal with them, then what good does therapy do anyway.

"Wasted 2-3 hours... edged and watched porn, did not cum". In fact, what you did was much worse and will have nullified all your progress to date. Please read this page to find out why: https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-porn-use-faqs/what-if-i-masturbate-edge-or-watch-porn-without-orgasm

in my opinion porn is more mind fucking and bad for your metal health and holding sperm is more about keeping energy to be honest i prefer the opposite not to watch the porn and cum. wasting too many hours on that you need other activities to do if your doing it because of boredom

Yeah guys you're right, it is out of boredom and just making my brain believe I achieved something. Today I failed completely and nullified all my progress, masturbated twice, feels like a never-ending journey.

"Either fap or not, there is no edge" - true quote, I always lie I'll just watch a little bit to get my dopamine levels up, doesn't work like this with addictive behavior I guess.

I need to do hard-mode, really now or never. I know I deserve real women and this activity is just subconsciously telling myself I'm not good enough.

Good article IGY. Serious people shouldn't spend their days playing with their dopamine levels. I like this line "Dopamine is odd. It really shoots up when something is better than expected, but drops when expectations are not met. Rewiring your sexuality to Internet porn means you unconsciously expect to be a voyeur controlling your dopamine with a mouse"

I think I might have already addiction-related brain changes. Tough to trust myself, if it's like 100th time I fail.

http://i.imgur.com/JESdFoW.jpg

"Evil comes from the abuse of free will" - I have totally abused my freedom and free will, need more self control and trust in myself.

At certain moment for example I tell myself it's okay to be a sexual person and just watch some porn, everyone does it and I just need to be able to control myself, I can handle it.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/3ppvgx/3_questions_to_ask_yourself_before_giving_in/ - yeah the limbic system explains it.

"The limbic system of the brain deals with survival and reproduction. It seeks pleasure and avoids pain. It has no morals, is emotional, and is not logical. It doesn't care if you've made a commitment to stop an action. It cares about remembering what actions bring pleasure, and motivating the organism to pursue those actions." - makes sense. Celebral cortex vs limbic system.

Will acting on this temptation bring you long term satisfaction, instant gratification, or both? only instant pleasure

How will you feel immediately after, several hours after, and the day after you act on this temptation? not good, disappointed in myself, less energy, less wish to be social

If you choose to act on this temptation, will it make your life better or worse? 100% worse

Good luck, and remember that those who think they can and those who think they can't are both usually right. So I think I can do it. One day at a time. I'll take 30-day long goal for now.

It's a commitment and I trust my celebral cortex to fulfill it. - hollinger 07.06

"seems like the cerebral cortex represents your rational thought and willpower whereas our limbic system is that kid inside that wants to seek out instant gratification"

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2mx7tr/looking_into_her_eyes/

"that's so true. I can see now being in a state of clarity that when you're in that cycle, you aren't really living, motivating post

"I have never experienced that deep connection with anyone...and probably never will. But I have decided to live porn free and fap free for the rest of my life. If I am going to be lonely, I still want to live with dignity. Beautiful post man, take care."

I've depleted my willpower, I'm very prone to all sorts of addictions. At least I'm thinking myself and I know how to fix it. In theory.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/3tzusy/relapsing_and_why_you_should_never_do_it/?sort=confidence

All your reasoning, observations and conclusions are spot on mate. The final piece of the jigsaw is to follow through. Be alert to the limbic system which will try to usurp your prefrontal cortex. Best wishes @hollinger. :)

"You don't set out to build a wall. You don't say 'I'm going to build the biggest, baddest, greatest wall that's ever been built.' You don't start there. You say, 'I'm going to lay this brick as perfectly as a brick can be laid. You do that every single day. And soon you have a wall."

Thanks, IGY. Congratz on 30-days. "You cannot dream yourself into a character: you must hammer and forge yourself". I'll be there in no time.

I totally believe in nofap, I think my lack of self-control lies in ego depletion and since I'm afraid of overthinking I just do everything impulsively to show I'm alright.

I think before comes loneliness, then addiction to porn or any other kind, so main thing is to just be connected to people.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1ga25m/procrastination_one_more_cant_hurt/

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