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hollinger
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hollinger

Fapstronaut, Male, 26

Hey friends, I’m doing wonderful. Sex with a prostitute every day keeps you sharp. May 3, 2023

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May 15, 2023
    1. hollinger
      hollinger
      i need to get out of it, just wasting time on youtube wtf i should kill myself
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      2. CTRL + DEL
        CTRL + DEL
        YouTube isn't a reason to kill yourself over dude, what the hell...

        Just chill man. Take it easy.
        Dec 30, 2019
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        i think it might be if my procrastination methods dont end, omegle again and youtube was for the rest of the day.
        Dec 30, 2019
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        im a hugely intelligent potential guy, it's a sin to lose it like this, but the way out takes so much energy
        Dec 30, 2019
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    2. hollinger
      hollinger
      I have a new addiction: omegle and chatroulette. Help, can it be considered as porn and should I quit it the same way?
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        women are distraction overall anyways, stop looking for these dating and escort sites as well. these are relapse too, you get the same dopamine simply for wanting to see who could you possibly fuck and be in that comfortable cloud
        Dec 26, 2019
      4. hollinger
      5. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Man it is an addiction. So it is wrong. It's P substitution, it's like stop going to casino but do online betting. Quit all addiction and take back your life
        Dec 26, 2019
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    3. hollinger
      hollinger
      And I ended my horniness with 2 consecutive wet dreams
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Kind of see it as a relapse, because it was intentional and I feel much less energy. In the dream I just went wild
        Dec 25, 2019
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      3. CTRL + DEL
        CTRL + DEL
        That's what dreams are for, I guess. (Going wild)

        It's better than your hand though, that's for sure, so good job about that :D
        Dec 25, 2019
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    4. hollinger
      hollinger
      Pornography is what happens when a man insists on being energized by a woman; he uses her to get a feeling that he is a man.
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        Self-respect is very important, cant lose all of it.
        Dec 23, 2019
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        Dec 23, 2019
    5. hollinger
      hollinger
      You're messed up if you go against your own principles
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        you are not who you think you are, wearing the role of authenticity is also a mask, im the way i want to be.
        Dec 15, 2019
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        overall i've been pretty good, but yeah these mistakes always make me think wth, often it's just escapetrkoadskfödlskfölsadkfaösldkfölasdkföaskdöfaskldöfkasölfkasdölfksadölfkasölfdksadölkfsöaldkföalsdkfölaskdf im repeating myself again, cant do that.
        Dec 15, 2019
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        iodfhoiawfsjlkdsajfdslakfjdslkfjsdalkfjaslkjfslkdajfaksjfklasdj and i deleted a comment, but okay im fine, whatever,
        Dec 15, 2019
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    6. hollinger
      hollinger
      When you lose your meaning, you strive into pleasure and become impulsive
      1. hollinger
        hollinger
        Being unreactive to stuff is good, no point to say more than is needed. Yesterday was pretty good dance with one female, that started my urges again, want to fap, did a little bit
        Nov 30, 2019
      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Using socializing to lessen anxiety doesnt work, you should be at peace before that and I am actually, most of the time, only when I want to say something I don't dare, I get little anxious. Happiness is saying what you think, not thinking what to say.
        Nov 30, 2019
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        I fapped for 5 minutes only, so all good, meanwhile I've had 2 wet dreams, but no porn usage whatsoever. I am much more myself with females, no doubt. sex is not the best thing in the world anyways, first comes connection. but yeah I crave for one good sex partner.
        Nov 30, 2019
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    7. hollinger
      hollinger
      I had such a weird wet dream
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      2. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Bro you gotta calm down ^^" Don't give too much information. It doesn't trigger me but try to keep it as low as possible ^^
        Nov 23, 2019
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      3. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        when it comes to the sexual part
        Nov 23, 2019
      4. CruzanImpact
        CruzanImpact
        Please.... dial it back for some. I know this site is made for recovery and it allots for testimonials, but details aren’t too necessary
        Nov 23, 2019
    8. hollinger
      hollinger
      And I failed completely now, watched porn and masturbated and cummed
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        thanks i'm actually alright, just little disappointed and wrote my emotions impulsively. if its a success story, then probabaly, right now it's half-way
        Nov 18, 2019
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        it starts when you lose your confidence aka serotonine and the place in social hierarchy is not clear, anyways when you feel that porn is what you deserve not real women and good cognitive skills. also just environment and doing mistakes on purpose, stop this nonsense, stop hiding, yeah i dont try to prove anything, i want to sleep, at least im connected with my subconscious, hmh, never mind procrastinating right now
        Nov 18, 2019
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        most important right now is the promise, i believe i can do it, that's why i also put my own picture, to show i'm serious. hopefully wont come here for a while now
        Nov 18, 2019
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    9. hollinger
      hollinger
      Basically failed today, watched 1hour of porn and kept edging.
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Meanwhile I've had at least 4-5 wet dreams and almost had sex yesterday
        Nov 8, 2019
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        The reason was just that I want the affection of a woman and there's no one and I don't know what to do
        Nov 8, 2019
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    10. hollinger
      hollinger
      I'm starting to slip a little, fapped again just to feel more fresh
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        Better to engage more, better sleep schedule and everything I know. Same with music, I don't feel like listening to it is making me more creative. Just free dopamine through that.
        Oct 26, 2019
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        Overall the less you use screens for entertainment the better. Makes sense to use them for work and your responsibilities, but fun is better with other people.
        Oct 26, 2019
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      5. American.Psycho
        American.Psycho
        After I quit my addiction to my consoles took cold showers mediated and fasted. I was legitimately able to see better. It took me a while to figure out how BS YT and social media was id use them to watch pointless videos like a mindless zombie.
        Oct 26, 2019
    11. hollinger
      hollinger
      Just fapping a little, no cum/no porn
      1. hollinger
        hollinger
        And writing here instantly took my boner away, so pointless.
        Oct 23, 2019
      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Not a whining man anymore, but yeah could still say and control conversations more, but nah all good.
        Oct 23, 2019
    12. hollinger
      hollinger
      And I failed again, feel disgusted at myself
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        I think however that nofap is one of the things that has pretty much cured my depression, but still I cant keep failing. I need to take the leap and also in front of my friends and other men flirt with girls the way I feel is good
        Oct 6, 2019
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        About 15 days this time, edging is dangerous, I feel I'm not open enough with people, open in the sense that saying what I actually mean no matter how ridiculous sounds. But nevertheless Ive improved amazingly within the last two months, stuff can only get better
        Oct 6, 2019
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        Self-doubt is minimal and the need to prove myself as well, fuck I hope after this cum clarity wears off I won't be out of energy and with no emotions, probably won't. Still I need to pull some deal for myself to not fail that often, if I watch porn in October again, I'm disappointed - I'm actually pretty cool and it makes no sense to lose your self-esteem there when you could be banging girls aka making them happy
        Oct 6, 2019
    13. hollinger
      hollinger
      33-day NoFap streak ended
      1. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        33 days is awesome. Don’t binge
        Sep 20, 2019
      2. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Great achievement. You can get everywhere if you keep constantly improving!
        Sep 21, 2019
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    14. hollinger
      hollinger
      And 30-day nofap streak ended
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        I could use a therapist with whom to be completely honest, cant talk your problems to parents, almost always mistake
        Aug 17, 2019
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        You know its a mistake in the long run, yeah it is, fuck I want anastasija to add me, mby she my new friend
        Aug 17, 2019
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        Life is fucked up if you dont follow your heart and instincts, stop self-sabitaging. I hate taking responsibility for my actions, but its deadly, fuck me,
        Aug 17, 2019
    15. hollinger
      hollinger
      "suffering leads to bitterness bitterness leads to resentfulness resentfulness leads to vengeance vengeance leads to the dark side"
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        life is 90% what happens to you, 10% how you react. it makes sense to stop watching youtube, because there people are just telling you what to do and you need to do nothing, you don't even have to say anything back. my point is it's rather pointless, if you want real connections.
        Aug 15, 2019
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        my most pointless NoFap story so far, but okay so be it, some things are better left unsaid.
        Aug 15, 2019
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        i dont like myself, but i accept myself the way i am, so the point is not to become perfect, but imperfectly satisfied with your own being, so you're fun to be around and give cool vibes, yes i'm that guy soon.
        Aug 15, 2019
    16. hollinger
      hollinger
      You don't have to prove anyone anything.
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        BPD lens is causing you to see others and yourself in a more negative self-destructive way, and makes you go to maladaptive behaviours, stuff that you shouldnt normally do, like be alone when want to share and so on, it's a form of self-punishment. BPD also is characterized by obsessive thoughts about simple things, some thoughts that you just keep having daily and cant get rid of.
        Aug 8, 2019
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        Aug 8, 2019
    17. hollinger
      hollinger
      I've been able to do things I never thought I would be able to do...
      1. hollinger
        hollinger
        Being able to achieve when most people just throw in the towel at the first sign of adversity."
        Aug 7, 2019
      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        On that note watched 15 minutes of porn, but that's it, just for the curiosity.
        Aug 7, 2019
    18. hollinger
      hollinger
      I hate so much when I please people, it's unbelievable.
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Once again sometimes less is more, if you understand persons silence, you might understand his words. Another thing is that most people are incredibly stupid and far from the level of self-awareness and understanding like this group here, so they don't realize they go angry because of their own insecurities. Such people is okay to dominate and take money from, if they're not willing to learn.
        Aug 4, 2019
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        Not like dominate in a bad way, but not let their energy ruin yours and actually winning someone, humiliating in that sense feels good. 5-second rule.
        Aug 4, 2019
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        "If you don't try you might as well be a bad person" Jordan Peterson. Yeah I think I would be super-comfortable and trying to rely on others rather than taking on my decisions....but I still try.
        Aug 4, 2019
    19. hollinger
      hollinger
      9-day long porn streak ended today. Weird how all the pictures seem ugly at first, but over time you get used to it.
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        or i try my best in just being me, it's not that easy, but worth to try, trusting yourself in what you say and do, but still doing it with seeming confidence, we're all here for same reason anyways, just talk to strangers, develop kindness and do whatever you want.
        Jul 30, 2019
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        just ended my long conversation with parents, i did not block too many thoughts, but still some, and left unsaid certain things, i hate those theoretical moralizing advices, that everyone knows anyway, just say what's on your mind and fuck political correctness. political correctness is for pussies, in order to think you must take the risk of being offensive.
        Jul 30, 2019
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        today in bus I was really mad, that why people are not open and why i did not talk to one beautiful stranger, but change becomes with you, so I should make that change first. long story short, fear sucks. and when you understand and feel you dont do something because of fear, you should do it immediately, sometimes its difficult to differentiate: is it fear or you just dont want.
        Jul 30, 2019
    20. hollinger
      hollinger
      And 14-day streak this time, failed completely on purpose, wont even bother getting mad
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      2. Sir Minato
        Sir Minato
        Don't be so hard on yourself. This thing is a process. When really ugly things happen and we don't have the proper tools to find a fitting regulation for our emotion, it is just natural to do what we have always done to deal with it. When I broke up with my ex and she kept shittalking me I relapsed intentionally, too. Because it hurt me so much and I just wanted to feel good.
        Jul 17, 2019
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      3. Sir Minato
        Sir Minato
        It's okay. I then figured out that I want to stop cause it is not fitting for my heart, and then I stopped. " If she is shit and relapsing and trying to hurt me with other guys, THEN I WILL HURT HER BACK AND WATCH SOME BITCHES THAT ARE WAY BETTER THAN HER"
        You may have a belief in you that if life is a bitch towards you, you be a bitch back; but also paired with the desperate longing to feel better.
        Jul 17, 2019
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      4. Sir Minato
        Sir Minato
        I figured out I had that believe that I just quoted before and I had to accept it and change it, replace it with something that serves me. Because I am not hurting her with it, only myself.

        Try to think of a way to deal with it next time. Some proper way that is strong. Visualise it. Feel it. And then move on
        Jul 17, 2019
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