Comments on Profile Post by Halpherisdusfrey

It's like i did practiced sexual transmutation, but failed. It's not that i'm not trying. It's that i'm doing the wrong way. That i didn't figure the right problem to solve.

I know i have to be real honest here, about the relapse, cause that's what told in Nofap Getting Started book. The problem is, the subconscious mind that i don't know how to gain its control. Whatever i do in the Sexual Transmutation method, that's the conscious mind tell me to do.

All the misery in the world is people can't control their subconscious mind. Then something happens, they regret afterwards but they can't help it.

Cause what we doing right is you TELL yourself to do, that's the conscious mind, the top of the iceberg. But then what if you DON'T TELL yourself but the thoughts and imagination throwing up and doing live shows in your heads, about the dirtiest things you can even think of.

And the things you DON'T TELL yourself, that's the subconscious mind. So it's like people know cigarettes and drugs are bad, but they just can't stop themselves. And people looking into them and tell they are addicts, drug users, but people don't see that they're struggling with their relationship w their subconscious mind which DICTATED them even they don't want to.

So yep, and all the feelings about, let's say you see your friends success w achievements and you gonna be freakin jealous of it. That's your subconscious mind, too.

Google images "subconscious mind conscious mind", you see the image of the iceberg, 10% of the top is conscious mind, 90% remains out of sight underwater is subconscious mind.

So if you relapse, that's your subconscious mind isn't trained yet. I didn't aware of that till today, i underestimate it and never know how much it affects me.

Then every time relapse, i get rid of the cause but still, relapse. When subconscious mind tells me, yes relapse, oh remember the images... my conscious mind search for Youtube meditations 10 mins, 5 mins, 2 mins... that's sexual transmutation practice but then, still relapse.

This time relapse makes me realize how loose my control to subconscious mind, how unprepared i am. Cause to a high sex drive person, as i am, i realized it, and to a responsible person to my work life, my family, and how the society sees me (to be straight, the daughter of the director of a company, that's true in my reality, i confess), then get to know these things is really critical, vital to me,

or i bet to anyone else on this site who pursues really serious work and career.

That's it, end of the realization. I will research and read book about this - POWER OF SUBCONSCIOUS MIND. Yep, you want to manifest things in life, don't you. Go for it.

Good luck.

@Conquering Winner You too.

Some interesting thoughts, thanks for sharing.

@Eeva thank you :D