Leugim

My Story


I started watching porn when I was 11~12. Ever since I have developed a chronic masturbation addiction for the last 5 to 6 years of my adolescence. I am currently 16 years old and have tried quitting pornography plenty of times. I started watching vanilla stuff when I was at an early age but soon started watching extremer porn as the years went by. It was not until the summer of 2020 that I noticed that this had truly become an addiction that was harming the way I thought about women and people in general. It was not rare that, while hanging out with my friends, I would get excited to go home to watch porn or play porn games. This type of behavior did not affect my social life nor my way of being (I am told I am a pretty charismatic and funny person, thus, I never thought there was something wrong with me). All of it would go downhill when quarantine started and the amount of porn I would consume increased. This was around the time I would get addicted to sissy pornography and Gooner pornography (variants of porn that glorified and promoted pornography addiction and heavy porn use, making them a kink of sorts). Off of sissy pornography, I started questioning my gender and whether I wished to live my life as a woman. Sooner or later I found out this was not the case, rather, I was gay. In the beginning, it was hard for me to accept my sexuality, constantly neglecting it and brushing it off as if it were a simple phase, but not so long ago (around 7-8 months), I finally accepted the fact that I belonged to the LGBT. Despite having accepted my orientation after so long, I did not stop watching porn. Weird enough, I would keep watching straight pornography, but not fantasize about being with a woman nor want to ever be in a relationship with one; this has messed up my sexuality quite a lot and make me fall into questioning my sexuality a lot more again.



My efforts to stop watching pornography have blossomed, kind of. I have not been able to stop watching pornography as a whole but I have regulated my porn use and my masturbatory habits ever since. I used to masturbate and watch porn every single day, twice a day if I felt like it, but I have toned it down to around twice a week ever since.



I know I talked about some other stuff other than my problems with porn addiction, but I feel this is relevant to tell my story.



I am not even sure if a single soul is going to read all of this lol, but I at least needed to tell it



Thank you very much and I wish all of you the best.