Comments on Profile Post by AModernMiroku

I wish to tell you that everyone is going well, but sadly new obstacles have arisen..lots of stress. The temptation demon struck me at a moment of strong emotional turmoil, and it was successful. As you may have seen below, I peaked a porn substitutes for about 45 mins within 2 days and a few minutes of porn on the second day.

All with the lie of alleviating said emotional turmoil. I did not MO or edge, but I still reset my counter. I still feel the sting of shame for falling..i'm sorry my friend.

I'm just hoping for the stress anxiety to dissipate soon. The good news is, I am moving forward again. How have you been, you mentioned on Ciri's post that things have been challenging for you as well ?

Going well.

I had a difficult stretch regarding a combo of great temptations & my workout problem. There was no P or traditional MO, but in my workout, I kept going despite knowing with decent certainty what would happen. It was akin to a psuedo-MO. Still trying to figure that out...

I did not reset--at the very least, there was no relapse. It is something I am navigating...it is annoying. I mean, I was only doing push-ups & sit-ups, but even these are core workouts.

Anyway, besides that, I am well. I have studied for my exam for a long time, & I am still not ready.

Your integrity, honesty, & continuation in the PMO fight is inspiring though.

I wonder if there is a psychological trigger that acts up under the workout strain, confusing an attempted MO. Perhaps a trauma is linked to that. I wish for the answers to come to you quickly regarding this matter. There is no viewing of P or intention to MO, no need to consider relapse.

I am very happy you have passed your exam friend! Great news. And thank you for your kindness, I will make up for my fall and try my best to live up to those compliments.

The question of intention for MO is debatable. I wrote more about the matter in my journal. The fact was that I did not initiate the feeling but had the moment to stop. I kept going expecting a MO.

That said, I was willing to not have a MO if it was not going to happen...but I was pretty confident that it was going to happen. So it is kind of like lying to oneself. I am still working through it.