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It’s not usually the relapse it the nightmares I get after doing so that make me want to quit for days.

ah that sucks. wish you a good recovery for the coming days!

@silex_jedi Relapsed really bad :( All set for recovery now!

good that you didn't :)

Yeah I was relieved when I woke up :)

@SirErnest Yes I do have that voice. I have been ignoring it. Trying to do the right thing. From now onwards I will put in more effort than before to do what is important.

Don’t be afraid to dive into doing things that you’re putting off. You may feel a little relieved by facing it. Don’t worry about the outcome. Just do it. Overtime you’ll realize facing the tasks you have avoided is better than trying to escape them. Think of it as choosing to be a prisoner that’s always on the run. Set yourself free.

@Buddhabro2.0 Thank you for your suggestion sir :) Yes I have felt better when I do the things even for 15 to 30 mins. I become complacent thinking I will no longer procrastinate and again fall into the vicious trap. Today I am positive that I am gonna successfully work on it. Learning from my past mistakes.

@Kingfisher Yes it was unintentional. Yeah, I need to be more careful henceforth.
@Cirilla Sometimes I tend to be a bit hard on myself so as to not get complacent. I should strike a balance!

This is commendable, and I admire your drive, but indeed, balance would be ideal :)

I am relieved to know that this need not be considered a reset. I am on my longest no PMO streak currently. Breaking it would be hugely disappointing. :)

@Cirilla Do you feel that it has any effect on better nofap streak or do you feel it makes no difference?

I feel it has, but not directly. Deroxat saved my life quite literally, and I think that because I was feeling better, I had the strength to tackle my addiction :)

@Cirilla Thank you for sharing your views :)

I just wanted to say past is past, you are here NOW trying to improve your life. Also, you don't know if they were saying the truth or even worse if they were lying to themselves!

@ThinkSmarter Yeah past is past. I never seem to imply this in my life. I have always wasted even more time worrying about the time I had wasted. I will change my mindset!

I just recalled i had one of those dreams a couple of nights ago. I was fapping but I was not feeling pleasure, just pain and guilt. I see this as an absolute win

@Swift Escape I have never had this kind of dream during my previous streaks. So I thought may be I had spent more time than usual on P during relapses and that is why I am getting this dream. Anyway, not sure. I just need to fill my head with positive stuff :)

@A Conqueror I immediately felt bad that I relapsed and thought I had to start my streak count from zero again! Glad that it was just a dream.

Thanks for the concern man. I fell into the trap again :( Guilt consumed me. I was ashamed of myself for having let myself down and my well wishers like you down :( Mustered up courage and going on a 6-day streak now. Checked your profile and it looks like you haven't come online for a while now. Hope you are just busy with your work and not fallen into the trap.

I fell into the trap again man :( Was consumed in guilt for my actions and letting myself and my well wishers like you down. Recovering now. Thanks for asking :) Checked your profile and it looks like you relapsed. Don't worry. Learn from your mistakes and keep moving forward. You can do it. All it takes is determination.

Glad to see you back,let's do this together

Sorry to hear that. Stay strong brother.

35 days without P is still a great accomplishment! Stay strong and go for 90 :)

35 days congrats man sorry to hear about your relapse hope you have a smoother ride from now on ameen :)

Thanks for looking out man! :) Had a pretty bad couple of days :/ Relapsed :( The positive side is this streak was longer than any other I had before. Negative side is - I keep relapsing. Got to start strong again! How are you doing?

You sensed I was in danger :D Thank you for looking out! I was on a trip (so I wasn't able to update my signature) and I don't know why, but cold places brings a lot of urges. I didn't give in. Had 2 near fail instances. Thankfully didn't fail :) How are you doing?

You're entering an extremely annoying, red flag period! Double your guard!

@Maras Thanks for the heads-up :) On the previous streaks, a combination of triggers on social media and me being complacent/me cheating myself that one peek/pmo isn't so bad led to my relapse. This time around I feel like I'm a bit more mentally strong to resist them (1)

@Maras & I've customised my social media feed by 'hiding' or choosing 'see less' on undesirable content. Hope I get to a mentally strong point where I needn't worry about triggers at all :) (2)

@Dominikfhj @Whispers Thank you :) I don't think I would have done this without you guys and other people of this community who constantly inspire and motivate others.

Almost one month without PMO?! And as a bonus, you broke your last streak?! That's a HUGE achievement!!!!! Be really proud and keep going!!!!!! The benefits will ridiculously increase!!!!!!!!!!

@Maras Thanks man :) You are doing a great job yourself. Keep going strong :)