Paper Humbles Rock
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Paper Humbles Rock

Fapstronaut, Male, 25

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Day 1. Fell off the wagon, noticed a serious decline in my life. I’m going to try and post everyday, tracking how I’m feeling. Feb 11, 2021

    1. Paper Humbles Rock
      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 1. Fell off the wagon, noticed a serious decline in my life. I’m going to try and post everyday, tracking how I’m feeling.
      1. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I’ve fallen back into the endless cycle off watching porn, hating myself, waking up, and watching porn again. I’ve been smoking weed everyday, going to the gym less, and lost all motivation for school. I have this overwhelming weight on me, and it’s feels like I can’t escape depression.
        Feb 11, 2021
      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        After today I will take a break from smoking as well as unnecessary junk food in my diet. I will track my progress for a month and determine if I’m making any progress in my mental health.
        Feb 11, 2021
    2. Paper Humbles Rock
      Paper Humbles Rock
      72 days down the drain for no reason. Why because I get drunk? Because I’m human I just get sucked into this bullshit of illusion?
      1. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I am writing right after I relapsed because I want to tell my future self that there is no real reason to listen to the lies. I can tell tell when I’m bulshitting myself, it’s almost like I know that porn has negative side effects but I choose to ignore them because I convince myself I’m worth nothing
        Dec 19, 2020
      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I had 72 days clean, and now I relapsed but no more. One and done, and now I’m trying to beat this record. Bunch of necessary regret in order to get some self growth.
        Dec 19, 2020
      3. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        It is okay to relapse, shit happens, but I cannot allow more than once. I want to grow, I will not let this temporary setback become a full grown situation. It means nothing if I let this relapse set me back to square one, I must keep moving forward.
        Dec 19, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 65. This is the longest streak I’ve had for a while, but it started the same way all my previous failed streaks did. The main thing
      1. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        that has changed, and what I think has allowed me to keep it going, is that I don’t know myself to think about porn, or what the women would do, or even what turns me on.
        Dec 12, 2020
      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        When I start to notice my self thinking in that direction, I’ll remind myself that it’s not what it seems, and direct my attention down a different track.
        Dec 12, 2020
    4. Paper Humbles Rock
      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 60. Still feel urges from time to time, but I’ve been feeling happier, sleeping better, and more interactive
    5. Paper Humbles Rock
      Paper Humbles Rock
      Had a few to drink and the urges are hitting hard, however if I can look up porn then I can equally look up NoFap.
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        I am not letting porn be an option. If you think about it, all I have to do is not do something. That sounds easy right? Like it should be easier to not spend energy than to waste energy on nothing. Unfortunately it isn’t, addiction digs it’s roots deep in your mind, constantly playing tricks on you. It takes practice to overcome that voice in your head, the one that gives you excuses.
        Nov 30, 2020
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      3. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        THOSE EXCUSES ARE LIES. Porn will not get you what you want in life, it is a crutch, a blind fold to reality. It has a seductive voice, comforting, begging for you to give in. Fuck you I won’t do what you tell me.
        Nov 30, 2020
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        I am in control, I want to be successful in life and accomplish goals, find a wife, raise a family. I refuse to let porn have any say in the matter anymore.
        Nov 30, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 53. When I constantly remind myself of how soul killing porn is, I am motivated to keep pushing forward another day. What’s your why?
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 51. Haven’t thought about porn for some time, proof there is a way out of this hell. I am more confident, social, happy, and driven.
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 47. I keep reading that NoFap gives you super powers, it does not. NoFap reveals how time consuming porn really is, how it drains you.
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      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        Over time you realize that you have a limited a limited amount of energy to spend everyday, and instead of investing that energy into the dead end road of porn, you invest it into productive and self improving things.
        Nov 24, 2020
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        You have all the power within yourself to choose where to invest that energy, there is no one at fault except yourself.
        Nov 24, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 46. Every day I make it further into NoFap, the better my overall atmosphere seems to be. I had some powerful urges but I resisted,
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      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I also have been seeing a lot of improvements in the bedroom. I don’t recommend starting a relationship when you’re starting a streak, but it has taken me 46 days before I was able to go a few rounds with my girl. In the beginning I couldn’t even make it in without hitting climax, but now things are starting to feel normal, more intense even.
        Nov 23, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 43. Been feeling good these past couple of days, with high stress levels from finals I honestly haven’t even thought of porn. Times
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      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        like this I usually start to relax a little. Not this time, I know that it will creep back into my mind at some point and I need to be ready. The enemy attacks when I’m least expecting it, this time I will be prepared. I’m going to get my god damn 90 days.
        Nov 20, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 40. Today I feel a lot better, I was able to weather the storm the other day and stayed strong. It’s crazy to realize how much of
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        a grip porn has on me and my thoughts. The only tools we have in this battle is will power and knowledge. The more I read and understand, the better able I am to fight the urges. We have to remember that we have a choice every single day. I choose to fight through the pain of withdrawals now, so I can live my life freely later. Fuck you porn, I am going to keep fighting.
        Nov 17, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 38. Feel the need to push everyone away, all I want to do is isolate myself from the world. In reality I think my porn use stems from
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      3. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I’m slowly getting the claws of addiction out of my soul. I want to be a better person, someone that people can depend on. I’m going to fight this thing to the last inch. I want to be free.
        Nov 15, 2020
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      4. 2nd Chance
        2nd Chance
        check your inbox
        Nov 16, 2020
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      5. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        I can connect with you buddy
        Nov 16, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 36. Today I feel isolated, and depressed again. The temptation has crept into my mind, and so has guilt. It’s hard keeping all this
      1. Sammyforthewin, MrBean and ....... like this.
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        Bottled up. This journal has helped me relieve some of it, I just need to speak it into existence instead of privately in my mind.
        Nov 13, 2020
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        I understand these feelings are from the withdrawals, which is why I won’t listen to them. I firmly believe that there are always two ways of looking at things, and that we have the power to chose to see either way. So I’m forcing myself to think positively, even if I don’t believe it. Because over time I will.
        Nov 13, 2020
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        I hated the way I used to think when I watched porn. Everything real in the world gradually became dull and boring, porn was the only thing I looked forward to. I’m scared to fall back into it, I don’t know if I could make it out again. I’m putting everything into this streak because I want to be free.
        Nov 13, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 33. Feelings of depression came and went, used to lead to PMO. It’s a weird feeling to have trust in myself during moments of weakness,
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      2. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        Have similar feeling, but now I am not going in autopilot mode... So far so good, today I wanted to touch myself and touched as well but didn't went far and stoped.
        Nov 11, 2020
      3. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        We will beat this issue to beat main issues of life
        Nov 11, 2020
      4. thinking_differently
        thinking_differently
        Yeah it takes bravery to trust. But it’s all worth
        Nov 11, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 32. Woke up with some depression, but I can’t let that determine my day. Addiction is awful, but it’s also a teacher.
      1. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I have learned so much from my fight with my addiction, about myself and of life. There is no point to any of it unless there is something learned.
        Nov 9, 2020
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      2. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        Really true, no point of nofap if not changed with something good
        Nov 9, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 30. Officially one month, have zero regrets about NoFap. I have experienced only improvements in my life, can’t go back now.
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      2. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Buckle up for rapid transformation
        Nov 7, 2020
      3. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        Congratulations brother..
        Nov 7, 2020
      4. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        Nofap challenge is one of the best decision of mine also....
        Nov 7, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 28. After almost a month it’s easy to want to pump the breaks, relax a little, lie to yourself. I refuse to give up any ground
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      2. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I am actively choosing every single day to be a better person, and I know that porn will ruin me. It whispers in your ear and tells you it’s okay, but in reality it is not. It’s just the addiction persuading you to give in, DON’T LISTEN.
        Nov 5, 2020
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      3. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        Ive made it over 6 months before, thought I was free. I was wrong, I fell back into the trap, the battle is one we have to fight our whole lives. Every day we resist, we become a little stronger, and day by day we break Our chains a little more.
        Nov 5, 2020
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      4. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        Keep the reason why you chose to NoFap at the forefront of your mind.
        Nov 5, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      My business has been haywire, sometimes it works like a champ, other times it’s as soft as can be. Having relations during a reboot is hard
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        Paper Humbles Rock
        And complicated, I don’t want to scare her away by telling her the truth, but I also don’t want to share this side of me unless I have complete trust
        Nov 4, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 27. Been seeing this girl and we’ve been getting relations on, haven’t told her about my problem, don’t see the need yet.
      1. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        Good bro 27!!!
        Nov 4, 2020
      2. quit@porn
        quit@porn
        What problem are u facing? PIED??
        Nov 4, 2020
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      3. Paper Humbles Rock
        Paper Humbles Rock
        I guess I’d call it semi PIED, it’s like everything is working during the foreplay, but as soon as we are about to get going it’s a 50/50 shot of staying up
        Nov 4, 2020
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      Paper Humbles Rock
      Day 26. I am proud that I have made a streak this long, I think posting everyday keeps me accountable. I feel happier more often.
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        Cyanea
        Nov 3, 2020
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