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Day 7 - Urges! Still debating whether I should M. Seeing gf tonight. Don't want to not have desire, don't want to use her to get off.
Day 6 - 12h 32 m work day. No sugar. Headache since noon. Feel physically ill, depleted. Sleep now & do it again. Tempted to M and "unwind"
Day 6 - thought I might CHOOSE to M last night . . Wasn't feeling it, tho. 12+ hour workday ahead. Cutting back on sugar and caffeine today.
Day 5 - still frustrated and pissed off about the shirts (though I got them washed today) and occasionally hit with strong urges to M.
I had plans to wash my shirts (they only gave me three) on day 3. Now I will either have to miss my recovery meeting on day 2 (or...
Day 4 - My work is making me stay late on day 3 of 5 when I only have 3 shirts (no time for laundry!). So frustrated. Must not M over this.
LTR = Long Term Relationship :)
@Tryin' Hard - thank you for the support and reminding me that we are all trying hard!
I always get stuck on the question - did I try hard...
@Coffee Candy - well said!! What I really want is healthy sexuality, a successful LTR and freedom from sexual obsession.
My "slip" was fuelled by...
@Coffee Candy - it's only the second O that I've had this year (outside of sex, 1 wet dream) and it's a far cry from my old behaviour of daily...
@Coffee Candy - It's confusing. I wish it was more clear.
I had anxiety. No sexual thoughts in that moment. Started moving my legs in a way that...
St Augustine needed Grace as well.
We can all learn so much from him, patron saint of sex addicts . . .
Day 2 - contemplating whether I should call that last slip a relapse. How different is it from O during sex? Haven't JO'd or PMO'd in ages.
Day 1 - Had an O y'day doing crunches, felt so defeated. Deep sense of failure. Karezza w/ my gf that night - so healing!! Feeling good now.
Day 0 - Relapsed. Guess it was bound to happen. Feeling empty and sad. A bit hopeless. But trying to see the silver lining . . .
I agree. But I also see hope. After years of PMO to these fantasies, I finally have a girlfriend and she's amazing! :)
But, she's also not a sex...
Still stuggling with powerful urges. Chaser effect. Fantasies have quite a hold on me.
Need to recognise that I am on day 4 without an O, so more...
@jake from PA- I don't have a short answer, or even a short path to follow, but you acknowledge that lust and attraction aren't the same thing....
What I see is a beautiful child of God.
@jake from PA - no need to feel sorry that I can see. Attraction is normal.
I believe that if you stick...
My longest streak in 2018 was 31 days.
I've hit triple digits twice this year!
Every day without PMO brings you closer to total freedom . . .