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you can do it, all the best
When the urge comes, the first thing I do is tell that voice no. This will trigger a reaction of pain and lack and a sort of black hole opens...
What a disturbing and beautiful way to describe this degenerate behaviour. Your ability to put your thoughts into words of such vivid imagery is...
I had a crazy dream last night in which I was sleeping and having a dream in which I was watching P. I woke up inside the dream and thought I...
powerful words. Really enjoy reading your journal and it seems to help you make sense of what´s going on inside you better.
At least you're concious of the rationalizations. Write down how you're gonna act the next time
A pledge might be a good tool but alone wont do the trick in most cases. You have to first get out of auto-pilot behaviour. Start by writing down...
write down the circumstances you were in before you relapsed. What lie did you tell yourself? Then right down how you are going to act the next...
What is helping me is reframing the urges/triggers and asking myself what the desire behing the desire to watch P is. Am I bored, am I stressed,...