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If not I understand, but please point me to the right place to do some writing and get some feedback. I have a history of sexual exposure/trauma that I am trying to work through so I can beat this disgusting, evil habit, and need a place to write and get feedback and encouragement. I'm also...

I recently watched this documentary about a man who was violently abused by his girlfriend. It's a reminder that sometimes it's better to be single and alone than be in a relationship with someone who makes your life miserable. The documentary is worth watching because it shows the signs that an...

Hey I'm brand new here. I've been struggling for years with both porn and sex addiction amplified by several substance addictions. I recently learned about how sexual trauma can fuel or cause this sorta thing when I decided to actually admit to myself that maybe I am actually addicted and this...

Last 2 weeks were pretty hard for me, i am talking mostly about job. I work remote, there is shortage of people in my team, senior people dont want to help, and i am responsible for finishing work quickly on some sort of technology where i (and my entire) team have very limited knowledge of...

when i started getting involved with him i was 23, he was 21. now i am 30 he is 28. we have been on and off several times. we mostly had. s. especially at my house sometimes dates out. i fell for him intensely. sometimes i said to him he was the only one for me. i don't think that from a long...

my problem with porn has been heavily reliant on my current environment, living with my family. This has been an observation I've made countless times and its gotten to a point where I know for sure once I get away from them I will not seek out porn ever again, at least not compulsively. I know...

i think he needs more recognition for the great work he's doing for the whole world

A Betrayed Woman is an Abused Woman – Sisters Quorum JANUARY 21, 2021BY JUNESISTERSQUORUM6569 A Betrayed Woman is an Abused Woman TW: Infidelity, adultery JUNE: Do you know what it is like to not trust yourself? Everything is upside down and backwards and all you can do is float through your...

I I have never been someone who is comfortable with sharing what I've been through but seeing as how no one here knows who I am I take comfort in that anonymity. I have been heavily addicted to porn for years... I was also sexually, verbally and physically abused by my father. Masturbation...

I just found this site, I wish I would have found it long ago. I have successfully quit pornography and masturbation for over 5 years. It can be done, it can be sustained. For me the biggest help has been re-calibrating my thinking. Sexually perverse behaviors stem from entitled and...

Hello. Firstly I would like to put a big TRIGGER WARNING on this post due to the dark, disturbing and explicit nature of my story. I really do not wish to upset, trigger or offend someone. This is the first time I am seeking help in a space like this, and I am very nervous in many ways, thank...

I will tell you my story in a summarized way I started looking at pornography since i was 10 years old, at age 13 i had a trauma when i saw videos of my parents accidentally having orgies, i don't know if from that day on, I started to have a huge excitement for touching women while they slept...

So I’m sure i’m not alone in this to start off. I started watching porn at an early age of 13. It all started with casual pic searches and nudes. I used to just look at the pics of nude models and thats it. then i surfaced on some short clips of nudity and sex later on. nothing serious or sick...

Hello Everybody! I'm Dave and I'm almost 34 years old from Italy. I'm married to a wonderful being and I have a baby girl of 18 months. I'm still working on me so right now so some things in my story are really a guess but I'm planning on take my life on my hands. I also am sorry if some of...

Feeling ashamed and embarrassed, I feel like I should know better since I've spent a great portion of my young adulthood experiences in studying social sciences. Even with all the information that the studies provides, they fail in registering the long-term effects that this abusive habit has...

Hey all, I am Kevin. Please bear with me as I introduce my parkour but jump to the last paragraph of part 1 if you want to see my questions. Part 1. The quick story I have been aware of sex for as long as I can remember. I was abused as a kid and once I discovered masturbation things just took...

If I am under extreme stress and my whole world is falling apart in an instant one day like it did on October 26 how do I not automatically seriously self harm under impulse and also relapse at the same time? As soon as the moment hit me that I was away from the source of extreme stress I lost...

I’m 38 years old, about to divorce a marriage just a few months shy of 10 years. We have a beautiful 8 month old daughter. Here’s my story, and it’s a long one so please bear with me! I met him when I was 24. He was perfect to me! After a string of “bad boys” and player, there he was, a...

"Does the size really matter?" was the name of the video I saw today on YT. There were two female porn stars in the beginning of the video with their huge cleavage and you see a porn producer's brand name on their tops. A video to show the porn business shiny, innocent and...

Hello guys. I am a newer person on this site who's been trying to give up masturbation and porn just like anyone else on here, but I need some help. I already talked about my own strategy of using a jockstrap when not in public, but I find it too absurd. I'm not necessarily an addict, but I want...

Hi, Justin here. I live London. I am addicted to sex. Justin the sex addict. I guess it does have a ring to it. So I have wasted so much time on porn and Grindr. I have become very depressed and cynical. I am seeing a therapist but it is not working. I know porn and casual sex are the root of...

I'm a 33 year old, heterosexual man who has suffered from DE my entire sexual life - since the age of 16. I believe the route of my DE problems stem from psychological issues (I suffer from generalised anxiety disorder, in part caused by childhood sexual abuse) and an unhealthy dependency on...

Hello, sorry if this is too long, but I needed to get it out, I haven't told anyone for fear of being judged, and I found this page through a documentary (sorry for the bad spelling too, my first language isn't English , I'm barely learning). Well, I'm a 19 year old girl. I started watching...

I recommend the book "Healing the Shame That Binds You" by John Bradshaw. It is $7 bucks that just might help you change your life. Excessive shame is the driver for repressing emotional needs that you express as a "need" for pornography, drugs, alcohol, womanizing, voyeurism, self-harm...

When i was a kid (7 years old) a family member asked me to do things to her. She was 20. It was very exciting for me, so I did exactly what she asked me to do. I actually liked it quite a bit. However, from that moment on my life was dominated by sex and porn and masturbation. Later I also...

My name is James, 21-year-old student in the UK who is trying to make permanent lifestyle changes for the better. Four months ago I recently discovered that I suffered sustained childhood abuse that I have repressed. I'm currently undergoing the treatment plan with a respected therapist however...

So not too long ago I just started seeing a counselor. If you never read my past threads, I come from a family full of verbal and emotional abuse (non physical). The stress of that, combined with the stress of my porn addiction lead me to convincing my verbally abusive dad to let me go to...

Porn isn't sex anymore, it's violence. 'Rough' sex years ago was a little tug of the hair, a cheeky light slap and some mutual wrestling. Now 'rough' sex is rape. I'm disgusted that this is now the new direction and vision for pornographic filmmakers. I'm not going to judge you if you do...

Warning: What you're about to read may be a huge trigger for your habit. Please quit now. This post isn't significant enough to change your life. Go live an awesome life. . . . . . . . . Warning 2 : Don't kid yourself. If you're on your initial days of streak, you're highly likely to proceed to...

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my ex has Borderline Personality Disorder (undiagnosed - but had enough history and signs to be BPD or PTSD) It's a condition where she blasted away at me continually with verbal abuse. She also became really (really) fat I would seek comfort and to regain "control" with PMO. My statement...

Hello everyone, I'm here to tell my story if you wish to hear it, throughout my life I have dealt with a multitude of seriously debilitating issues ranging from; a verbally abusive childhood, severe depression to a serious illicit drug addiction. My majority of issues started when I pursued a...

I want to share a topic that I was thinking about myself. The main reason, may be, is that I feel kind jelous about guys who often have sex, but damage girls in the process. Males trying to patch a void in them, but left women hurt, alone and sometime worse than they found them. I though that...

Hi everyone. I am 26 year old male. I was sexually abused as a child by my older brother from the age of 10-17. After that I became ridiculously promiscuous and had many male sexual partners and have been addicted to compulsive sexual behaviours. All my sexual fantasies are about being sexually...

Hello people, i would like to tell my Story. I am 24 years old and i got sexually abused at young age which had a big impact on my life. Since it happened 14 years ago i started to watch porn every day and it got more and more extrem. I was a really shy guy and had too wait really long until i...