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Hey all I'd like to share my story and my addiction as of recently. So I started this new medicine (2 years ago) called olanzapine for a mental illness that I have. It turned out to be a really good med, but it came with a few side effects. One of them was that I on a weekly to every two weeks...

The past few weeks ive been really struggeling with corn, relapsing more often and way worse. I have a lot of Important exams coming up, which Stress me 24/7 which leads to relapsing which leads to doing nothing for the exams. So i have a few weeks left, and in these few weeks i need to get...

Just sort of ranting here. Pmo definitely re-wired my brain and made me addicted but in the last year I've started to have longer & longer binges (maybe 6,7 8 hrs or whatnot) The after effects of these is I feel somewhat ok for a couple hours and then for 24 hours or so my brain is like jittery...

Shame is the feeling that we are flawed and unworthy of love. Using porn creates shame, which isolates us, and we return to porn to cope. We call this the shame cycle.” ^ Quote from Covenant Eyes __________________ I choose Real Love Still single as of writing this, but regardless my future...

I used to binge up to 5-7 times a day on a regular basis. I got fever from that. It is really hard to find info on that but it makes sense because all the good nutrients that come from your life and are supposed to create another life, is being drained over and over again. I actually feel...

last evening i had a pretty hard binge session of porn and masturbation. I was installing a porn blocker in the first place and so as to check it i ended up searching for porn by first enabling it and then convincing myself to switch it off and try once again(was a pretty stupid decision I...

Hello everyone, my name is botme (an odd and random nickname). I suffered with porn addiction as a young teen. We had internet, but my family took it away when everyone was just using it for PMO. At 27 years old I discovered nofap for the first time. It took me three years but I was finally able...

If there are any people here who have successfully quit PMO, what helped you to do this? What are the things that allowed you to beat this addiction? Please give me advice, because I've been trying for 3 years and I'm at a loss.

Please pray for me that I may break this cycle. It's destroying my life, my body and my happiness. I don't want to live like this anymore.

If you can't address the trauma, then you can never truly get rid of the addiction. It's simply a self-medicating mechanism to cope with emotional pain. I have been an addict since I was 13 years old and I'm 21 years old now. I completely understand the mechanisms of addiction and I have been in...

I really feel like I'm not in control of myself anymore. Every day I tell myself I won't do this again and I pray to God for forgiveness and I promise myself that I won't do it again. And then the very next day it happens again and then I feel so guilty and so sad and disappointed and lonely...

It started in the way that it usually does, a flirt here, a flirt there with girls online as the desire and cravings build up. I wasn't watchful and it turned into masturbation, which turned into hitting up girls and sexting, which turned into edging, which turned into watching porn, which...

Every time you relapse there is a tendency to binge and a hard time to keep yourself on track again. This challenge starts whenever you relapse no matter the length of the streak it can be 2 months or 99 days. The point is: the first month is critical to keep a decent streak back after a...

I fapped for a few days, after a decent 12 almost 13 day streak. Today, I told myself that this was it, I was going to abstain for good. But before that, early this morning I fapped 3 consecutive times. Of course I felt bad because of the fapping, but I didn’t feel these head symptoms I have...

I just got off a bad pmo binge. I’ve been having irrational ocd/anxiety. that same anxiety is the reason why the binge went on for so long in the first place. like I’ll relapse at first, then I do it again, and then after a few times the anxiety gets worse and worse so I feel worse, therefore...

I don’t mean to make a reassurance post. Or to “cry” for help. I would appreciate help if your willing. I just need advice. I know that the answers I’m looking for are obvious. But here is a quick summary of what is going on. I’ve been binging unhealthy for days. I need to stop. I want to...

I relapsed less than a week ago after 64 days and since then I have been living like a fiend. I've been masturbating and talking to girls for 10 hours a day and I can't seem to stop. I feel like I undid all of my progress and like my life will never get better. I have noone. I don't have family...

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Only been a few days since I come back on here to reboot , but just can’t take control was maybe a day before I relapsed then the binge started . In one weird sense I like it , well obviously to much !! The worst part is I’m thinking about pmo all the time and rather do that than anything . The...

Hello i'm Forward Path, and this has happen to me before a lot of times i don't know why i never confront it, i just said "oh what ever its just game dopamine" but what ever i'm here to see if this has happen to you guys or what it is so you can calm me down, so basically what i'm saying is when...

i Binged on pmo for over a week now. Like 9 days straight. And this is after a decent no pmo streak of about 4 weeks! Im on day 2 now and I am fighting these lustful thoughts and urges. I’ve been reading, writing, exercise, cold showers. But I live alone, and the mind tends to wander about the...

Hi, I just ended my 13 day streak 3 days ago and I PMO'ed on the first and second days 2 times and MO'ed 2 times on the third day. My OCD is getting worse and worse to the point I try to hurt myself to stop it. My brain won't let me start NoFap again until I start with a NoBinge. Like it keeps...

it is very long but it is worth to read to help me and better understand my situation. I would request everyone to please read this. I first fapped on March 31, 2014 (I remember this special date due to many reasons). I soon started to fap 2-3 times a week for 1 year, then I started to fap...

Hi guys, I'd just like to share an inside I got from a close school times friend of mine, who happens to be a md and a pharmacologist now. I read about chemicals being released during orgasm before, but didn't know how to connect all the dots. I told her about my past addiction and the symptoms...

Please submit pieces/poems/haiku's that deal with your personal PMO binge/session, frustration, journey, success, whatever. I started doing this in a guy's journal, and it occurred to me, that rejoining the left and right brain hemispheres in this exercise is extremely difficult the deeper we...

First some background: I've had binge MO dependency for 25 years and binge PMO addiction for 17 years. I've been trying to quit for at least 15 years but been more serious about it for the last 3 years. My addiction was the worst kind, it progressed over the years to more and more extreme...

I have noticed a thing that whenever you relapse your brain is filled with a lot of dopamine and other chemicals so you are almost in trans. Lets suppose you relapsed at night and then you go to sleep, now in the early morning or on the next day when you will try to browse the web or surf the...

Hello all, just asking for some advice. I went about 30 days watching no porn and I felt great. I did maturbate a few times but I was just glad I got away from porn. I unfortunately relapsed and I can’t help but to watch porn all the time. It doesn’t help me taking steroids either as that seems...

hi guys and girls, just starting out on the journey. Sick and tired of wasting time in an ultimately useless cycle of binge, rinse repeat. There’s got to be more to life right? Need help along the way! Beef01

I've read this article and I've been shocked how well it diagnose me. I've developed problems with binge MB in my early teenage years before encountering TV porn (web porn was only starting in the days of dial up modems). Porn worsened my compulsive behavior problem, but it didn't create it...

I've read this article and I've been shocked how well it diagnose me. I've developed problems with binge MB in my early teenage years before encountering TV porn (web porn was only starting in the days of dial up modems). Porn worsened my compulsive behavior problem, but it didn't create it...

I think I'd like to cut down on my binge drinking. The problem is that it's so damn fun, you make genuine connections with people and women, dance and it unlocks feelings and subconscious things that I don't think would come out otherwise. You also get so many funny stories from drinking. But...

Hey y'all, I've been hardcore trying to stop for at least a few months now, never getting further than a week or two before relapsing every time. Last week I let myself do a horrible 4-day binge period that left me depressed and anxious, unable to sleep for 48 hours straight. I was really out...

I've been PMOing/binging for almost the last two or so weeks. I stop for a day or two then relapse/binge again and I can't seem to get back on the wagon. Prior to that I was PMO/Fap free for three months plus some days, my longest streak. Things were going amazingly well for me in that span of...

Hi everyone... Binge viewing P with no MO or even touching self. This went on 3 for weeks - approx 2 hours per day :/ What is the damage to the brain etc? And Is this classed as Edging? Any answers or thoughts greatly appreciated, thanks :)

Today I lost my long and currently best streak which was 60 days long. Instead of a new streak, my brain kept telling me "You already failed, why not just PMO again?". Why it feels more natural to just slide further into the pit than climb up from it? Anyone else feels the same way or am I the...

Hello all I started Nofap a couple months back. I wanted to leave my masturbation/orgasm/porn (whatever they are all the same thing) behind. It was easy at first but now its just impossible to do. I have binged twice and whenever I get back up, im always at square one. what do you guys...

Hello people, I hope you are all having progress in your fight. I have had a few nice streaks (around 20-25 days). But once I relapse, it takes me ageeees to get back to a nice rhythm. I am reading books, I have active blockers, but I always end up relapsing. I used to always binge PMO after a...

I've been consistently using porn since new year's , I can't seem to get enough of it. No matter how much I try to quit, it just keep on growing up on me. Can't do anything and now I'm feeling kinda like powerless. I've been to a great streak of about 55 days in december, once I broke it all...

Here is how it works: For the next xx days grade yourself. I’m doing 365 days, but choose any time frame you want. Your grade = (days nofap)/(total days). So, for example, if after 25 days you’ve pmo’d on 3 days your grade is = 22/25 or B+. Not bad! If after 100 days you’ve pmo’d on 23...

I went on a serious binge today. I want to turn this around. I have turned it around before- but only by making myself feel guilty and ashamed. I need to learn to control myself in other ways because it is excruciating and does not help in the long run. I just compulsively numb myself. Feelings...

Went another couple of weeks, had sex and days after predictably spiraled into PMO - once the day after sex, once 2 days after that, finally 3 times today when I was supposed to be working (from home). 3rd orgasm was great and long lasting. Poor defenseless dick stroked / ground against pants...

It's a fairly big introductory post so I included a one phrase TL;DR (too long, didn't read) version at the end. Well it's a bit hard to describe my situation, cause I don't even understand it myself, so I'll start from the beginning and I hope you can help me understand. The first warning I...

Not particularly surprised or mad. It happens like this most often. My only trouble is that after a relapse like this(where i start binging, but catch myself and stop) I am not in reality for a few days and one of my friends wants to go grab a coffee in the near future. Think the best lesson...

WHAT DO I DO okay I was on a 17 day streak and I was looking around on google and got bored , point Is I ended up o'ing 2 times , I just saw a forum that says if you relapse don't binge ( an obsessive dieter doesn't get sent back to day 1 because they have broke there diet 2 times, but if they...

Hi all, I have been a big fan of nofap! I have been trying to quit pmo for about a couple of years now. Was successful every now and then in abstaining for about 10 days or even a month very few times. But then, relapsing too occurred followed by many binges. I have been very eager to use my...

Hello, I am new to NoFap. Got to know about this from a video by Improvement Pill on youtube. Never thought such a community existed. But now that I have found it I am hoping some of you folks who have controlled masturbation can help me out. I am tired of fapping. Just tired of it. I am able...