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Hello to everyone, Im Kaja and Im for few years fully healed from self abuse. Before I stopped It was long and difficult way to defeat my sexuality. And nobody helped me. I can not tell it to my friend because all af them acted like sluts (PMO, premarial sex, etc.) and even to my parenst because...

Hi everybody. I kept it to myself for a long time, but I realized that I needed to write somewhere. Here I want to talk about my problems, my life, and the consequences that I am still struggling with. There will be a lot of writing that will be supplemented. You don't have to write anything...

I discovered porn when i was 11, and along with the increase of internet speed i start to develop the addiction to internet porn. Now I'm 21, about to graduate from college. All the years within pmo addiction, it feels like i didn't show my best version. It's like being held back by the pmo...

Hi everyone! I started reading a book called The Porn Trap and the first chapter made me think about what actually were my first encounters with porn and sexuality, how they were talked about at home, and how this all may have led to my issues with pornography and sexuality in general. I...

I've been addicted to PMO ever since I can remember, at first it started from self-stimulation around the age of 8 from thoughts and then to porn, etc.. I started the reset process on 5.11.22, I'm on day 72. I do feel a positive change, but in the last three days my withdrawal symptoms have...

I miss my childhood and my friends so much, i don't know from where i ll get those days back and it made me hard to accept that my childhood has expired and no matter what I do it can't going to come back. I miss when I believe my parents are super heroes and fulfill my every need whatever I...

It is unusual, it is unnerving, but I’m not sure how unprecedented it is. As long as I can remember, from a wee child I’ve had a Vore fetish (don’t bother looking it up) and I have never found a way to decouple it from my thoughts. I’ve been for weeks now getting my streak down to once a week...

9 Months without it - I feel really proud of myself =) My masturbation inducted heart arrhythmia is completely gone and don't think about the act at all. I just wanted to let you guys know that you can do the same, no question! I recorded my "Life-Story" or "Porn-Story" if you will and maybe it...

Hey guys I'm really happy to know that I'm not alone in this fight and that other people have issues as I do but my case it's kinda unique I masturbate since 11 yo and never stopped. At my worst period I used to masturbate 6 times a day and today i have an orgasm after a minute of masturbation...

I feel like I tried everything in my power to get rid of my foot fetish. I've been having an "interest" for ladies' feet since I was a young boy and I have no idea why. I'm trying to become more spiritual and religious but I feel like my foot fetish is holding me back. I also have an attraction...

I I have never been someone who is comfortable with sharing what I've been through but seeing as how no one here knows who I am I take comfort in that anonymity. I have been heavily addicted to porn for years... I was also sexually, verbally and physically abused by my father. Masturbation...

Addiction and hoarding. My BF has had an addiction since late teens which he is struggling with, but we think he may also have issues with hoarding - storing large quantities of P, not letting go. This has likely caused issues with previous reboot attempts and I was wondering if anybody else has...

Hi everyone, I am 21 years old and I was exposed to pornography when I was very young, probably when I was 7. I used to spend my childhood with my uncles because they had cable and one of the nights I turned on the TV and Playboy TV was on. Ever since that day I used to watch that channel...

Hi Fapstronauts, it's my first time to actually writing about my addiction which i purposely thought iam not the effected one with this disease. Iam always inclined towards this disease, because of my depression and my childhood memories. But now i think i can and i will cope up with this...

The following is translated from China’s Jiese forum. Why write this thread? Because my emotions and feelings are too strong! I feel light emitting from the bottom of my heart, fillled with compassion. Moreover I got bigger calves, and my complexion improved a lot. I felt a lot of emptiness...

When i was a kid i had bad relationship with my parents. It made me close up, not trust people. No one is to blame really, but even if i could legitimately blame someone that wouldn't solve the issue. Later i rationalized my reaction by painting all people as bad, evil and untrustworthy. I made...

Hmmmm....where do I start? I've been using open to mask an issue that I've put in the back of my mind for about 10 years now. I am happily married for going on 12 years, have an amazing family (2 kids and my wife), great friends, run a successful medical marijuana business, and have it better...

Hello NoFap community, I’m a 37 year old man, with wife and 6 yo kid, that feels more like a 73 yo at the moment. I have lowerback aches and my arms, hands, knees and feet feel very weak and get cold and stiff often. These body aches have gradually become worse over the years. I guess I already...

I’m having a hard time coming to grips with my sexuality. I think I’m gay, but wish I could say otherwise. When I was probably 6 or 7 I had a sexual experience with my male friends. We hardly knew anything but were curious. Sadly, through my teenage years I’ve watched a fair share of gay porn. I...

I am from India. I am 27 and unmarried. Pornography got into my life very early even before Internet became a norm in India. As far as I remember, my curiosity to porn started from regular newspapers, magazines and most importantly movies. Though the first nude I saw was in 2003 approximately...

Hi everyone, I feel excited about this! I am in my early 20's and I want to get rid of my addiction to soft core porn. I don't suffer from ED, nor am delighted at taboo and hope it never comes to that. But I am sure porn has made me suffer in ways I don't understand and can't even find people to...

Ever since I was a young kid all I could really remember is the incredible amount of porn I've watched through out the years. Every aspect of my life for the past 10 years has been porn or sex related and it has made thing impossible for me. The very fact I've made it this far without my life...

Little Background On Me: I'm a 21 year old man, grew up in rainy Seattle, Now living in sunny LA. I grew up in a separated household where I was hardly acknowledged, and was forced to grow up early and provide for myself. Left home at 18, and haven't looked back since. I consider myself a late...