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Before I begin, I am not trying to convince, convert or persuade anyone into any religion, spiritual teaching, cult etc. I just want to offer a spiritual perspective to addiction. I had a porn addiction that was literally crippling me. I was into fetishes that were shameful and disgusting...

Specifically talking about this: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/the-illusion-of-meaning-a-rational-discourse-on-physicalism-nihilism-and-acceptance-of-reality.362968/ That is basically what I've come to realize during the last few months, and it's frightening. I am currently in a...

Hi All, Pleasure to meet you all. My name is William and I've been struggling with PMO Addiction even before puberty hit. I had been exposed to porn and masturbation from childhood (circa 10 years old) and still struggling up till now, of 26 years of age. This lead me to other addictions such...

My main issue is that ever since I started university, I used it as an opportunity to not masturbate. I would spend 6 days a week, 14 hours per day out of my house, at the university & travel, so that I wouldn’t be at home and end up fapping (I also do not view adult content whatsoever in this period)...

I figured out why I keep relapsing. I simply do not want to do nofap because I have no need for it (actually there is but subconsciously I don't see it). I have a life purpose as well but I do not feel motivated ever to strive for it. I feel like NPC or worse than zombie. I want to know how...

Hi everybody. I kept it to myself for a long time, but I realized that I needed to write somewhere. Here I want to talk about my problems, my life, and the consequences that I am still struggling with. There will be a lot of writing that will be supplemented. You don't have to write anything...

Hello, this is my first time posting on these forums ive been struggling with PMO for 6 years now. My current streak is about 30-40 days, ive never made it this far before, i have noticed that i have more confidence in talking to people, ive never had the confidence before to post on internet...

I feel like all my hard work has gone to shits . I had 49 days of clean time . I jacked Off this morning and my d1ck wasn’t even hard . I had an orgasm with a soft one . What led me to this was I was seeing someone , we hadn’t attempted sex yet but she left me last week to go back to her...

Hello! I feel a little uneasy about joining and writing about myself on the internet but I'm trying to reinvent myself so who gives a f**k. Last night I was re-reading a book called Subtle Art of Not Giving a F**k (great book highly suggest it) and in one of the chapters P was mentioned. It got...

Hello. I just started posting on this forum. I have another post where a talk about my big problem but here I want to talk to people about how to get past the withdrawal easier. I’m off porn and masturbating for 17 days now and it is very hard. I have mood swings, I feel depressed, I can’t...

Hello,i am SaintGeorge(not my real name DUH) i am 20 yr old and i would like to share my life/vent a little bit of my not so happy life,while is not the worse life you could imagine wich give me strenght to keep going,i finde my life really depressing,so i wanted to share my expirience and how...

Heey guys!! If you clicked here i know how you feel.. it sucks yeah But this doesn’t mean that you must feel this way. Right ? Seems something that you can’t control, something that stop you from talking with friends , going to a party or thinking that you’re worthy. The costant feeling of...

This shit is so fucking frustrating, I feel like punching someone fore real, I have all of this anger built up inside, To not even be seen sexually desirable really hurts me, Its big difference between being an attractive person to being sexually wanted by women that want to procreate with . I...

My biggest breakthrough in my self-improvement journey came when I no longer lived as a victim. I used to believe that I had no control over my life. I didn't feel like I had a choice. What I've now learnt is... I CHOSE to be in a relationship that didn't allow me to develop. I CHOSE to...

Hello everyone, I registered today and I am proud of being an officiall fapstronaut now. I started consuming porn at around age 12, really cant remember anymore. First there werent really any changes in my mood. Back in this time (around 14) i was fit, extroverted, did well in school, and had...

Hi guys. I really need your advice to stop PMO. First, a bit of a story: I have been into this predicament since I was first introduced to porn in senior high school (I was 16)... Now 7 years later, being 23, am still struggling on quitting PMO, especially the MO part. I have been doing it...

Hi, I've been doing NoFap for almost 2 years now and I still feel like a complete failure sometimes My longest streak was roughly 7 months long, it was around the time my friend with benefits "broke up with me" and I slowly started falling into really serious depression (mainly because of...

Hi there! Nice to meet you all. I'm very happy to have found this forum to get some company on this problem we all have. I'm 23 years old male suffering from porn addiction. I've been using porn since getting my first portable device in 2012. An 4th generation iPod touch. I started streaming...

Hello Community, i just want to share my experiences with NoFap of the last 8 Days with you. Let me say that in the last two months i always made it to one week -maximum 10 Days before relapsing and feeling weak, like shit and like a pervert again. In that time periods i always engaged more...

So this is really long story even when I was a toddler. So occasionally me and my family get together at my grandmas for holidays, social events, birthdays. My family is usually brought together yearly and it’s a warming feeling to see everybody. To cut it short. My aunt was over when I was...

Addiction becomes giant when we remain free all the time So make sure You don't have time to think about these thoughts and watching them in mobile Make sure You don't use mobile much. Only tip that works

I feel like this is a losing battle sometimes. I had 17 days now I’ve relapsed 3 days in a row . I just relapsed like 15 minutes ago. I’m Tired of this . I don’t know what’s wrong with me . I know it’s bad and I know it’s hurting me . For some reason that lizard part of my brain takes over and...

Today was supposed to be my 11th day of PMO but during the night I had a wet dream. During the dream it felt so real that I sit in front of my computer and just search hard for porn videos and find one and just wake up and ejaculate. Listen, I've been trying for several years to quit this and...

So I would like to ask for some advice... Just for some context I am a 30 year old male and have been watching porn since age 8. For the first time in my long 7 years battling against porn I passed day 30 and am currently at day 55, but this week has been so tremendously hard and its starting...

Hello... like many of you, i'm in this fight of trying to kill porn out of my life for many years, trying again now, i'm on day 4 (i know is to early to take any conclusions, but i want to share anyways), this time though i'm under some different circunstances, i dont know if this has something...

Hello everyone. I really need help with an issue I've been facing. To start, I am a recovering porn addict who has made great strides in overcoming this problem to the point that I don't feel I need it at all on my good days; i used to watch porn multiple times a day but now im down to a few...

So guys I told my doctor about my heavy, heavy mdma abuse when I was 18 , I’m now 30. She said heavy MDMA abuse CAN cause long term adverse effects . I don’t know what to think right now. Maybe I’ll have low libido and “pied” forever . Maybe it’s not pied maybe it’s irreversible brain damage...

Good evening everyone Today is day 2….. yet again . Tomorrow I am going to make an appointment with my primary care physician . I am going to ask for an EEG scan to see if drug use from my early twenties has affected my brain in any way . I am also going to ask for a referral to see a sex...

I have had this fetish since I was a teenager till about now (I’m now 30). I don’t want to trigger anyone I’m just going to explain what it is . I like to wrestle, usually fit, athletic escorts and sex workers . I never really watched any “vanilla porn”, I just watched these erotic wrestling...

I’m currently on day 2 again . I started taking ashwaghanda and it has helped with my anxiety and my moodiness . I still feel very very sad and hopeless . I know I talk about this a lot, but I feel like I may never ever be “normal” again . All I ever think about is that morning I woke up when I...

Hello to everyone, first of all let me apologise for my bad english because is not my native lenguage and i don't really know if this is the right place to post this because im new in the forum. I been in the shadows reading all kind of stories about porn adiction, flatline etc.. untill i...

Before i got HOCD... It was like a year ago before it happened. My attraction to women started to fade, i also noticed the odd but i thought it was just probably my brain rewiring from the pmo addiction i used to suffer that haunting me until today... I also started to develop weird attractions...

Hi, my usage of pornography has been increasing over the past 10 days and I feel so bad... Normally I would only fap with my own imaginations, which is already bad, but now things have just gone even worse. I am disguised by myself. Why can't I just stop? I feel so desperate. I realize that...

UPDATE: So, now that I'm not masturbating like before (5-6 times a week) for these past two weeks, it's suck major fuckin ass but, what would be the LIMIT of nofap? Like...what would cause me to SUPER RELAPSE? I couldn't fall asleep due to abstaining but, I watched non-nudes (yoga pants) and...

Hey guys, I’ve been completely obstaining from pmo AND not looking at women on tv, youtube ect for 37 days. I feel some minor improvements but nothing like what most others seem to experience by this stage. I get small little glimpses of “color” back in my life but they are so fleeting and most...

Greetings. Is it normal to feel depressed and lonely while in retention? What would you guys recommend to overcome this feeling?

That's right guys, I just wanted to get this off my chest and tell you how I'm feeling. Y'all are welcome to share and comment anything you want on the matter, please be as honest as possible. I'm 21 years old, never had a girlfriend, never kissed one, they don't seem interested on me. To be...

I'm about the ugliest person to ever step foot on God's green Earth, I am short and have a rather feminine face. I could work with this because of my hair, which is the best part about myself. Now, because whatever fate exists hates my fucking guts, I'm losing it. I'll never accomplish my...

I've stumbled on this forum recently and I desperately want to feel like a normal human again but it's hard to see the point. I've heard Nofap can take up to 2 years and I don't have that time to waste. I'm a massive loser at this point in my life, I'm almost 20 and haven't had sex, am not...

How should I start....? Im 20 soon to be 21. TRIGGER WARNING :dont read if you got unsolved problems with femdom or omegle, or if i depict shit here. Dont wanna make anyone relapse. Finally making this post, I'm so sick and tired. Laying in this fucking bed in this fucking dirty room with dirty...

Hey I have noticed I have been experiencing migraines, and some melancholy. I know these are withdrawals. What should I do?

Hey, as you can see on the title I'm little depressed about this process.. I don't know if NoFap has no effect on me or should I wait a little longer? I would like for your help please. Here is my back story: I'm 24, started M'ing when I was 10. 14 Years of fapping. My why on NoFap was social...

Hi guys, I said I would be done with these forums and what not. But after being ignored by a SAA meeting admin I felt I needed to let this out. About a year and a half ago I started to become addicted to porn and I didn't even know it. I started using more often, and more intense and strange...

Hello all, I want to share what I feel is the ultimate difference maker in someone just starting NoFap, is making it through Flatlining, or is just trying to reach NoFap goals: Emotional Intelligence Emotional Intelligence can be defined simply as: A) Knowing what emotions you're feeling or...

I'm so stressed/depressed at times due to where I live and due to the people around me. I can't leave this location because my Disability prevents me from doing that. And I don't do drugs such as Smoking (of any kind) nor drink. So watching Porn is my Stress Reliever and helps me from not having...

Heyo I'm looking for some advice and other people who have went through the process of rebooting. Heres some background info on me: I've watched porn from 15 years old (Now 20). It intensified gradually reaching almost daily usage from 17-18 years old. Smoked weed from 17 years old time to...

I don't know what has happened to me. I am starting to become more and more scared that one of these days I am going to hurt myself. Ever since I came here to university I have been having more and more bad thoughts about myself and suicidal ones are popping up more and more often. While before...

Hi guys i’m starting over. I struggled with pied all of 2020 and realized I am an addict about halfway through. My ultimate goals is to make this a lifestyle and cure my pied and also improve mental health. I actually reached a 45 day streak about a month or so ago but then relapsed because...

My fight start at 00.01 of 21 dec! I decide to start with no porn and masturbation because i can feel that my life is not good with this bad habits. So i decide to fight with u guys and i WANT to win against PM. I decide to permit me sex with my gf. Today i'm at home alone and i'm feeling the...

To any one reading, i am 31y male, wanted to minimise fap to around 7-30 days and sometimes altogether since i started at 15y of age. and since about 2y ago wanted to quit it altogether with only this main mission in life. like nothing else matters to me, this is my whole life. not to toot my...

Hice las cuentas como muchos de los que leí, llevo desde los 13 años con un comportamiento sexual compulsivo desordenado. Francamente me parece devastador que en mí haya una conducta de este tipo, causando consecuencias mayores como acostarme con una tía política por solo placer y sometiéndome a...

Hello Guys, It's my 16 DAY of NoFap.Today I am feeling so depressed and totally unmotivated.I have watched motivational videos and I get motivated but after a few moment I found myself again where I was.After 1 week I was feeling so energetic and my mood was quite happy.I was being motivated and...

I’m just gonna get straight the point. After doing a 94 day streak I relapsed, but without porn. I noticed that when just doing MO the affects it has on my aren’t as severe compared with PMO. I’d just feel a lil low in mood for the rest of the day, but would usually bounce back tomorrow. After...

Help guys! Im in my 4th week of nofap and all the good feelings and sensations started disappearing as of week 2, and this week has been hell on earth, im flatlining, and having extreme difficulties focusing and learning new things, I simply cannot focus, is this normal? Is it related to nofap...

Soo I never really liked this "cleaining out my closet" kinda thing but after I recently decided to turn my life arround and change my nofap strategy completly and my therapist adviced me to try it so Im here now. I want to start with a my overall addiction history and get this off my shoulders...

Today I was informed about somebody who I knew, albeit briefly, made the decision to take his own life last weekend, I knew he was missing but only today have the police and his family confirmed. I keep looking at a recent photograph of him when I first saw the photo I thought he looked...

Did you experienced a traumatic event that influenced your sexual preferences (like fetishes etc.) in some way? After my messy break up with ex I developed number of kinks on submissive spectrum. With nofap and working to value myself more they fade and I feel more vanilla, but still I have some...

I'm finally coming to the realization that I'm in this journey for the long haul. Ive been porn free for about 1 year and I have clearly seen improvement with my PIED but still not enough for sex again. I went from being able to have sex to nothing downstairs. I now realize that I brutally...

My second time with some symptoms of flatline. Very lazy this week, my body is heavy, depressed without reason. Also letargic and a little bit of anxiety. My balls are with pain this time. A little bit not huge pain. Very horny too.

Like many of you I use to wallow in self pity and negative emotions. While waiting for someone to come tell me the magic formula to all my problems. And was plagued by bouts of depression. But I found a way out, a way to deal with those problems on my own 4 year ago I had dropped out of...

Hello everybody :)at the age of 19 I've decided to start my first nofap journey, so my current streak is more than 100 days. And I actually liked nofap before the day 60. I was full of energy, unlimited motivation, desire to speak with everybody, had everyday workout, cold showers, etc. But...

I need to rant. Ever since internet appeared in my life, when I was in the 7th grade, and fapping became my mundane activity my life became a solitary confinement. Slowly but surely, day by day I had been losing any reason to be social, to study, to have any plans for the future until the only...

Reached day 50 no pmo. This journey has been like a sine wave in terms of difficulty, a week or more of feeling good and the other weeks feeling depressed. At the start I was viciously depressed and then from day 20-30 I felt amazing and now I feel depressed but strong enough to handle it if...

She knew about my addiction and was helping out. But 2 days ago I confessed to her my other mistakes. I was going on chatrooms to chat with random people, in some roleplays i even played the female. i fapped on pictures of female friends whom she also knows. All this while we were in a...

Hello all I would like your insight on taking antidepressants during a reboot? I have been taking antidepression medication throughout my reboot but am concerned about long term effects. They do help substantially for mood and especially for PAWS and would recommend to help ease the feelings of...

For starters I would like to apologize for my bad English. He introduced me, Juan Andrés called me and I am from Venezuela. I am currently 18 years old and I have a serious problem with masturbation. It all started around the age of 12 when I discovered masturbation and internet pornography...

everyone here at least Masturbated once! we all have seen the effects and even the reason which this site is created is that.we are trying to stop this bad habit.but why healthcare professional's and every doctor you visit keep's telling you that masturbation is a healthy sexual act which a...

Hola soy nuevo en esto, soy argentino, tengo 25 años y llevo con esto del porno desde los 11 años Masó menos. En la adolescencia miraba mucha pornografía casi todos los días, me masturbaba más de dos veces al día aveces todo iba bien hasta que un día me di cuenta qu tenía una ansiedad que no...

Hello from Western Balkan! I am Luka, and I use/d masturbation and porn to escape my problems, depression, and loneliness. I started to watch porn when I was 14 or 15 I think. My family didn't have internet access before so I was kinda "spared" for some time. In the beginning, I didn't think as...

This last year has been one of the worst in my life. I've been unemployed and struggling. Most of my life I have been ambitious and hard working. Now, I can't seem to find the energy to try. I need to practice my programing skills, I need to finish my grad school applications, and I need to...

Note: This is going to be somewhat of a long one (so sorry for that), but mostly I'm reaching out for advice. If you don't want to read the long wall of text, you can skip to the last three paragraphs for the core points. I got something pretty good going - a 6 month streak sober from PMO...

Hey guys, I've just made a account with nofap as I'm really starting to get quite worried. I'm 16 years old and I can't really remember the last time I had morning wood, I'm think it was around when I turned 15 and I'm turning 17 in 2 months. I never realized I had a problem until 8 months ago...

---------------------------(ENGLISH VERSION, ESPAÑOL ABAJO)------------------------ Hello everyone, thanks for receiving me. I am from South America I am 31 years old and I came to NoFap for help online because I think I have a problem with pornography and masturbation that affects my life a...

I'd like to do a poll to see how many of you guys use social media. I don't get out a lot and use it as a poor substitute to socialize. Please be honest, there is no judgement here. Feel free to explain your poll choice.

TRIGGER WARNING For those of you who are currently struggling with depression or suicidal tendencies, this thread might not be for you. Always remember that you matter, and find someone to talk. ************************ I am definitely not the first one who came up with this idea. I mean, it's...

Hello fapstronaut friends, I'm new here, I'm from Venezuela. I do not speak much English so I will do my best .. I had long since entered the page and read some topics but then I forgot the page and did not go back in. Today I decided to register and be a constant and active user like you. I...

So ill keep it short. I was really in love with this one girl. We been together for almost half a year and we were doing long distance all of this time. Up until we met i was a virgin and shes been in a long term relationship before. So the night we had sex i realized i have PIED, i was super...

Hi all, I'd just like to share my recent experience regarding NoFap and alcohol consumption. I stopped drinking alcohol sometime during my current steak. Maybe I drank half a glass of wine at most when in company of friends, maybe once a month, but no more. I was struggling with some "dark...

I am so depressed today, I am so sorry for what I did, I wish I could take back the last 18 months of destruction and replace it with all the love and care I do have for my partner. I was so blinded by the addiction that I pushed the 1 person so far that I feel like he has given up on me. I...

Hello All, I’m 29 and I’ve struggled with pornography since I was 14 though it often wasn’t as bad as it is now. I’ve been unemployed for almost 13 months and I’ve fallen into a bit of a depression. I have a ton of anxiety especially at night and in the mornings. The anxiety is worst when I...

So some background on my situation: I'm 26 and I basically have crippling social anxiety. I feel into the incel scene and few times and because of my lack of any actual female companionship, I do have a porn addiction. I do have a few friends, but they don't really share the same interests as...

sooo I’ve been trying to talk to this girl for like 6 months and she’s so perfect and I can’t get her off my mind it’s lasted like 3 months and it’s actually kinda worrying. Idk how she feels about me but that’s off the table pretty much I can’t stop thinking about her and my sexual desires I’m...

Hello nofap, I always had a porn and masturbation addiction for 10 years now, the last 3 to 4 years it became a daily thing if there is something I do every day without missin it, is masturbating to porn. now recently I discovered a cam website (which i won't tell the name) that I got...

Hello Gentlemen, Disclaimer: everything between the stars is sarcastic. This post must not be followed literally, the goal is to beat the cycle of madness (RELAPSES) and live free. ********************************************************************* This is a comprehensive list to help you...

I have very little if not none. I thougt for a while that maybe I might have a family in the future or even a wife or girlfriend, but that had gone and passed. Even just staying pure for God alone seems like not enough. I feel so empty inside. I don't know why I continue to fight. Other people...

hi guys, i cant seem to do more than a couple of days of nofap then i binge weird fetish porn for hours. It is shameful. I really feel the effects of excessive PMO in that it makes me feel weak and energyless but i cant stop. Any advice or tips on how to just get a few more days under my belt...

Hi everyone my name is Paul and Im 22 years old. I'm a new here and looking for help. I think I have erectile dysfunction. Recently I found a beautiful girl I have always dreamed of, but I cant make love with her. Previously, I was with a girl for 5 years and never had such a problem. Then we...

Wanted to know if that's normal and what should i do?Never been depressed in my life i've always been a happy and competitive guy.It's like i feel completely fine for 3 days and the next 3-5 days i feel dull and it's repeating.

I’ve been feeling down about this subject for awhile, but the truth is I have performance anxiety. When my gf hugs, kiss, touch, or smells good I get erect, but—it’s like whenever we try to have sex my erection dies. I really want to have a sex life, especially with her, but I don’t know how to...

Primera vez que participo en esto o que comparto con alguien este tema , perdón si soy directo pero mi historia es algo larga . No recuerdo bien a que edad empecé con el porno pero creo que fue a los 10 u 11 años , miraba por televisión a escondidas ,sin embargo no había masturbación , y...

Hi, I'm new to this site and even though I knew about the NoFap for a long time now, I've never really felt the need to quit masturbating, up until now. I'm 22 and uncircumcised. I've always been a horny bastard, masturbating 2-3 times a day, constantly watching porn etc. Being the...

So i see a lot of people holding stuff in their minds and that kills them from the inside. I recently lost someone in my family due to the this thing. He kept to himself and one day he is gone. Just like that! So i am starting this thread. JUST WANT YOU TO CONFESS IF SOMETHING IS BOTHERING YOU...

Hello all, I hope you take the time to read this because I am struggling lol. A little background, I have previously been in an anxious panic and obsession about my health in particular cancer. After multiple trips to the GP for reassurance I finally released this. (I felt this was relevant...

Hi everyone, I just wanted to take a few things of my chest. I started PMOing when i was 14-15yo, it first started on the TV, since the internet was at the time, and it seemed harmless at the time. It went on for a few years, i lost my virginity at age 18 to a girl that we can call "S", we...

hey whats up guys, hope you’re all having a good day. I just want to give an update on my nofap journey. Which I started nearly 2 years ago. Well i must say there has been both good and bad moments, mostly bad but it taught me that I MUST appreciate every small beautiful moment there is. Because...

Hey guys, I know my situation sounds weird but I’d appreciate any help at all if you’ve experienced something similar because it’s ruining my life. I noticed that if I relapse and finish within 5 minutes or so then I am usually fine. The problem occurs when I have urges and I try to repress...

Hello I’m a new user and this is my first post. I wanted to tell my story to get it in the open and spend the time processing it. I first started heavily watching porn while I was deployed and away from home. I was in a loveless marriage at the time and I was an angry sad man who couldn’t...

This has been a hell of a journey. As Im typing this I feel this sense of numbness where I lack thoughts, I dont even know what Im thinking but im just typing regardless. I thought I had it in the bag but no I relapsed yesterday and was close to relapsing again today, as a matter of fact i did...

Hi guys, I'm on day 60 something right now. It's been a roller coaster ride these days. From day 1-60, there are moments when I feel so great (happy mood, more energy, more willing to socialize/go out, talkative, confidence, low anxiety, low depression). But there are days when I felt worst and...