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Hello, I have been struggling with porn addiction for years now(22 at the moment, started watching at the age of 9). I have a lot of things I have to fix, but the main thing that is bugging me right now is when I enter something like automatic mode. I am just in front of my tablet, pc, phone…...

Hey. I have admitted for long time ago that Iam a porn addict. I have been addicted to porn for about 10 years since I started on very young age. Now Im doomed in a cycle. Porn -> Alcohol -> Smoking, and repeat. I have lied to myself, I just had to admit that Im also a alcoholic and smoker too...

Guys, I wanted to ask you if you have similar experience. I’m a 23 year old guy and I honestly believe that I’ve been depressed 80% of my life. It’s getting more severe and worse with age obviously, but at the same time you feel stability and comfort when you consider yourself a piece of shit...

I've discovered nofap 2 years ago, I kept trying to stop, and I really cannot, even I know it's really bad for me, I am now in the step where I can't control myself any more, my longest streak was almost 40days, I really want to stop porn and fap forever, it damaged my whole body and my mind, I...

Our movement is bigger than you think, having a whole generation's sexuality altered is bigger than you think, self inflicted mass castration is bigger than you think, you will be fine, you will live but barely, you will strip yourself of every single beautiful thing that makes you a man, your...

Hi all! I'm a 16 year old whos been on the subreddit for a bit but has since came to the forums because the word reddit is enough of a "trigger" for me. I am insanely nihilistic and have day dreamed about the cliche, angsty teenager who decides to drown themselves in sensory overload of pleasure...

Hey there! I am a 28 year-old porn addict who has tried to get free from his addiction with very little success. I have withdrawn myself from friends and family and rarely even go out anymore unless I actually have too. I hate my job due to the stress it causes , but fear quitting due to the...

Hi everyone, I'm 25 years old , I have been addicted to porn and masturbation since 16 years of age it's been 9 years I don't feel anything excited or don't have any memories in life due to excess masturbation. After visiting nofap community from last year I tried but failed 6 times 1st...

I’m not new to NoFap or the forums, I decided to make a new account because I had fears that people I knew were able to access and read my posts that I was making. I have no real idea if this is true or not, and find myself in a bigger problem than the first time I joined NoFap. I have found...

Hi everyone, I'm so glad I found this community. I hope it will help me to make positive changes in my life. I'm a 28 y/o male. I started watching porn when I was 15 y/o and I couldn't quit for more than 3 weeks. I really wanna improve my life because I'm lackin social skills and it's making me...

i have relapsed a lot in the past 2 weeks and it sucks, i’m a teen going through puberty, will it get any easier? I think my hormones are going crazy right now…i just want to stop fapping for good. :( someone help

Here again. Years of this suffering. Weak human I am. Can't even make it to 3 days. How I'm supose to do this? Tire of been tire. And tire of saying same thing. Is pathetic. My life is freaking patetic. I cant give up. But I just can't make progres. Please help

Hello, I'm 30, from the uk and I'm suffering with pied big time. I really need someone to talk to. this isn't my first time doing nofap but its hitting me pretty hard this time round. I'm gay, from the uk and would love to meet likeminded people to talk to and, in return, also support on a...

Hello... like many of you, i'm in this fight of trying to kill porn out of my life for many years, trying again now, i'm on day 4 (i know is to early to take any conclusions, but i want to share anyways), this time though i'm under some different circunstances, i dont know if this has something...

I am feeling severely lonely, empty from inside, frustration after failing different indian competitive exams many times. Failure is because of PMO and failure again leads to PMO in turn.

Ok, for those of you who have maybe looked at some of my previous posts, you know that I currently have a femdom-findom addiction. I have had this for many years, and I am just now realizing how much it has negatively impacted my life. I do not know what it is, but for some reason paying some...

Hey, so I am 25 years old and addicted to porn. Mostly Incest- Doujinshis from a common hentai webside. But last night I realised that I have a problem. I looked at some Lolli Porn (Hentai with females who are looking like children) and at the buttom of the porn was a text from another user...

Just feeling like I wanna relapse so bad rn. Today is just one of those days that remind me how insignificant in the grand scheme of things I really am. I feel alone and even though I have friends to call they're busy with their own lives to be bothered with me. I don't like calling them or...

Once you relapse, it's so easy to continue to dig your graved deeper. A couple of reasons to why I relapse are usually more easily then not preventable if stop myself before It gets out of hand. Tiredness Loneliness Jealousy Anxiousness Stress Depressing wave of emotions. A lot of these, I...

It's been a month since I started to try and stop looking at p. My best run was 18 days but I relapse every 8 days or so. Im very depressed I can't find the motivation to study, work or do anything productive. I don't see the point to live anymore. I spend all my days laying in my bed doing...

I noticed that I can easily make it to 5 days, until the urges starts, and on 7 days it becomes really hard. Also seeing dreams about porn every night after 5 days. I cant think anything else but porn, I cant distract myself becouse the urges are nonstop on my mind. This is making me suicidal...

I have crush on two really beautiful and cute girls, I just cant do any steps to date any of them. Im too afraid and shy. I will be always alone.. how do you even get a relationship?

I cant stop watching porn, I always fail trying to reboot. Again I went in to p sites to fap, I just cant resist it. I feel completely dead and my brains are dying and Im ruining my life. I have no idea how to make it. This shit is impossible when you have went too far.. :( Great life I had..so...

TL;DR: I’m simply hopeless and there’s no cure for my case Hello, what I will write right now is basically a manifesto and conclusion of my personal failures, so sorry if it’s going to be long. Guys, I’ve been battling this addiction for two years now, I’ve been addicted for eight years...

Hello everyone.. I have a disorder or atleast i think i have one.. I feel extremely fatigued everytime, every damn time.. Im not able to do anything.. Not a single damn thing..all i do everyday is watch netflix and eat.. My fatigue is extreme.. Every stride i take feels like a burden, sitting...

I'm such a fuck up, you know what I'm tired of hearing? I'm tired of hearing my school counsellor or my soccer coach telling me shit like 'It's in your head', 'Get out of your own head' and the most useless of all 'Combat/Challenge those negative thoughts'. Surely, one would think, if they were...

Hey guys, I tried NoFap last year and the longest I went was 7 days, so I beat my record! But I feel no different and have been more depressed than ever... No, this is not a flatline because I've been this way since day 1. I was kind of expecting to at least feel better or some motivation to...

Hey Guys, I started my Journey +- 30 days ago. My first symptons of flatline show up. I'm with back pain, pressure in my tooth, very irritable, tired, stressed, it seems my energy disappear and appears random. Yesterday i faced some depression symptons that came from nothing and also go without...

Hello friends I want to share with you because I have strange feelings these days I have already done almost 4 days without porn masturbation and orgasms . I am limited to any sexual content I am focused on work, fitness progress and goals in life but I feel sad lonely it's like i'm missing...

(This is my first day here). I'm on my 6th or 7th day without porn and about an hour or 2 w/out masturbating but excluding porn, masturbating was one way of relieving depressing. Luckily I'm not as addicted as I once was yet I have a short story as to why I'm addicted. Feb of 2018 I was cheated...

I'm a 20 year old male. And I'm suffering from ED. Once I masturbated a lot and had a very high sex drive. But one day I masturbated normally like I did and after that I felt really low libido and had weak erections and weak morning woods. I did noFap but I always relapse after 7 days. I had...

Hi, guys today is 30th of my reboot. İ used to have thoughts about being gay in every reboot and in some times being pedophiliac but i didn't write about these thoughts before only the thoughts of being gay. A few weeks ago i was watching a movie about gay and pedophile it was infographic, so...

I've not looked at porn in just under 10 days and haven't done "it" in about 2 days. I've been incredibly depressed for the past 4 weeks and am waiting for my GP to call. Please tell me I'm not the only one. update: prescribed strong antidepressants

Today I cried because I realised how out of touch I am with myself and I started to feel ashamed because of it. I'm not living the life that I want to live and I don't even know what kind of life I want to live. I just feel so small compared to everyone else. It just seems as though everyone...

Got a "friend" who is driving dirty long story short my "friend" hired a lawyer a month before the lockdown to take care of his suspended license due to non payment of traffic tickets.. Paid him 2k.. Then Covid hit and all courts were shut down.. Now my "friend" can't get his license reinstated...

There are a few areas which I am insecure about with my life. Part of the reason why is because of PMO that makes me feel as though I am impulsive and that it's a good thing even when I am on a streak. I try to make an identity out of being 'spontaneous' and having multiple interests/ not having...

Im reebooting for my first time. 30 days now, no PM. Had sex with my wife tho, about 2 weeks ago. Weve been married for 16 years and have kids. Last years have been all about fighting, not much sex. Ive told her about my PM habits. She was kind of relieved (so she was not too blame), and kind...

Hello everyone. I am a 20 year old male. I've been actively viewing porn for 9 years, although I was exposed to it a while before that. I decided to quit because I've known its bad for a long time, and frankly, I'm too old to be locked in my bedroom playing with myself. My "rebooting...

Hi everybody, I started the NoFap challenge today, I've tried quitting porn and masterbation many times but always fell back into the rabbit-hole but I'm more hopeful that by having other people I can share my experiences with instead of keeping it as my dirty little secret. I went through a...

Hello, Last year I went 30 times to prostitutes after my relationship with my ex was broken. It was very stupid and quickly I realised that I was addicted to it.. because if girls didnt like me fine I went to the P's.... Now I live in Ghent alone and the urges are insane, i'm constantly...

I was introduced to Nofap 3 years ago and since then, I've tried stopping this addiction time and time again but I've constantly failed. I have never gone 30 days without fapping. Throughout this time, I realized just how much I crave and depend on this addiction. I fap when I'm anxious...

Hello good reader who decided to read and thank you for that. Intro: Me: 27 years old, Heavy PMO addict since i was 13, living in my parents house and working on a job that wont motivate me and i hate it. Because of my PMO addiction, my teenage years were mostly very unhappy - no...

I don't know if this will help any guys out, but I want to share some experience. When I was divorced in 2017, I went through a lot of bitter loneliness. Trying to get a date was impossible. But what I started to realize was that I might be on my own for some time. If that was the case, I...

Hello everyone, 3 days ago i sadly lost my 61 day streak. My mom and dad are on vacation so, i am all alone at home. And now that school is over here i was bored and then i slipped. I was sad but also happy because i have been masturbating for 5-6 years and i never could go above 2 months. But...

First at all sorry for my Bad english iam 20 years old and iam watching porn for 8 years and starting mastrubate on them for 7 years.In my childhood i was very hot to see a Body of a woman.Her ass her boobswas amazing for me.I started with low porns and searched up year for year more dort...

Hello guys,i am 26 years old guy. I have been watching porn since i was 15 or 16. Well back then it wasn't actually a proper porn. It started with actually just few pictures of hot ladies from magazine (this is pre internet kid of 90's). Then after that it shifted to 'hot movie scene' YouTube...

I have completed 1 week of NoFap iam getting a peace of mind. Even though I didn't watched porn I am getting wet dreams every day. I don't have a tempting dreams or any other triggers but my bedsheets and inner get ruined every day. Please help.

Before the arrival of android, I was around 10years old searched Google for hot girls I don't know where did I got that thought. But it was the starting of destruction of life. I was not much active person I was a serious day dreamer. After that search I was dreaming porn which involved my...

I am 27 years old and 21 days into NoFap. I'm really struggling with depression and anxiety since quitting 21 days ago. Porn has never been an issue for me- I have never watched porn. But previously I was masturbating 1-3/4 times a day. Physically controlling myself hasn't turned out to be the...

Hello guys, I have officially joined NoFap today. My main reason is that I have become a victim of PMO. Earlier I had great self-control and I really had won over this problem. But just a year or so and change in personal circumstances, I feel like I have gone back to square one. I know that...

Guys, I'm on Day 24, and I guess many people did not experience a flatline! I'm very disturbed emotionally, I just hate everyone, everything. I can't explain my situation in words. I still stay strong and wanna motivate you guys that, still having zero urges towards porn and masturbation but the...

I need some advice on how to move forward. I can’t get past day 1. I’m stuck in a rut. I have been an addict for 4 years. I’m almost 24. I can’t seem to get a new grip on life. It’s embarrassing to admit that it’s this bad, but hiding it isn’t going to solve anything. I need help. I’ve tried...

Hello. I'm on streak since 1st January. Because of compulsive masturbation and porn using I've become ani-social, insecure and depressed guy. I finally pull myself out to get that shit out of my life. I survived first major flatline, now I'm feeling better, but the problem is, I think that I...

Hey everyone! As the title says, I'm struggling a lot recently. About 7 months I had an intense interaction with a girl. Now we didn't have sex but we did bond. She was my first kiss as well as girl I ever bonded with. Things between us did not go well and I got really hurt by everything that...

Hi guys, I'm Sera and am 17 y/o, I'm looking for some great offline games that can help me with my urges. I know I'm supposed to be productive etc. But I can't focus anymore when I do something 'hard' and I intend to use video games as a 'replacement' for porn until I get about 30-50 days...

So this is it. New attempt to try become free. I started during collage and ended up addicted while being lonely. Now it’s like my brain needs it from time to time. Or else I feel forced to do it - when I feel bad. It can be because of stress, loneliness, sadness and also boredom. I’m a female...

Hey folks, i've got a problem. A deeply rooted issue of mine that's been bothering me for two years now. I am heavily depresssed, it all started with insomnia due to an anxiety problem which set it all in motion. Prior to that I was an avid bodybuilder, hopefull for the future, dreaming of...

Hi, I'm 19....I'm in a relationship, it's been about a year now...i really love her soo much...so the first time we tried having sex, i didn't get an erection...i was shocked and scared as this had never happened when i watched porn, i found out this forum, searched and found out about Pied and...

So porn use is triggered by a lot of underlying problems. For some they're brought on by childhood trama or Untreated depression and anxiety My question is; does anyone use antidepressants or mood stabilizers for help beating this? I hate the idea of taking medication myself. But my wife wants...

Let me just start off with saying I’m currently on day 45 as of writing this. My longest streak has been 70 days. This current streak I have is gonna beat that, hard mode. However as of recently I’ve been seeing a decline in my mood. I haven’t been waking up as energized and motivated as I was...

Okay, so I'm a student and a son, 19 year-old. I consider myself as a weird man. Yes, I am gay, since I was a kid I knew that I am gay. I knew that I was attracted to my same sex and by that I cannot really enjoy my life. I know I'm gay but there's something inside me that fighting against it...

hey guys! i'm new to this forum. but I heard about nofap a long time ago. so this is my story (please forgive my English because I'm not a native speaker). so I'm 25 years old, self-employed (musician), making good money for my age, since I was 20 I discovered I had ED. it sucks so I started...

You may already know, many doctors regardless in what they are specialized.. why do these doctors are always promoting Masturbation as a Relieving Stress, helps to prevent prostrate cancer so on.. even though its the root cause for many problems such as addiction, dependency over porn, less...

Nothing going better. Life has not gotten any better. It was really bad from day one and continued. What to do?

A great depression has hung over my head for a long time. Whether its just because of the porn, or also just the way I've always been, my life feels like it is missing so much. I have very few connections and have never been in a real relationship. I find it difficult to make meaningful, lasting...

It’s been 2 years since I last dated or was interested in a girl due to my severe porn addiction, which started when I broke up with my gf. Even though I did kiss a several few and there, I was not interested in them. I am 19 BTW Around 3 weeks ago I met this beautiful girl which I really liked...

I apologize if this post is depressing, I just need to vent and I need some advice. I have been trying for the last two and a half years to quit my addiction to pornography. I think that it was excited by the ridiculous amounts of stress I put on myself and the bad relationship that I was in at...

I’m sick of myself, i’ve been fapping since the first day i turned 12. I’m 18 now and i’m still fapping just depressed and lost. The only things that make me horny are crazy porn that i don’t even wanna explain. It’s been a couple days since i last fapped and i want to continue to be sober. Do...

I am tired of this. It's a fight. A big fight with myself, more precisely with my body. I am doing nofap seriously for nearly a year now but I still couldn't achieve the 90 days mark. I want to rewire my brain so that I can be confident, not in relationship or in sex. I want to be confident...

Hello. I've been on here before, and have had a long struggle with porn and masturbation. I started in my teens and became addicted to it without fully realizing how big the issue was. The fact that it became a serious problem clicked back in 2016, but I kept going at it. I'd try to stop but...

I think the universe has gave me another shot in getting sober. It's weirdly easy for me to hit a 10-day milestone back in December last year. Then, I started relapsing like crazy around February. Reaching a 7-day milestone suddenly became impossible. Now, I'm already 11 days in without any...

Sometimes I feel like there is a wave of depression hitting me, I am not sad it is just I feel so sensitive to anything that can make me sad, I know that I am not truly sad but I find that I can't stop myself of crying in this mood.. weird! I also feel that my head is sleepy and I feel lethargic...

I first got into porn around 2009 by googling pictures of celebrities naked, not aroused yet. Things slowly escalated as I got into animes by my friends during secondary school. During those days, I watched a few animes with heavy amount of fanservice but I still wasn't aroused by it until...

Hey guys This is my second attempt after failing the first time which lasted for 13 days. The real reason I started the Nofap journey was to be more attractive to girls. Safe to say its not working after 25 days. I don't see any changes. No girl is approaching me. I even started working out and...

I’ve been edging for about the last 2 years and it’s been for about 1-3 hours each time. I’ve cut it down more than usual lately. Something I’ve noticed is that even though I am 19 years old I have very low libido. I only get urges when I look at triggers. I’ve started fapping since I was around...

Hi, everyone. I'm 18 years old, and I would like to introduce myself: I live in Colombia, I love swimming and playing volleyball and playing the violin. I'm studying Medicine. I entered here, because I would like to return to be happy, to the times where I didn't know about PMO. I love the...

Four days. Yes every day for four days I have turned to porn, and in two of those days I Oed. I’m tried of it, I’m almost tired of living. I need to stop, I have tried so many times but I have no idea how. This habit has almost completely ruined my life. Even on my strongest days I cannot ever...

It means good day in polish. Im 18 years old, just graduated high school and want to have succesfull life. Ive tried nofap already before. Wasnt able to do it more than a month. After such time I just felt pain in my testicles. I had also masturbated yesterday . . . I want to feel full benefits...

Hey guys New here, so i'll introduce myself. Been Addicted to PMO since I was 13-14ish, I am 23 years old now and have been PMOing several times a day up until now. I had severe social anxiety before and lost my virginity when I turned 22. When I was with the girl I lost my virginity to, I...

Hello, My name is Zain and I’m a new member of this community. I’m 15 years old. My age might be young for such a website, but I will try my best to get through it all. PMO has brought me a lot of stress and depressing moments in my life. In addition, it took up long hours if my days. Not too...

Well, I just relapsed... AGAIN... I’m tired of this. I want to be done with porn and want to be with real girls again. I found NoFap about 2 months ago and have relapsed every single time. I miss being able to be with real women. I’m about to be 24. I’ve had multiple sexual partners, around 15...

Just like the title says I’ve had pied since I was 21 am now 27. Today is day 1 without porn and I’m trying to do hard mode. A couple years ago I went 6 months and relapsed I’m now 27. I work a full time job make good money but because of this I’m very depressed. My friend told me the other day...

Hi ,Till Yesterday I was a prisoner in the hellish prison of ma******tion. I was hopeless. I felt my life will end sorrowfully due to this evil. This is because when I was 14 year old my friend urged me to see porn. And it became an addiction. Then after some time I learned how to masurbate. I...

Next time you think about relapsing have this picture in mind! By keeping your semen you grow your testosterone levels everyday!

Hey! I'm 20 and masturbating from when I was 14-15. Sometimes regular . Sometimes twice a week . And sometimes even thrice a day . I am just starting this nofap thing . I have pied and here I am very much freaked out and messed up. I couldn't sleep at night thinking about how it can ruin my...

Yesterday my girlfriend of 3 and half years broke up with me. I told her about my PMOing back in August when I noticed it began to affect my relationship in a variety of ways. After PMOing everyday 2-3 times a day (sometimes more) around last July I started to become less physically and...

the question above . I feel like i have friends and people who care about me (idk) but i still feel so lonely and i am only 17 . My day constists of me going to school and back to home being alone for the rest of the day . Idk i think my life is so fcked up everybody my age is so ahead of me and...

Hey guys, Just want to say to the NoFap collective: Thank you. Some of the most intense (and justified) stress I've ever felt in my life is compounding right now....and I still haven't masterbated, watched porn or orgasmed in over a month now. It hasn't been easy, my sleep is erratic, I feel...

Lets first start and interduce my self I'm 21 years old male and I'm having an addiction of fapping and sometimes watching porn. What did i do to battle my addiction? I first removed all my social accounts Facebook, Instagram, and twitter I also added an anti-porn plugin on my google chrome to...

So this is a first for me. I have been introduced to porn at the age of 13 and have started PMO’ing since then. Its been 18 years where my life has not been going according to plan. Although I am successful, have I never really met my full potential ever and could not understand why. On 19...

im a 19 year old who has been suffering from pmo addiction for many years now but in the past year my life changed. I started to edge to porn for hours on end and i would feel absolutely terrible afterwards. I would edge but after edging for hours I would still orgasm. I still don’t know if I’ll...

Greetings, rebooters! It's My #1 thread. Last night was one of the worst nights of my life and I'll tell you what happened. Some background information. I am a 24-year-old male living in Beijing, China. I completed my Masters in New York University this summer. I have completed 2 sessions of...

Greetings, rebooters! It's My #1 thread. Last night was one of the worst nights of my life and I'll tell you what happened. Some background information. I am a 24-year-old male living in Beijing, China. I completed my Masters in New York University this summer. I have completed 2 sessions of...

Has anyone experienced overactive thyroid and adrenals because of pornography?

I had an affair with a coworker. It ended bad and she ended up filling false allegations against me, sexual harassment. I was removed my my department for 6 months until the case was resolved and I was the case was rescinded. We are working together again and I refuse to see her (make eye...

I've been cutting back from porn and somewhat masturbation. I do it like every 3 days and I started doing that because I was question my sexual orientation and I was getting into some really sick shit that I would do to myself. I'm pretty certain now that I know I'm not bisexual or gay. It was a...

Im a 20 year old guy thats been suffering with HOCD. Ive never been attracted to guys before. I never check them out in public like I do with girls. Ive always liked girls. Ive been doing nofap because of the benefits i heard it has on HOCD. I was on my 4th day and relapsed and I had some gay...

Sorry if im posting in the wrong area im new to nofap but Im a 20 year old guy and a virgin and let me first start off by saying I cannot remember a time in my life when I ever checked out a guy. I notice they might be a good looking guy but I never got horny or felt like I wanted to have sex...

Im 16 years old and on day 32 now of nofap. I could keep going because for me this is easy but from my experience, nofap is bad. I started it because I watched a video about it and thought "Wow, superpowers? That sounds great". I wasn't addicted to masturbation before because I did go a week...

Hello everyone. This is only my 2nd post in this community so i'm still new. Around 2 months ago I started to realize porn was having a negative impact on my life. So I decided to quit. Since than I have relapsed so many times but now, I feel much more confident in being able to stay on nofap...